According to relevant reports, due to excessive rainfall recently, the county and its surrounding cities have been flooded, and the TV sets have been disconnected without warning between the roads."
Eh, I said you, it's only the number of today, didn't you say a few days of grace, and in a few days, my mother will pay the electricity bill, what do you mean by cutting off the power to me today, you" As soon as the phone was connected, my mother slapped the table angrily, and her eyes flashed with anger and frustration."
What kind of big name do I rely on, my mother doesn't pay the fee, what quality" The mother gritted her teeth and threw the phone into the sofa, I knew that she was because the other party hung up the phone.In the past few days, my mother made a mistake in the project, which not only made the company lose money, but also was demoted by the manager and deducted wages.Last month's salary has not been paid, and the electricity bill has been delayed until today, so it can be said that my mother's mood has not improved at all these days.I know it's all because of me that my mom is nervous now.If it weren't for being tripped up by Xiang Qing's angel, my mother wouldn't have bothered me with Arlo's affairs and caused that important project to go wrong.After my mother and I had breakfast absentmindedly, my mother sorted out the papers and went out, and after hearing the sound of the door locking, there was a series of hurried footsteps.I sullenly cleaned up the table and paced into the kitchen, unscrewing the faucet to clean the milk-soaked cups.Although the family is still well-off, my mother burned a lot of money because of my dance learning, and finally fell to the point that she was reluctant to hire a nanny.My mother is arrogant, she will never take a penny from my grandmother's house, and she will shine on the stage so that I can get ahead, so even if she is afraid of being fired, she is also making me live like a big lady enough.Covered with a beautiful and elegant aura, it seems as ridiculous as essentially changing Cinderella's fate.Those so-called bitterness and unwillingness, it is as if with the brilliance on me, everything becomes worthwhile.She only told me to keep jumping, and all the time she forgot to ask me what I thought about the client, and imposed those thoughts on me, making it a heavy, breathless package.I wish someone would tell me to take a break.But I clearly understood that I longed for liberation at this time, and there was nothing more joyful and relieved than being liberated.The reflection of me in the window, wearing a mask with skin and flesh attached, is deeply engraved on my face, and it is difficult to take it off.Between a smile and a smile, according to the appearance prescribed by the mask, gently smiling and elegant, everything does not really belong to me.It was a puppet carved out of wood, numb and stiff according to the rules, and after being thrown on the surface of the lake and causing a ripple, it returned to silence and made no sound, and sank to the bottom of the water without a trace of light.Who am I living for, and why am I living like a lonely patient, so sensitive that all the caution of the tense nerves becomes ridiculous, and I am afraid that in the face of the same days, only my dress and shoes are left with schadenfreude and mocking laughter.Hideous, fearful and lonely, in this deserted Dead Sea, finally drowned in the mud and sand of the sea with the heart that had resisted, and built the saddest epitaph.Death is only in a moment, breaking the fantasy becomes a reality.Now, I heard the sound of the fish crying.The sea in my memory, whether the seagulls can still spread their wings and fly high.The cup suddenly slipped from my hand and fell to the floor with a loud and piercing sound, and I looked at the broken cup in a daze, and only then did I crouch down and pick up the fragments."
Hiss" I hurriedly withdrew my hand, looking at the cut in my finger, which was slowly oozing blood.I bit my lip and frowned, the subtle pain pulling at the most sensitive thread, and I stared at the bleeding finger for a long time.If I died like this, I staggered to my feet in horror on the ground, clenched my bleeding hands and stared at the blood-stained fragments on the floor, and I felt a touch of excitement and unspeakable yubs sickly as if I smelled the breath of death, at this time I was like a pathology in a dark comic, only feeling that every cell in my body was beating excitedly, and the blood that lived in rebellion was full of crazy and vulgar factors.I gritted my teeth, and the irrepressible joy hit my sanity at this time, and the suicidal thoughts suddenly flooded, making me choke back into nausea again.I clutched my hand, my head couldn't stop dizzying, and under the strange breath, I looked at the bleeding fingers, and sat down weakly on the ground, stiffly pulling out a sneer.I stretched out my hand to pick up a piece of shard, stared at my wrist, and slowly relieved, "There is no hurdle in life that cannot be overcome, this time I almost cut the artery, as the mother of the child, don't put too much pressure on her, if you have a suicidal thought, there will be a second time, you have to take good care of your child." ”Now, it's over, who's talking in my ear" She's fine now, but remember to take good care of her injured hand, and she's sensitive now, don't irritate her. ”Why, my whole body feels like I don't have strength, where am I" has already opened her eyes, she will regain consciousness in a while, remember not to let her be stimulated again. ”The first thing that caught my eye was the white ceiling, and then I touched the bare branches outside the window, and the female doctor in the white coat and the tired old mother.I remember that there was also a tree in front of my window that had lost its leaves, and my mother's face was full of exhaustion all the time.I slowly closed my eyes, and the thought of myself standing in the kitchen finally picked up the fragment of the water glass, and cut my wrist.It turns out that I didn't die and was rescued again, will my mother beat me again, why is Ah Luo staying by Xiang Qingtian's side now, so jealous.After the female doctor was gone, I felt my mother pull over a stool and sit down in front of me, followed by a long, heavy silence."
