"Give me a reason."
I gasped for breath and managed to squeeze out the words.Li Yao had already dropped my clothes off the bed, his eyes were red, and he grabbed my right hand tightly: "This hand, how many paintings have been painted" Yesterday I also painted a painting of Qibao in the study, he was angry because I painted other men I replied nervously: "Even the one I painted for Qibao yesterday, a total of eleven paintings." ”Li Yao pointed to my temple: "Think about it again, who did you paint for" Aunt Ran Yun, Aunt Yue Slow, Shanniang, Xiaoliu, Xiling and Jun, Lili, Master, Lifelike, Chabai, Qibao and Grandma, a total of eleven paintings, after I said them one by one, Li Yao lowered her head and bit my lip."
You still want to deceive me, isn't the portrait of the room full of Beili Qingluan from your hand" I wanted to draw him, but the more I tried to remember what he looked like, the more unfamiliar his face became."
I want to draw him."
Halfway through speaking, Li Yao took a big bite on my shoulder.I pleaded in pain and crowed back in my eyes, "But I can't remember what he looks like." ”Li Yao was stunned, and I said again: "Where is his portrait, can you show me it" I completely annoyed Li Yao, he didn't leave me any leeway, when he took off all his clothes without the slightest hesitation, I grabbed his hand and begged for mercy: "Brother Yao." ”Li Yao was stunned, just a moment of hesitation, he was hot, and his tone was sprayed with heat: "Lou Yusheng, I don't care what you do in the future, tonight, you are my woman." ”"Brother Yao, please.No. ”I shouted Brother Yao in his ear over and over again, and he said, Yusheng, as long as you call me Brother Yao, I will take off the stars in the sky for you.But tonight I shouted again and again, and he never stopped.When the pain in my body came sharply, I looked at the curtain in despair, tears slid down my face, and I said in a low voice: "Brother Qingluan, I'm sorry. ”Li Yao was short of breath, and there was nothing else in his eyes except desire.A delicate flower bloomed on the sheets.Li Yao reached out to hug me, I got up from the bed, took the bathrobe from the screen, and walked into the bath through the small door of the dormitory.As soon as I entered the water, Fu'er pushed the door in.I dived underwater, sprinkled flower petals into the bath, and burned Sumana incense by the bath, and I couldn't see through it, so I showed my head.Fu'er pointed to my chest: "Mother, the wound is open again." ”I looked down and smiled bitterly: "Fu'er, you stand down."
Hongu wants to be alone and quiet. ”Fu'er stretched out her hand to pull me: "Niangniang, let's take a bath, if the wound is not cleaned in time, it will leave a scar." ”I reached out and touched the wound, and the blood stained my hand, and I laughed and cried: "No matter how good the medicine stone is, it can't heal the wound here, so be it." ”Fu'er was still persuading me: "Princess Xingguo ordered someone to send the golden medicine today, saying that it is the best golden medicine outside the palace, and after the wound scabs over, within three days, the scar will be intact." ”The door creaked open.Li Yao walked over to me: "Fu'er, you stand down." ”Li Yao's hand was holding the golden medicine that Fu'er said, and I dived into the water and didn't want to come out for a long time.Li Yao entered the bath and forcibly pulled me out of the water, and I poured water on his face: "The bath in the Yonghe Hall is much bigger than the Qing Bath Pavilion, and the palace is really as the people of the world say, the whole world is not the king's land." ”Li Yao grabbed my arm: "Yusheng, the wound must be dressed, otherwise it will suppurate." ”I laughed, the tears of laughter blurred my vision, the bath water was stained red by the blood flowing from my wound, and I touched Li Yao's heart: "There is pus in here."
Can you still get better" Li Yao reached out to hug me: "Yes, it will definitely get better." ”I leaned on his shoulder and choked: "No, never, you are no longer Brother Yao in my heart, I will never forgive you again." ”Li Yao hugged me tightly: "I don't want your forgiveness, as long as I am by your side, no matter how deep the wound is, it will eventually heal, whether it is a day or two, or a year or two, I am willing to wait, when you see my sincerity to you, and wait for you to stay by my side willingly." ”The water in the bath was very warm, much warmer than the water in the Yao Pond.But my heart is cold, cold like I've never been.I pushed him away and drowned myself underwater.If I had been in the Yao Pond at the beginning, I could see the North Leaving Qingluan in the water, and the road would not have so many twists and turns."
Yusheng, I beg you, stop torturing yourself, okay" When Li Yao scooped me up from the bottom of the water again, I almost drowned myself, washed away the tears on my face with the bath water, and I looked at him with a smile: "Do you know that the first time I saw Brother Qingluan in the Stunning Villa, he drowned himself in the water of Yao Pond, the water in Yao Pond was very cold, it was so cold that my bones hurt, I didn't know that he was in the water that day, and I kicked him away. ”"Later, on the day when the Ten Great Sects besieged me, as soon as he appeared, I fell in love with him.""
