"Su Han" I stopped suddenly, and the moment I looked up, tears welled up again.The drizzling rain was very cold on her body, and her voice was as indifferent and nice as ever.In the eyes that froze the enthusiasm in the rain, I looked at her quietly, and at this time there was a strange man beside her who held an umbrella for her.I gently pressed my long hair flying in the wind, smiling so calmly, not wanting to lose my dignity.I saw her frowning slightly, and the words that had reached her mouth but wanted to stop talking, I heard me open my mouth first: "Hi fairy, I forgot to bring an umbrella again" forgot to get used to being alone after missing Gu Xi's company.Accustomed to holding an umbrella for me without him, without him borrowing my coat to wear, without his gentle companionship just Gu Xi, I miss you so much, I can't wait to see you, how can I be strong without you Su Zhiyang is really married, he doesn't want me anymore.I'm sorry, I'm so useless to push myself so badly."
Su Han, if you can discuss it with Uncle Su, don't make an awkward scene, it's not good for anyone."
I swept the hair hanging on my forehead to the back, and after a few seconds of slight startle, I reached out and turned off the switch, and the hot water in the shower head stopped all of a sudden, staring at the smooth floor tiles, I sighed slightly, and what lingered in my ears was the last words that Xu Xianzi left me.I took the pajamas on the shelf, put them on quickly, and instead of leaving the bathroom, I walked to the mirror.After wiping off the mist covering the mirror, the mirror surface became clearer, and I stared at myself in the mirror blankly, but I couldn't make a smile.He reached out and touched his forehead, but he touched the conspicuous scar on his left hand.I slowly lowered my hand and laughed self-deprecatingly as I looked at a small five-petal flower burned out of a cigarette butt on my left arm.It's really not an ordinary embarrassment, I scratch my wet hair irritably, and habitually pull out another cigarette and smoke it, but I never smoke any other brand of cigarette except for women's cigarettes.It's just because Shang Shang said that if I really can't help smoking, smoking women's cigarettes is better for my body.Shang Shang, that girl who likes the sea, are you doing well in heaven now, there must be a sea of stars in heaven, it's good.Someone like me can't go to heaven with you, I smoky without a mouthful, but suddenly I felt nauseous for no reason, but I just retched and felt uncomfortable, and I didn't vomit anything.I looked at the lady's cigarette still between my fingers, but it felt unusually glaring and bright, and my eyes were moist as if something was rolling down.I stared blankly at the tearful woman in the mirror, finally extinguished the cigarette and covered my mouth and swallowed, I realized that some things really don't mean that you can turn back.But what can I do but be strong, I can't hold anything I desperately want to hold, and finally crying and screaming and trying to hold on.Gu Xi, I'm so sad where you have been.After walking out of the bathroom and looking at the empty living room, I rubbed my temples with a headache, walked to the window and drew some curtains.The TV was still playing noisily with the cartoon Big Ears Tutu, and I took the remote control and curled up in the sofa, holding Elizabeth's pillow but first shed tears."
There is only one sun, and it brings warmth to Tutu; There was only one gust of wind, which blew away the sweat from Tutu's body; Dad only has one, and the chocolate and ice bullying can't be exchanged. ”I pressed the off button of the remote control suddenly, and then the screen went black instantly, and there was no light in the room without lights except for some lights faintly coming in through the window.Outside is the hustle and bustle of the city that never sleeps, there will be a constant stream of people downstairs, there will be a lot of traffic on the streets, and the one I love so much is also in this corner of the city, accompanied by unknown girls.Alone for me, I stood on the edge of the city, deafening on one side and terrifyingly silent on the other.I also have people I like, people who I like so much that I can't leave no matter how much I hate them, one is Gu Xi and the other is Su Zhiyang.It's just that now how can I go back to the house of that strange woman.I will say beautiful cruel words, and I will not leave any room for words, but what is the use of being beautiful, I can't stop them from falling in love, or I can't stop them at all.Because I understand that it is not easy to love each other, I also have more feelings of sympathy, I don't want this, and I have no ability to accept it."
A total of eighty-six pieces of five corners, looking for you thirteen pieces of five corners, thank you for coming."
