The city is as cold at night as ever, and the bright street lamps that line the streets illuminate the city deeply.Even though it was half past two in the morning, the place was still brightly lit and noisy, but I felt lonely standing alone in the middle of the city.Carrying a heavy suitcase, I silently walked through the crowd, so strange that it was like I was a traveler from afar, and there was no one to pick up the dust.I've lived in this city for more than ten years, and I made up my mind yesterday to leave forever and never come back, but today I'm back here with my tail between my legs.You tell me if you can't bear me so no matter how far I go, I'll eventually come back here, at a loss.Leaning against the platform, I rubbed my hands together and kept breathing, hoping to warm myself up as soon as possible.The cars that flew by one after another, but I didn't move at the sound of the whistle, staring at the tips of my shoes with my head bowed slightly, silent.Is my mom home now, or working overtime in the company, or in the living room with heavy dark circles under her eyes, constantly typing on the keyboard, I am free, and I am panicking again.There is no love, friendship is not unique, that belongs to my family, has I been discarded and far away, thinking of the dispute with my mother over the years, I feel regretful, and I can't help but scold myself in the bottom of my heart that I have no conscience and only care about my own feelings.I didn't know that my mother just loved my dad too much, so when she saw those dancing shoes, she thought that it was natural for my dad to want me to keep dancing.It's just that I've always pretended not to understand, so selfish that I will only constantly rebel against everything about my mother, but I will instantly vent my anger when my mother is angry."
What are you doing, let me go, or I'll do everything as a madman, get out of here" A familiar and annoying voice suddenly came from my ears, and as soon as I raised my head, I saw Xiang Qingtian pulling and pulling with a boy.I couldn't help but feel a sense of resentment, looking at Xiang Qingtian's appearance, I forgot that I was no better, and walked towards her with my legs and said sarcastically: "Miss Xiang is so late that she still has to pick up customers, but you have to think about your own body." ”I looked at Xiang Qingtian with a blushing face with disdain, and the stuffiness in my heart gradually decreased, but I still refused to let her go so easily: "The outside is not clean at all, Miss Xiang must love herself and don't get any bad diseases, otherwise she will cry in the future." ”Xiang Qingtian has really changed, becoming more and more strange.Just from the way she faced me at this time, it proved that she had indeed changed completely.She was no longer forced to stammer or even be speechless by my words as before, and she no longer looked at me with dodgy and cowardice.She gently pulled up an arc angle, her eyes flashed with a little mockery, pushed away the man who was entanglement with one hand, and said to me: "Isn't this sentence very useful to you Lin Qi, in fact, we are not at ease in our bones, why are we pretending to be stupid about this thing that we know well?"
Xiang Qingtian glanced at me meaningfully, slowly leaned over, and said word by word by my ear: "Lin Qi, what I don't want anymore to Xiang Qingtian, I won't let it worry about anyone other than me."
Don't worry, I won't let you go so easily, after all, I wanted you to live rather than die from the beginning. ”I hurriedly wanted to grab Xiang Qingtian to ask clearly, but she reacted before me and took a few steps back, put her arm around the boy's hand, and smiled brightly and innocently: "Lin Qi, we'll see you in the park tomorrow, I, I have a secret I want to share with you" I gritted my teeth and was about to catch up, but she pulled the boy into the taxi parked on the side of the road, rolled down the window and laughed happily: "Then Lin Qi, we'll see you tomorrow morning at ten o'clock, don't worry, I don't know where Ah Luo is now, he is not by my side." ”When the exhaust of the taxi dissipated, I only reacted back from Xiang Qingtian's words for a long time, a little relieved but hurried, he was not here with me and did not find Xiang Qingtian, so where would he go The question was dispelled as soon as it came out, I pulled the corners of my mouth with a wry smile, Lin Qi, is it possible that you have to fall into it again and be abused again After opening a room in the hotel with mixed feelings, I tossed and turned on the bed with a full heart, and it was difficult to sleep.In the end, after forcing himself to take a sleeping pill, he fell asleep uncomfortably.In the dream, I dreamed that I had become a junior, destroying the relationship between Ah Luo and Xiang Qingtian, and unscrupulously keeping Ah Luo by my side, which eventually caused everyone to die well.When I was panicking, I woke up, crying hysterically, and walked to the tall building, in this city that has accompanied me for more than ten years, standing on the edge of the highest building, dancing the dance I know and love the most.At the end of the dance, I fell weightlessly forward, and as the cold wind blew against my ears, I felt my body torn apart by the cold wind, and a soft, low voice called me softly in my ear, as if I were his treasure.It was as real as a dream, cruelly cutting all my fantasies, and finally I faced the rising warm sun, my back was wet, and the blood from the bite of my lips flowed into my mouth, stimulating the bitterness on my taste buds.Dream within a dream, in a dream I dreamed that I had become a shameless junior, but I woke up in the dream and found that it was just a dream, but I dreamed that I jumped off a tall building and fell into a blur of flesh and blood, and when I woke up again, I found that it was still a dream.I raised the corners of my mouth bitterly, and all that sounded in my ears was to tell Qingtian that I had a secret to tell me.After getting out of bed after sorting out my emotions, brushing my teeth and washing my face quickly and without delay, I left the room with my suitcase and headed straight for the park.There are some things that I don't want to face anymore, and I have to solve them myself.When I came to the park, I found that Xiang Qingtian had come earlier than me.She sat quietly on the stone table, looked at my blank appearance and chuckled, then waved at me and motioned for me to walk over.came to the position opposite her and sat down, without waiting for me to ask her, she threw out a few photos from her bag, and smiled harmlessly: "Lin Qi, look at it, it's really interesting" I glanced at Qingtian suspiciously, and when I picked up a photo and looked at it, my whole body immediately stiffened, and when I turned around, I angrily tore up the photo, glaring at Xiang Qingtian's eyes, and wanted to kill her for the first time."
