"What, it's just for fun."
I smiled reluctantly at Fairy Xu, but my fists couldn't help but clench.Fairy Xu looked at me coldly, and then she stretched out her hand and tied a ponytail indiscriminately, picked up the coat on the side, put it on, and opened the door and was about to go out."
Fairy, stay and finish breakfast, I've already called Gu Xi, and he will deliver breakfast."
I caught up and grabbed Fairy Xu, waved my phone at her, but I smiled bitterly first."
No need, goodbye."
Fairy Xu pulled out the hands I was holding her, turned around and walked out of the door and downstairs."
Miss Xu, are you going back, stay and finish breakfast before leaving.""
Aunt An doesn't need it, I'm in a bit of a hurry and I'll leave first.""
Miss Xu should be careful all the way."
Listening to the footsteps that had already gone away, I sat down on the floor weakly, holding my legs with both hands, but tears fell down one by one.The mobile phone screen in his hand flashed and disappeared for a while, but it always stayed at that number and could not be dialed again.That's the guy I've been thinking about day and night, but he's not just me anymore.I almost trembled and pressed down the number, and the beep that came from it could stir up the waves in my heart."
I'm sorry, the number you dialed is on a call, please dial again later" I smiled self-deprecatingly, but reluctantly dialed again.In the past, he would never hang up on me, nor would he perfunctory me for the sake of other girls."
I'm sorry, the phone you dialed is turned off" I slammed my phone down, and all my strength collapsed in an instant, and I hugged myself tightly, from sobbing to crying hysteria.Xu Cheng, it turns out that I can cry so hypocritically for the sake of boys other than you, but do you know that the person I love betrayed his dedicated love for me.I will never be able to accept that one day the person who loves me so much and I love so much will begin to be perfunctory and impatient with me, and even yell at me, but the moment he turns around, he can be gentle and considerate to other girls.But the last thing I want to face is that I have to accept the status quo.Every day has gradually become stiff and perfunctory, and when I see him smiling so happily at the phone because of another girl, it is no longer uncomfortable but torture.Many people have asked me if you and Beixi have quarreled, but even I don't know what happened to us, why did we become so strange and estranged, and even the little quarrel that was happy before has now become a sensitive string, as long as it touches it, it will explode like a fuse.It's really tiring, so it becomes a burden on each other, and they all become sensitive and calculating.I'm a selfish person, how can I cater to other people's emotions, be careful of other people's sensitivity, and then I'm also vigilant to get along with him I'm selfish, I only care about myself.Staggering to my feet and taking out the needle in the drawer, I smiled bitterly, lifted my arm under the long sleeve, and slowly injected it in.The pain slowly eased, and then I felt extremely excited and excited, but when I saw the pinholes in my hands, I subconsciously remembered Gu Xi.It doesn't matter what happens to him, anyway, there is a girl who loves him so much, and it is worth him to love seriously, so I don't care, but Gu Xi, I miss you so much, do you want me to silently pull out the needle to stop the injection, I felt a little dizzy, and I fell to the ground weakly.I leaned feebly on the edge of the bed, staring down at the pale floor tiles, but I felt the heart-rending pain gnawing at my body, making me more and more numb.Silently took out a cigarette from my pocket, and after skillfully lighting the fire, I smoked it one by one, and the cigarette that I accidentally inhaled into my lungs choked a little, making me cough.Looking blankly at the red dot in my hand, I slowly closed my eyes, thinking that it would be nice to die like this.Clean to nothing, I am also useless, then buried in the loess buried in the cherry blossom forest carved a monument, the next year wind and snow transition overgrown weeds.It's just that what makes me unwilling is that I compromise so easily and don't even dare to ask questions.I don't know when I fell asleep again, but I did not know that when I woke up again, I was back in bed, and there was a breakfast on the cabinet that had been cold for a long time.Breakfast was prepared by Aunt An, this is certain, as for who carried me back to the bed, I think it should be Aunt An who called Gu Xi to come back, because if it was me who called, he would never answer.It's really ridiculous, he's my boyfriend, but he accompanies other girls, he doesn't answer my phone calls as a girlfriend, but he can answer other people's calls, "Aunt An" said that his throat was abnormally painful, and even the voice that finally screamed was a little broken.I frowned slightly, realizing that I had a cold but no extra emotions.In the past, when Gu Xi was by my side, I would deliberately make a big noise and make him worry about me, but now he feels tired even when he carries me back to bed sleeping on the ground, how can he stay by my bedside as before, and the eyes that look at me are so gentle that they can turn into water.But his gentleness no longer belongs only to me, but also makes me more and more sensitive to the extreme of complaining when both parties are impatient with feelings.What makes the tears flood and make the carefully tended flowers begin to wither, and when the sun goes down and the sky is dark, who will accompany you to dinner, and say good night to you when you are sleepy, "Miss, you wake up, you see that this breakfast is cold, I'll give you a bowl of noodles" Aunt An knocked on the door gently, and after opening the door, she didn't walk in, but stood at the door and asked me in a whisper."