The thing I regret the most is that I didn't give myself to him that day in Qingshe."
Li Yao quietly listened to me talk about Beili Qingluan, and her expression was very calm.I laughed to myself twice: "Do you know, my greatest wish is to be with Brother Qingluan, I am swinging in the garden, he is blowing the sheng flute beside me, at that time the peach tree he planted for me should bloom, and it will bear fruit in the summer, I also want to have two children for him, the boy is as capable as him, and the girl should be like him, good-looking." ”I touched my heart and said to Li Yao: "You never know how much I love him in my heart, but from now on, I will no longer be qualified to say that I love him." ”I sobbed twice.His throat was sweet and fishy, and his legs gradually lost strength.In the early morning of the next day, Li Yao did not go to court and stayed by my bedside.Mrs.
Song was full of spring breeze later, and she didn't blame Li Yao for the courtiers' complaints, she gave me a room of gold and silver jewelry, I looked at the whisk and Cui'er in the house, Cui'er blushed unconsciously, and didn't dare to look at me again."
Jing'er, how is Yusheng's body" Li Yao looked haggard: "Thank you for your concern, she is fine, she will be fine after lying down for a few days." ”The Empress Dowager Song called Li Yao outside the palace.Cui'er knelt down in front of my bed: "Please forgive me." ”Fu'er asked puzzled: "Cui'er, what did you do" Cui'er looked embarrassed: "It was the queen mother who told the slave maid to do this, and the mother wanted to beat and punish, and the slave and maid all admitted it." ”Fu'er was a little annoyed: "Those paintings in the study are what you framed Niangniang" I coughed twice, my heart hurt tightly, Fu'er came over to help me, I sat up: "Cui'er, you go to the yard to pick a peach blossom and come in, the princess said that the peach blossoms in the Lama Temple bloom the best, and I have long wanted to see it." ”Cui'er was puzzled, but she didn't dare to disagree.When she picked the peach blossoms and the branches and came in, I took a handkerchief from Fu'er, plucked the peach blossoms from the branches and put them on the handkerchief, the branches were broken and wrapped in a handkerchief, and handed it to Cui'er: "You give this to Han Meiren, and Han Meiren will give it to the princess." ”Cui'er was in a hurry to atone for her guilt, and she didn't dare to ask more."
Niangniang, the princess likes peach blossoms, you can come to the Yonghe Hall to see, since Niangniang wants to give flowers, why did she pick off the petals, and broke the branches" Fu'er was curious, I smiled at her: "What about last night's sheets" Fu'er blushed, bowed her head and said: "The emperor ordered the slaves and maids to be properly preserved, Niang Niang rest assured." ”At noon, Li Yao was resting in the study, and Han Zining came over.I was sitting under the peach blossom tree basking in the sun, the black cat didn't want to let me hug it for some reason, I was angry with the black cat, Han Zining asked with concern: "Yusheng, are you okay" I clapped my hands: "It's not good, this black cat is very disobedient today." ”"I just came out of Yaoguang Palace, and the Queen Mother said that when your wound is healed, a family banquet will be held."
I was excited, got up and pulled Han Zining into the dormitory, and ordered Bao Makeup to guard at the door."
Shanniang is not here, the only person I can rely on is you, Zining, I know that you not only know how to cook tea, but the people of Shui Yunju also know a lot about Chinese herbal medicine, you can help me find a medicine."
Han Zining looked at me nervously: "What medicine" I spit out two words in her ear: "Red flower." ”Han Zining's face changed greatly: "No, safflower invigorates blood and dispels blood stasis, and the medicinal properties are extremely strong, if you drink safflower, your life will be ruined." ”I sat down at the table dejectedly: "I'm different from you, you can get out of the palace, but you sacrificed your happiness for the entire Shui Yunju, and you stay in the palace hard, I can get out of the palace."
I will leave no matter when, I don't want to be able to leave the palace in the future, but I have a tie and can't get out, Zining, help me. ”Han Zining looked sad: "Yusheng, even if you can go out of the palace, what can you do Xiling Yue is such a powerful person, she can call on the ten major sects, take charge of the Peerless Mountain Villa, and also weigh the two forces of the rivers and lakes and the imperial court, after you leave the palace, can you really return to the owner of the Beili Village, if you can't be with the owner of the Beili Village, why are you out of the palace" My eyes were hot and dry, and I almost cried."
Even if I can't go back to him, I can still go back to Fanyin Village, I used to have my grandmother with me, although my life was poor, but there were also joys and sorrows, even if my grandmother was gone, there would be my aunt, and my aunt was still waiting for me to go back."