I lightly lifted the big bag of snacks, and then walked out of the supermarket that closed the latest, looking at the still noisy street, I suddenly remembered Gu Xi, picked up the mobile phone but saw that on the call record, none of the calls to him were connected.23:00 sharp, it's still too early for me, but I can't find anything to do.After I ran out of the hotel, Jian Yi also called me, and I just said that I was safe and didn't plan to tell her too much, mainly because she couldn't tell her about my affairs, but she would uncover the scars of the two and make things more of a headache.They are all women who are hurt by their feelings, and they just feel sad when they talk too much.I also thought about talking to Lin Qi or the fairy, but how embarrassed am I to talk about the current relationship Lin Qi has traced, and he is also doing rehabilitation every day, seeing a pair of legs slowly getting better, I went to say that these things don't affect her mood There is also a fairy, I didn't tell her about heroin last time, although I was not embarrassed after I happened to meet today, but I also understood everything when I saw the boy who accompanied her.You see, everyone is starting to be happy, do you still want to destroy it selfishly Su Hanxi, can you not hate me so much I looked at the street lights blankly, it turned out that in the end, I was the only one who lost everything.Everyone is trying to be happy, so what about you, you lose everything, and you can't get everything back.As I walked absentmindedly down the street, I saw a pharmacy across the street with its doors open, and I clenched my fists subconsciously, but I couldn't take the next step.I bit my lip so hard that I almost cried out in pain, and when the tears were about to blur my vision, I finally walked there with a worried heart.Some things will always end if they are not resolved, and some people you want to make him anxious and panicked, you are destined to be ruthless and look at his helpless appearance.So Su Hanxi, cheer for yourself, and say goodbye to God, just hope that everything is a dream, and it will be dispersed after waking up from the dream.Well, everything will be fine, it will wake up.After wandering around the streets aimlessly to pass the time, I didn't hesitate to choose the farthest way back to the community, and walked back slowly, not pleasant or boring.Listening to Japanese light music with headphones plugged in.,And then reading online novels while walking.,But I thought that in fact, if a person has something to do.,It's not too boring.,Well.,If no one accompanies you, it's good to be at home.,It's good.,It's going to be fine.。
When I staggered back to the community, I put away my phone and put it in the pocket of my coat, and when I looked up, I saw two familiar figures.Looking at the two of them who were kissing passionately, I stopped and watched from a distance, watching them be intimate.Then tears overflowed from his eyes, and he fell down his cheeks to the ground, and as soon as he let go of his hand, a bag of snacks fell to the ground, which was unusually loud in this silent community.The two people not far in front of them, the girl hadn't reacted to kissing infatuated, but the boy woke up like he was shocked, quickly pushed the girl away, and then looked straight at the side where the sound was made.He opened his mouth in disbelief, looking at me with a little panic and helplessness in his eyes, and finally his mouth opened and closed but he also called out my name: "Su Han" I pulled the corners of my mouth far-fetched, stretched out my hand to wipe away my tears, but I couldn't say a word.Choose one of the two, Gu Xi, is this your real choice So dear Ah Xi, keep me by your side, what are you reluctant to give up after I take a step back, Xiang Qingtian Obviously, I can allow you to have an affair with other girls, but why, why do you still want to go to Xiang Qingtian Gu Xi, I lost to Xiang Qingtian What is it that I have nothing now, how can I make you so reluctant to stay in your house, with cold and decay, At night, when you are alone and guarding the light outside the window, the kind of loneliness that seems to be choked and can't be shouted, where have you been, why do you want to "want" and I become so cheap, why when you hold me, there is the smell of other women's perfume in your arms, and let me be gentle with you, obedient to you, why when I miss you day and night, you can think about other women, such unfairness, why do you still force me to stay and have an affair with other people, I can't do without you, But can you not bully me like this, I am so sad that I want to die.Gu Xi, everything you said at the beginning, have you forgotten it completely, if not, why do you want to treat me like this Gu Xi, I will also be scared, I also want to be accompanied by peace and stability, not to mention the world, just for a long stream.It's just that it's really hard for us to go back, and I can't face you and Qingtian.I smiled softly in Gu Xi's direction, but tears flowed down my face to the point that even my smile became stiff.I lifted my steps heavily, turned around and only wanted to leave this sad and hopeless neighborhood, and only wanted to leave the bustling city and this world.But before I could walk a few steps, I was held tightly in his arms, I heard him choking, and couldn't help but tremble and said: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry Su Han, don't leave me, I'm wrong, I can't live without you Su Han.""
Ah Xi, what about a sunny day," I heard myself say at the last time, and then wet his chest, burning a piece of love words
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