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Chapter 193: Learned to bear alone


"I see, you go out first."

Putting down the dishes and chopsticks, his expression was serious and indifferent.Sima Jun also put down the dishes and chopsticks, "Xue'er, do you still want to go" looked up at her in disbelief.Yi Xue stood up in silence, turned and walked outside."

Xue'er, don't go" Sima Jun panicked and stepped forward to grab her.Now, he can't keep her so much that he wants to keep her, "I'm just going to ask Cui'er to help me clean up, I'm not leaving" Yi Xue turned around.Sima Jun thought he had heard it wrong, "Is it true, are you not leaving?"

confirmed again in disbelief, and hugged her in his arms excitedly."

Yes, I'm not going anywhere tonight" leaning on his arms, smelling the long-lost smell on his body, I can't hate it, I can't dislike it."

I know that you are still reluctant to leave me, I will try my best to keep up with your footsteps in the future, and I won't let you wait alone like this I'm sorry, Xue'er" There was a hint of joy in her eyes, and the "coming" shouted to the palace maid waiting outside the door."

What does the emperor command," Cui'er walked in cautiously."

Go and tidy up all the things she needs to use for Madame, as well as those sheets and quilts, Madame hasn't used them for a long time, replace them all with new ones, and sprinkle them in the bath with jasmine or rose petals that Madame likes, and wait for Madame to bathe and change clothes."

Like an endorsement, Sima Jun rushed to say everything Yi Xue wanted to say.It can also be seen that he still knows every living habit and every joy, sorrow and sorrow of Yi Xue."

Yes, the slave is going to go" Seeing Cui'er go out, Sima Jun was relieved.After Yi Xue went to bathe, Sima Jun took some folds and reviewed them in the house.After bathing, Yi Xue didn't say anything, walked to his side, and casually flipped through some of the notes he had already reviewed, only to find that she hadn't helped him these days, but he had done better.Thoughtful and serious, somehow, suddenly facing such a person, I occasionally felt a little worried and unnatural in my heart."

What do you think of Xue'er" Sima Jun put down the fold in his hand, raised his eyes to ask for her opinion, and wanted to get her comment.In dealing with some things, she has a set of views and opinions that are different from ordinary people, it can be said that she is a combination of rigidity and softness, which makes people unable to find fault, but unfortunately, she never helped him after the child's accident, nor did she enter the court, which made him very distressed, but he was embarrassed to come to her."

The emperor's prestige has been able to suppress the disobedient ministers in the court on his own, and the way of dealing with problems is also unique," Yi Xue said complimentingly."

Xue'er, what do you call me" Hearing her words, Sima Jun's eyes suddenly seemed like a cold freeze."

Your Majesty may have other questions for me."

Yixue replied."

Xue'er, I am your husband, not your emperor" almost got anxious with her.I couldn't guess what she was thinking, looking at her still lukewarm eyes, I couldn't control my emotional fluctuations."

I know that you are my husband, so I will respect you in everything, within the scope of what I can do, try to guard you, accompany you, and watch you get better and better" Yi Xue put down the fold in her hand, "I'm sleepy, go rest first" After speaking, he walked to the bed and lay down alone.She didn't ask him why he was angry, she didn't want to know, turned to the side, hugged the quilt, and slept peacefully alone.She no longer asks him whether he is going or staying, she goes from being alone, to not being able to leave him, to having to watch him leave, and then back to being alone.watched him go back and forth again and again, and then she changed, and she still learned to bear it alone."

Xue'er" Sima Jun followed her and slept next to her.Putting his arms around her from behind, it wasn't long enough to fall asleep with her."

Your Majesty, Concubine Xian is waiting for you in her palace to accompany her to dinner, you see how the slave should reply to her" Early in the morning, before Sima Jun woke up, Li Bin came to report.Sima Jun opened his eyes, glanced at Li Bin coldly, and motioned for him to be quiet."

But Concubine Shen," Li Bin looked at the sleeping Yi Xue and replied hesitantly."

Go ahead," Yixue said with her eyes closed."

Xue'er" Sima leaned over to look at her."

