I looked at Lu Ning in shock, she blinked slightly, and then took my hand and entered the house.I tried to figure out Lu Ning's words, let me go and see the house next door, the bugging, the mailbox.The house next door, is it, Miller's already scarred heart suddenly broke into a glimmer of light, Lu Ning regained his indifference, and asked the nanny to prepare dinner after entering the house, I sat on the sofa in a daze, and inadvertently looked in the direction of Lu Ning's neighbor's house, the green trees grew too well, I couldn't see what it looked like, but I knew it was there.Once, Miller stood proudly beside me, pointed to it and said to me, "It will be our home, my home."
My activities seemed free, but I was well aware that someone would follow me if I left.But if it's just in this villa area, since there is a bug, will you let your guard down Maybe Qu Jintian didn t know that Miller bought the house After dinner, I still routinely went for a walk by the lake, I do this every day, when Lu Ning doesn't follow me.No one else would follow me, I mustered up the courage to walk in the direction of the house, although there was no one, the house was dark, but the lawn was clearly freshly repaired, and I nervously wanted to push open the yard door.But I held back.I saw the mailbox, there was no rust, it was very clean, it was like someone was wiping it every day, I opened the door of the mailbox, it was unlocked, and there were many letters neatly placed inside, the one Miller once gave me was such an envelope.I burst into tears, but I quickly stuffed the letters into my clothes, and even if I was reluctant, I closed the door of the mailbox and left quickly.At night, I shrunk up in the quilt and lit up with my mobile phone, trembling and reading those envelopes over and over again, my psychological quality has completely collapsed, and I don't even dare to open a single one.The order of the letters has not changed, and I finally took out the bottom one, held back my tears and opened it, it was Miller's words, and after reading the first sentence, I felt a sweet throat and tears fell down in large quantities.Peach, see the letter like face, I saw you in a dream last night.I couldn't help but write this letter, and one day later, if you could really see it, I might not be there anymore.Nearly eleven years have passed since the year the fountain bleeds.I still remember the way you held the blistered book with a gloomy face, and it was from that time that I didn't want to be just a bystander in your life.Time flies too fast, and memories disappear very easily, the bits and pieces between me and you, suddenly I can't remember clearly, only remember the day you were finally willing to accept my ring, I kept shouting in my heart that I am the happiest man in the world.Do you remember the two sugar cubes in the coffee, which is actually my little secret, let me tell you, do you remember the guy named "no" with whom you have been emailing, and he told you that when you are sad, you add two sugar cubes to the coffee you drink.Why is that name also a whim, when you rejected it for the fourth time, I lay in bed and thought about the reason all night, between my surname and your surname, separated by no, I always feel that these are two bad letters, so you always keep saying no to me, but I also want to give myself a thumbs up, because I didn't give up, no eventually became your yes I'm also quite ridiculous, it's just, the world makes people, and fate is ill-fated.Peach.I love, how much I don't want to leave, but I can't help but leave.At the engagement banquet, every word I said to you was like a sharp knife piercing my heart, and you were approaching me step by step.You fainted, your foot stepped on the glass and bled without knowing it, it almost tore my heart with all my strength, but I can't I can't be soft-hearted.If I want you to leave completely, I must not relent.I don't want you to have no future with me, I don't want you to fall into despair before you really experience happiness, I don't want you to be sad because of my departure.I don't want you to watch me suffer from an illness that I can't cure.Peach, I love you, this was the thing I wanted to say in your ear the most on the day of my engagement, but I didn't have a chance.I'm sorry I can't be with you, I'm sorry, I love you.The letter paper was completely soaked with my tears, and my eyes were blurred by the unfalling, I covered my mouth and couldn't cry out loud, trying to wipe away the tears, looking at the last two lines of small print, I don't know how painful Miller was when he wrote this letter, the letter paper was clearly hard and unnatural.It must have been soaked in tears.If you think about it, there is no reply to the letter, life and death are sooner or later, and you don't have to worry about it.I just hope you're well, and I'm finally relieved.I buried my face in the pillow and choked up and cried.Silent crying, I didn't cry when Miller left me, it became an ugly scar on my heart, finally torn open by me today, I looked at the rotten flesh under the scar, and there was nothing I could do but wash it away with tears.I don't remember when I fell asleep, I haven't dreamed of him since Miller left, and I even consoled myself with these, as long as he didn't come.That means he's still alive in the world, but I finally dare to dream of him tonight, and he sat on my couch as before, threw me two candy cubes one by one, and asked me with a smile.Do you want to give me a new cup of his laughter, so bright, so real, so real that I called his name and woke up.Engulfed in darkness.I fumbled and pulled back the curtains, and the moon hung brightly in the sky, just like the night Miller and I were at the racecourse, it was still so round, but the man next to me was gone.I opened the mobile phone mailbox, I almost don't remember the "no", the email has long been sunk to the bottom, but one day ago, his letter ran into my mailbox for no reason, and all advertising spam, I didn't have the habit of reading ads, but opened his letter, at that time I seemed to have decided to marry Tang Ming, I can't remember how many times I rejected Miller.He recommended me a song, which I listened to and didn't understand the meaning.Now that I think about it, isn't that how he felt at the beginning, and I only found out today, the person I don't remember for a long time, the person who often corresponded with my email, and the person who can give me a little happiness when I am sad and sad.It's Miller.The song he recommended to me I had never heard before, and it was called Tears.I put on my headphones, and the moment I heard the song, all my strength collapsed" accidentally stepped on the little stamen, and I wanted to pay for it with a few tears.I realized that I hadn't shed a tear for many years, and I had forgotten what it was like.Laughing at myself so amorous that it doesn't matter, in fact, I haven't really loved anyone, I hurriedly went to the world to have a time of right and wrong, and I can only be heartbroken once in my life, I can't sleep all night because I can't sleep all night, and I can't sleep all night, and I cry out hysterically, because tonight I decided to indulge in tears":