Aunt An, don't bother, I'll go out later, just buy something to eat outside."
I shook my head slightly, but found that my throat was uncomfortable, and after getting up and finding cold medicine, I looked at it for a long time and didn't take a glass of water to drink.Aunt An looked at me worriedly and said slowly, "Miss is still going out today, if it's not a big deal, let's go out when I'm in good health." ”"No need Aunt An."
Avoiding Aunt An's gaze, I silently put the cold medicine back again, turned around and picked up the water cup and took a sip of water, "Aunt An, Gu Xi is back." ”There was no trace of doubt, because Gu Xi's return had been confirmed, I smiled helplessly, and said, "Then, I left again." ”"Miss" Aunt An looked at me again and again, and finally gritted her teeth and said, "Have you quarreled with Young Master Beixi, I haven't seen him come back recently, and he will come back today" "Aunt An, go on." ”Aunt An sighed helplessly, paced and took out a coat from the closet and put it on for me before continuing: "Young Master Beixi smelled of wine when he came back, he should have drunk a lot of wine, and he was also accompanied by a girl with short hair. ”I smiled indifferently, bowed my head a little evasively, but said nothing."
Miss, if it's really a quarrel, let's have a good talk with Young Master Beixi, during this time, Young Master Beixi will smell of wine every time he comes back, and his body will collapse if he drinks it like this."
Aunt An stroked my messy hair for me with pity, and said, "Young Master Beixi is really, I used to let you so much, how can I care about you for other girls now, I'm chilling" "Aunt An, I'm so sad, but people are better than me, what can I do" "Aunt An, will I lose him" The day of the beginning of summer has begun to be hot, but it is inevitable that the morning and night will be cold, I wrapped my coat tightly and couldn't help but shiver a little, just walked off the bus, my legs couldn't help shaking.I really looked at the lonely platform, at this time at eight o'clock in the evening, it was already dark, and even the street lamps on the side of the road were a little perfunctory and emitting dim light.I clawed and scratched my hair irritably, the sound of a broken street lamp indicating that I was going to retire at any time, and the sound of a dog barking in the distance or two was enough to drive me crazy.So I hate the rhythm of dying and running out the most, but there's no way, and no one can stop me when I do it.When she came to her ward, the nurse was giving her a tranquilizer, and she was struggling and unwilling to cooperate, but when she saw me, she laughed stupidly and didn't move.I watched coldly as the nurse inserted the needle into her bony arm, but she didn't know it, just smiled at me stupidly, as if it really didn't matter.As long as her daughter is here, she doesn't have to open her mouth no matter what, she will be very obedient and obedient to the arrangement.If you give her a knife and let her stick it in herself, she will not hesitate to stick it in as long as your daughter is there.I'm sorry, Shang Shang.It's my fault, and it's my sin.After the nurse gave her a tranquilizer, she smiled at me with a relaxed face and said, "Sure enough, you are here to control her, you don't know how much she tossed just now, but fortunately you came, just talk to her, and call us over whenever there is anything." ”"Thank you.""
No, just stay with her.She has been in a very unstable mental state recently, don't talk to her too radically to stimulate her, try to follow her topic slowly, but don't say too much at once, she will not be able to accept it. ”"Hmm."
After sending the nurse away, I smiled at her, moved the stool and sat in front of her bed, held her hand tightly, and said, "Mom, I'm here to see you." ”She happily touched my face, opened her mouth and said with some difficulty: "Okay" "Mom, don't say too much, have a good rest, I'm here with you." ”I say."
Shang Shang is still good" I pursed my lips sadly, buried my head in her arms and said sullenly: "Mom, everything will be fine, you still have to wait for me to attend my wedding after graduating from college" "Okay" She still replied yes, but she seemed to have a lot of things to say to me, and she didn't know how to say it."
Well, everything will be fine."
I choked up and my eyes reddened, and my hands clasped her calloused hands tightly, promising us all to be happy
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