I'll go out during the day today, but I'll come back to the palace in the afternoon, if you have time to come to me in the afternoon," he explained.Sima Jun got up, "Then I'll go see Concubine Shen, I'll come back in the afternoon with you, eat something for yourself, I've lost a lot of weight recently" He kissed her lightly on the corner of her forehead and let go of the hand holding her.Seeing him leave, Yi Xue only felt heartbroken, she didn't expect to be so bitter to love him, but so what, after falling in love with him, tears were destined to flow for him alone.After Sima Jun left, Yi Xue also got up quickly, she couldn't face this cold palace alone, it was like a cold palace, which could be said to be more terrifying than a cold palace.After eating a little something, she took Qingqing and Mingkong out of the palace, in order to hide people's eyes, she didn't want others to know where she went, let alone where she came from, as soon as she left the palace, Zhou Jinshen had already prepared a carriage to wait for her outside the palace.When the carriage came to a secluded place, she silently got off the carriage again, took the veil, and walked all the way towards the Lingxian Pavilion with Qingqing and Mingkong.Stunned, Yi Xue sat in the room of the Lingxian Pavilion and was completely distracted, her heart was not here at all, even the pianist came over and saw her absent-minded appearance and left.Until the afternoon, she promised Sima Jun that she would return to the palace, in fact, she really didn't want to go back at this moment, for some reason, she would rather stay in the Lingxian Pavilion and never want him, even if she thought about him silently and didn't know about him, her heart wouldn't hurt so much.But what can it be, she is still his wife after all, and she has to see him once in a while, not to mention that she herself agreed.got up and went back to the palace again, no matter what the palace was like, what the people in it were, what should be faced must be faced.But what she didn't expect this time was that this time there was even bigger bad news waiting for her.As soon as she returned to the Guangshi Palace, Yi Xue heard everyone talking behind her back."

This time, the Holy Lady is really about to fall out of favor, and even the Queen Mother is now pregnant."

Someone said.Someone else took over, "Yes, the emperor likes children the most, even Li Liangdi was valued by the emperor because of having children, and the holy lady is really pitiful" Another palace maid said again, "Although the emperor doesn't like the queen, as soon as he heard that she was pregnant, he immediately went to see her, and the queen really turned over this time."

Look at that Concubine Shen, since she was pregnant, the emperor can regard her as a treasure, and her status and status love the Holy Lady, although she does not have the power of the Holy Lady, but it is almost the same, what she wants, the emperor will give her, and when the child is born, it will be even more terrible" "Yes, yes, the last time I heard her teach the Holy Lady that she is not sensible and not virtuous enough, but the queen did not dare to teach her such words before. ”Another palace maid said."

But that Concubine Shen is really a good thing, while trying her best to please the Holy Lady, and on the other hand, she is still the Holy Lady, and she is good to all of us, although she is not good at words recently, she is still kind to us."

The maid of the first palace said unevenly.Everyone gathered together, and you and I were talking about it, and they were talking energetically, and even Yi Xue was behind them, and Sihao didn't notice it.Yi Xue walked in, "cough" Qingqing followed behind to remind him.Looking back, those palace maids suddenly saw Yi Xue looking at them expressionlessly, "Say hello to the Holy Lady" A little worried and scared."

The queen mother is pregnant, how long will it take" Yi Xue asked coldly."

It seems that it has been more than three months, and the queen mother said that she was afraid that others would frame her, so she endured it and didn't say it, and it was only recently discovered by the Empress Dowager Yu that she said it," a palace maid replied."

Hurt her" Yi Xue frowned, "Do you mean that I want to hurt her, I would have done it a long time ago" sneered very disdainfully, and turned around and left.Zhou Jinyun's pregnancy is not a good thing for Sima Jun, Sima Jun himself knows it, but he is still reluctant to give up the child in her womb, for this reason, Yi Xue I can only plan for him behind his back.Some things are not handled well now, and it will be troublesome when Zhou Jinyun gives birth to the child, looking at the current situation, for the sake of the child, Sima Jun will definitely be coerced by their father and daughter.In the blink of an eye, it was August again, and seeing that Shen Wanting was about to give birth, the stone in Sima Jun's heart slowly unloaded.On this day, Sima Jun was busy in the Taiji Hall until late, remembering that he hadn't seen Yi Xue for a long time, he felt very much about her, and he didn't know what she had been doing recently.Suddenly returning to the Guangshi Palace, Cui'er vaguely saw Sima Jun walking in in her dream, and the "emperor" immediately opened his eyes.Sima Jun looked at her, "Is Madame in Guangshi Palace" Cui'er nodded, "Madame hasn't gone out for some days, but now she has fallen asleep, the slave maid go call her" stood up and walked into the house."

No, I'll go find her myself" stopped her and went in myself.Sitting next to her and looking at her, he stretched out his hand, but found that her sleeping appearance was a little strange to him, and when he saw that she was sleeping soundly, he withdrew his hand and did not wake her.Slowly lay down beside her again, her thoughts had already flown away, and suddenly remembered the poem she wrote casually in her sadness that day, and thought that everything would be fine, so she didn't look at it, and was casually collected by him.It wasn't until she was alone that she found that she would never look back at him again, "Cher, why don't you look back at me, if you look back, you will see that I will always be behind you." ”Reached out and hugged her gently

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