Are you feeling better, are you feeling bad?"
said my mother in an unexpectedly soft voice, and there seemed to be a tremor in her voice."
Well, it's much better."
I endured the burning pain in my wrist and restrained the powerlessness of my body and said against my will.I'm also stealing joy, and after stealing joy once after death, I can exchange it for a long-lost tenderness from my mother."
Lin Qi, do you really like that boy so much, you can resist me and die" I opened my eyes silently, looking at my mother's decadent face covering, covering her slightly old face, I could see her sadness and self-blame through almost everything.When I caught a glimpse of my mother's long hair, my heart ached.I'm taking a life, engraved alive on the tip of her heart, making a bet that can't afford to lose everything."
Mom, how much you like Dad, I like him as much.We are the same, if we like someone who doesn't like us, we are doomed to a lifetime of bitter grievances. ”I laughed bitterly, looked at my mother's shocked expression and said, "Mom, are you right, we can obviously not let ourselves suffer so much." ”"You've grown up."
Mom put down her hand, hooked the corners of her mouth self-deprecatingly, and said slowly with a fiery gaze that looked directly at me.Yes, I've grown up, but I'm not mature yet.I felt guilty for my recklessness and irrationality, and I was also a weaker person who casually wanted to die.My dear, if I really love, I will never be so cowardly again, I will live hard with my love for you, and try to be strong enough to smile like a summer flower in a world without you.If we will miss it eventually, I will never regret it, and I will take the good you once had, bravely live and laugh and cry.Become a flesh and blood man who is no longer the walking dead.When my mother went back to work, I felt sleepy again, and after yawning lazily, I pushed the door open when I was going to sleep.I looked over with half-squinted eyes, and sat up at the sight of the familiar figure, stunned and unable to utter a word.Arlo glanced at me coldly, and leisurely paced in through the doorway, sitting in front of my bed with his hands clenched into fists and his legs raised."
Alo."
I swallowed hard and struggled for a long time before I took the initiative to break the deadlock.I hadn't been in touch with him for two weeks since I was dragged home by my mother, and now he suddenly appeared in the hospital, his eyes still showing the coldness and detachment of that day.I don't know what's wrong with us, maybe he's tired of me, tired of my brazen dead face."
Lin Qi, I can't see that you are quite capable, you usually pretend to be angry in front of me, but your heart is full of city government and calculations" Ah Luo snorted disdainfully, and the disgust that emanated from his pupils was me, "Well, suicide is really ruthless."
Not only did I reconcile with your mother, but I also forced my boyfriend to come out to find you by himself"""Seeing that I kept my head down and didn't dare to look at him directly, Ah Luo grabbed my injured hand, and there was no trace of distress and unbearability in his cold pupils: "Lin Qi, you are really willing to tie me with your life, but don't forget, the last thing I am afraid of is threat" I frowned and snorted, but Ah Luo still refused to let me go easily, and took me into his arms and bit my lip.He bit my lip rudely, and quickly broke through the city and probed into my mouth, and in an instant, the bloody lingering covered my entire mouth, and I gradually lost my struggle in his arms.The rudeness and plundering with punishment made my tear ducts collapse and I couldn't stop crying hot tears.The saltiness that slipped into his mouth was accompanied by the thick blood, and it became bitter in a moment.Arlo frowned impatiently, slowly slid down to stay in my ear, and after biting down hard, a voice full of anger and helplessness slowly sounded in my ears: "It's stupid, I'm almost really dead" Well, I'm stupid, I'm almost really dead.I almost never saw you again.Ah Luo, perhaps after experiencing this irrational suicide, I began to feel relieved, relieved of the delicate relationship between you and Xiang Qingtian.I no longer insist on forcing your clarification, I just need to remember, remember clearly, that you are my boyfriend, and I am your rightful girlfriend.No matter how many sunny days stay between us, the only thing I know is that even though your heart doesn't belong to me, I'm also your girlfriend, the girlfriend you confessed.My dear, I don't know how long we can go, but I just want to hold on to this love at the moment, like a moth to a fire, to cherish the present moment.Maybe the white horse will pass through the gap in this young year, and I can also cross the island of the four seasons and cross the sea to see you.Just for many years later, if you are scattered in the north and south of the world and wander alone, I think you can come and meet you again for the first time
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