You can tear it up, I have a lot of backups of the photos, and now I have prepared two copies to send away, one for your mother, and the other for you" Xiang Qingtian deliberately didn't say any more, his fingers kept tapping on the stone table, looking so leisurely, "Su, Han, Xi. ”I stood up all of a sudden, and I couldn't restrain myself anymore and scolded Xiang Qingtian angrily: "Xiang Qingtian, how can you give these to Han Xi, even if you take them to Ah Luo, I won't say a word, what are you thinking about now, you want to give these to Han Xi" "Don't say Ah Luo, I can't contact him now, even if I contact me, why should I give him someone like him, I think it's ridiculous that women haven't slept with a few men, well, I didn't expect you to be similar to me, Carrying the box and running to the netizen onenightstand, I was abandoned by Arlo, so I was in such a hurry to find the next one" Speaking of this, Xiang Qingtian looked at me with even more disdain in his eyes, and even became mocking without concealing his tone: "Lin Qi, you are no better than me, at least I dare to be a daring person, like you, White Lotus, I really regard myself as a princess, but I am so cheap in my bones that I can't do it." ”"Xiang Qingtian, what do you want to do" I forced the urge to hit her, thinking that when she took out the photo, she must have something to ask me, and I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief when I thought of this.However, all my small actions were all taken into Xiang Qingtian's eyes, and she sneered, shattering my only hope for surviving life: "Lin Qi, I don't want to do anything, I just want to destroy you."
Don't worry, I forgot to tell you, there is also a copy I posted on the school forum, I guess you have already become the headline at this time, after all, the Internet is so developed now.Oh yes, you said that your mother will be angry into the hospital after receiving a call from the school" I looked at Xiang Qingtian in horror, and the originally suppressed impulse instantly replaced reason, I glared at Xiang Qingtian angrily, and hurriedly ran to the place where my mother was working.For so many years, I hated her, but I really loved and missed her before.I can't imagine that she is seeing her talented dancing daughter, who has always been so proud, become a shameless headline overnight, reduced to a disgusted figure in the whole school, and shatter the elegant image she has worked so hard to manage for her daughter.She has been widowed for many years and pulled her daughter to grow up, in order to let her daughter not be discriminated against by anyone in school, she worked overtime day and night, and now she is sick and heartbroken for me.I really can't imagine her falling, she has always been a strong woman in people's eyes, a heroine in my mind.Now that her daughter has made her so ashamed, how should she face her daughter who has been rebelling against her.I began to regret that I had provoked Xiang Qingtian, and I began to despair of everything.Once you fall into it, it's really hard to get out.It's just that I can't, let me stay by my mother's side more peacefully, do my filial piety for her, and dance forever.Something hit my knee and it hurt, I felt a hot current flow somewhere in my body, and then my vision suddenly blurred, I reached out and touched my forehead, only to see that my palms were full of blinding red.I felt like my eyes were covered with a red cloth, and I could only faintly see the red light on the other side of the road and the endless stream of cars between the streets.I fell feebly to the cold and hard ground, and my consciousness gradually began to dissolve, and everything that had passed suddenly flashed back to me in my mind.I saw that I had been looking at this strange and warm world for as long as I could remember, and I was only surrounded by my mother, but I was extremely happy.Then on my fifth birthday, I heard that my father, who died young, sent me a package, and I couldn't help but wonder, isn't my father dead, is there really a ghost in the world, and even he can give me a gift on my birthday, but in the end, no one told me why, only I went to find out why.Everything changed, and when my father's birthday gift arrived to me a few years ago, all the good things I could think of were shattered.In the more than ten years of numbness and unchanging hurry, I only remember my mother's stern eyes, stiff face, cold words, and the hangers, feather dusters and even brooms that have been constantly falling on my body.Later, I met a bad boy, I promised him everything sincerely, but what I got was betrayal and compromise again and again in love, and in the end I couldn't get him back, and let him go to the girl I hated the most.And Han Xi, she is my goddess, my spiritual pillar, and even my belief in living.There are also Xiaoguang, Xu Xian, Uncle and Beixi, they are all so good, which makes me so reluctant and happy.Xiang Qingtian, who has a lot of shortcomings, I obviously hate her so much, and even bullied her, insulted her, and beat her, but I still have to admit that the light on her body was so dazzling, so dazzling that I wanted to destroy her more than once.In the end, we, the indirect murderers, really ruined her, pushing her to the precipice of rebellion, being chased by the wolves, not daring to go forward easily or backward.Do I hate Xiang Qingtian I don't know what it means to really hate, I just know that I hate her, I hate everything about her, and I hate her decadent and erosive like this, and I can be deeply liked by Arlo.And in my life, I have lived such a mess
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