In the cool autumn that has passed thirty years, the cold wind at night has already brought a bone-chilling cold.Looking at the distant figure under the lonely starry curtain, he staggered, bent over, shivering in the cold wind, completely devoid of the cynicism and unruliness of the past.He is the same as me, and he is not easily allowed to bow his head in his proud bones, but to say something ugly, or he is too stupid, I am too selfish, in his heart, Su Hanxi is so unshakable.And I, at best, am a selfish ghost who is greedy for presumptuousness, excitement and satisfaction.In that secret that I couldn't tell, even I almost thought it would rot in my heart for the rest of my life.When I saw my best brother become so decadent, I didn't expect that the most ridiculous thing was me.When I asked the answer, I realized that everyone was changing, and I was still making high-sounding excuses for my unwillingness.It wasn't until a slap on the back that I woke me up that I was still pushing away."
If liking can be so casual, then you are underestimating my liking for her."
He said.Nearly 12 o'clock in the morning, I pushed open a noodle restaurant that was about to close."
Boss, two bowls of beef noodles without coriander, only chopped green onions, soy sauce and chili peppers, and the rest is fine."
I shouted slowly in a low voice, but I was inexplicably choked, and I hurriedly pulled over a stool and sat down, forcing my pantothenic nose to keep the tears from slipping out.How much time has we had to splurge to the fullestNow, I look at the devastated intersection, and even the pain is beginning to get used to it.In the years of blind hesitation and unscrupulousness, it will eventually become the current harm to each other.I wish I could call her intimately again, like everyone else shouts the intimate nickname, so that I can look at her again."
Brother, the beef noodles you ordered."
When two bowls of hot beef noodles were placed in front of me, I suddenly came back to my senses, nodded at the boss with red eyes, and when the tears were about to fall, I picked up a pair of chopsticks and devoured them with tears.The spiciness, the pain in my mouth was even worse than I had imagined, and I endured the heat, and my throat was like a fire, but I didn't taste half of the deliciousness and deliciousness.Mixed with sad tears and this bowl of beef noodles, mashed into the stomach, I only felt the pain and longing like fire.She's still there with me, but it still makes me so sad.The girl who always has to bring "hi" when she says hello, she has been so irreplaceable in my heart.I like her to think about it day and night, and now she's out of love, she's decadent, and I'm still playing ambiguously with all kinds of girls.Now that it's all here, anyone can blame me for being inattentive and emotionally hooligan I clutched my stomach in pain, my face gradually turned pale, but there was a hot sting in my lips.I swallowed with tears streaming down my eyes, whining like pleading, grinding my teeth and smashing my teeth to eat up the two bowls of beef noodles in front of me.Because at that time, when I was lonely and overwhelmed, there was always a woman with wavy curly hair, heavy makeup that did not fit her age, and she was like a queen in the pile of boys and girls.Every day after school, she eats and drinks with me on time, chatting about today's teacher and seeing her unhappy, her father still hasn't come home My favorite thing is that about 500 meters from the school gate, turn left in a noodle restaurant called "Zhiyu", order two bowls of beef noodles full of beef noodles with no coriander and only green onions, soy sauce and chili peppers.It was her favorite, and it was the last connection that kept our relationship going.Until one day later, she suddenly said to me, Ah Luo, I won't accompany you to eat powder in the future, my Gu Xi is really inseparable from me at all, I have to accompany him to play the guitar, right, Ah Luo is very handsome The boy who plays the guitar My Gu Xi is very good-looking Well, the "my family" from her mouth is accurate.I can't imagine that she, who loves freedom so much and doesn't have enough time to play every day, will one day willingly stay by a boy's side, not making much noise, and accompanying him to eat white rice with vegetables and meat foam in the cafeteria, which is obviously difficult to eat.Although they were not together until they separated, the contentment and dependence reflected in her confident and proud eyes could be seen clearly by any outsider.Gu Xi said that the noodle restaurant outside is still a little unhygienic.He said I had stomach problems and told me to eat well.Gu Xi shouted at me to drink less, it would hurt my stomach.He also said that I am very smart, and as long as I find time to listen to a little bit of mathematics, physics and chemistry, I will definitely do those questions.Gu Xi also said that it was hard to forget, at that time, the most said from her mouth was about the two of them, "Gu Xi said" seemed to come to the end, no matter how hard I worked, no matter how good I became, there was always only Gu Xi in her eyes.And I am just like all the thousands of passers-by in the world, how good and unbreakable their relationship is.It's just that the story always comes with twists and turns, and when we finally get together, doubts, lies, and betrayals always follow one after another in a sensitive time, forcing us to separate and scatter in the unclear, never to see each other.Lin Qi, who liked me, dropped out of school and went abroad, and she had a lover by her side who was worthy of her trust, and they were about to get married, at the beginning of next month, and her choice was to never see me again in the future, I regretted hurting her so much, but I washed away my reason in the face of selfish desires, and I was thinking at that time, as long as I was happy.So that all sin begins with me, and becomes extremely beginning and ending.When the spicy choking was to the extreme, my eyes were dark, and I fainted in a fiery suffocation, and there seemed to be two overlapping voices faintly, one always with strength, and the other with only cowardice and fear.One is Su Hanxi, and the other is Xiang Qingtian.Of the two of them, I lost one and destroyed the other.When I woke up in a throbbing pain, my eyes turned pale, and then I saw Xiang Qingtian standing by.Seeing me wake up, Xiang Qingtian smiled, handed me a glass of cold boiled water, and jokingly said: "Tsk, I only came out of the front foot in the hospital yesterday, and today Luo Dashao followed with the back foot" I rubbed my temples with a headache, and looked at Xiang Qingtian in a daze but was speechless.I don't eat spicy food, let alone like it.And during the time when I accompanied Su Hanxi, I liked her to come, obviously she couldn't eat spicy food and forced her mouth to stuff it, and she was admitted to the hospital when she had stomach pain and couldn't walk, looking up at the white ceiling, she only felt that she must be crazy.Only crazy people will risk their lives to cater to her liking.Well, that's right, under the blue sky with dappled light and shadow, I endured tears and accompanied her to eat a bowl of extremely spicy beef noodles, acting as a big fool x in her life.Yes, I'm just a big fool x to like her so much, and I like it so much that I don't care about myself.Su Hanxi, you fucking just a liar said where did the companion go I suddenly looked at Xiang Qingtian, and couldn't help but hook the corners of my mouth with self-deprecation, why do I like everything I like It seems that God loves to joke so much, we always like people who don't like themselves or don't like themselves enough when we hurt each other.What I like doesn't like me, and what I don't like likes me.I think I will never leave, often the first to leave, just because I don't like it enough to let everything in Shanghai be so thorough This status quo is really helpless" Xiang Qingtian, sometimes I feel that it is not enough to destroy you" I muttered, and under her stunned expression, I coldly reached out and covered her face, "I really want to kill that person, the person you like the most" Kill the Gu Beixi who made you and Su Hanxi like it so much.Unexpectedly, I was pushed away by her, I looked coldly at Xiang Qingtian, who was about to leave, and grabbed her arm and imprisoned her firmly in my arms.I grabbed her arm angrily, and roared with red eyes in her struggle: "Xiang Qingtian, if you dare to fucking leave me, I will stab Gu Beixi to death with a knife" "Xiang Qingtian, I tell you, I will do what I say" Feeling the person in my arms gradually calming down, I became even more annoyed, annoyed that she was able to completely compromise in front of me because of a name, and I was also jealous that Gu Beixi was ahead of me in everything.No matter how good a brother is, he can become an enemy, I think."
Xiang Qingtian, the way you look makes me so angry" I whispered, but refused to let go of her at all.Finally I heard, along with the sound of my powerful heartbeat, accompanied by the sobbing sound of her muffled voice.I sobbed hysterically as I suppressed my grievances, and I trembled slightly, and I didn't do anything but hold on to her tightly.I'm also sad, and I'm sad that the girl I like is so sad.is even more disgusting, and between the two people, one of them is always asked to be the one who howls hysterically.No matter how paralyzed the heart is when I am used to hearing crying, the choked and murmuring in the tinnitus, no matter how small and weak it is, it can't compete with the scarlet under the eyes and the tears on my face, which is so shocking.I also want to be plain, love each other seriously, and not be burdened by each other's emotional feelings, just because I feel that every day is so meaningful because of you.That's what I want, two people don't have to stick together all the time when they're together, they can hug one when they miss each other.So the more you like it, the more you refuse to let go, and the more you don't get it, the more you can't see it, even if you don't bend your means, you are spit on and disgusted and hurt each other.Selfish.became the excuse for everything.The clothes on my chest were already wet, and my palms were covered with sweat, but I refused to let go.I'm scared that Xiang Qingtian will leave me like Su Hanxi.As soon as you leave, you don't have half a chance
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