Han Zining shook my shoulder: "Yusheng, you sober up, you are the emperor's concubine, the emperor loves you very much, although you are not as free as the rivers and lakes in the deep palace, but with the emperor's favor for you, you don't have to worry at all in this life, if you can give birth to a son and a half daughter for the emperor, who in this harem, who dares to get along with you" I stood up rubbingly: "No, never, I will never give him a child, you don't have to persuade me anymore, if you don't want to help, forget it." ”Han Zining sighed: "I didn't say I wouldn't help you, I just advised you to think clearly, what is wrong with the emperor, although he has three palaces and six courts."
But his eyes are full of you, how can there be a place for others, take 10,000 steps back, the owner of Beili Village has married Cui Xue, even if you follow him, you can only be a concubine. ”"What's wrong with the concubine, as long as I can return to him, even if I am a cow or a horse, I am willing."
Han Zining shook my hand: "Don't do it with a good imperial concubine, run to Beili Qingluan to be a concubine, is it worth it, not to mention how long he can love you, if Xiling Yue stops it, when will you be able to be with him as you wish, when will you be old and decrepit, he will be windy and rainy, will he love you as before" I don't like to listen to these words, and walked out of the dormitory angrily.Han Zining chased after him with small steps: "What I said is not good, but think about whether it is such a fact" I finally caught the black cat: "Fu'er, send Han Meiren for me." ”I carried the black cat into the dormitory, Han Zining wanted to catch up, but was stopped by Fu'er: "Han Meiren should go first, Niangniang is panicked, Han Meiren will come back another day." ”At night, Li Yao reviewed and returned to the dormitory to sleep, I brought the soothing soup to the bedside, Li Yao looked at me with surprised eyes: "Yusheng, haven't you eaten enough at night" I smiled attentively: "The concubine heard Fu'er say that you haven't slept well recently, remembering that when the concubine couldn't sleep in the past, the good lady would boil me soothing soup, and I could sleep well after drinking, this is the soothing soup that the concubine specially boiled for the emperor, you can taste it." ”I handed it over for a long time, but Li Yao didn't reach out to pick it up.I smiled awkwardly: "The concubine tastes it first, it's not poisonous." ”Li Yao still didn't answer, and I calmed down: "I forgot that I have long been impregnable against all poisons, so I called Fu'er to help you taste it." ”I moved, and Li Yao immediately grabbed me.Without saying a word, I drank a whole bowl of soothing soup.I wiped the soup stains from his mouth with a silk handkerchief, and Li Yao reached out and threw the soup bowl firmly on the table, and then pulled me onto the bed."
Tell me, what do you want" I shook my head weakly: "In the past, the concubine was ignorant, and he collided with the emperor everywhere, but now the concubine is the emperor's woman, the emperor is the concubine's day, the concubine is clumsy when she is young, and she has been with the good lady for so long, and she has learned to make this soothing soup, if the emperor does not dislike the concubine's poor skills, the concubine will boil the soothing soup for the emperor every night in the future." ”Li Yao's eyes flashed with doubt: "I don't need soothing soup.It's enough to have you. ”I smiled: "The emperor is busy with government affairs, and the concubines will work hard to learn cooking skills in the future and cook more delicious meals for the emperor to eat." ”Li Yao smiled a little helplessly: "I will send someone to bring the good mother into the palace tomorrow, and the queen mother, I will say." ”I pretended not to understand: "Why did the emperor suddenly mention Shanniang, in fact, it is also a good thing that Shanniang is out of the palace, after all, she is a person in the rivers and lakes, in case she takes a wrong step in the palace and loses her life, it is not good." ”Li Yao bluntly pointed out: "Yusheng, you are not quite right with usual tonight" I touched my face: "Is it possible that the wound is not painful after applying the golden creation medicine, so I am in a good mood, I have a good appetite, and I have a good appetite." ”Li Yao lay down: "Since the wound doesn't hurt anymore."
Then rest early. ”I lay in Li Yao's arms, my heart was stuffy, and after tossing and turning for a long time, I gradually fell asleep.When I woke up, it was not dawn, Li Yao held my hands tightly, I opened my eyes and asked blankly: "Your Majesty, what's wrong with you" Li Yao let go of me: "You have a nightmare." ”I rolled over and went back to sleep: "The emperor will sleep again." ”Li Yao asked softly behind me, "You dreamed of him" I pretended to be asleep, not daring to anger him again.Li Yao forcibly pulled my body over: "Lou Yusheng, tell me, did you dream of him" I dreamed that Beili Qingluan was waiting for me in the garden, and behind him, the peach blossoms fell to the ground.The branches were broken and scattered all over the garden, and he asked me angrily in his dream, Sheng'er, why do you want to betray our feelings, I want to explain to him that I didn't, but he has the evidence of my first night in his hand, I can't justify it, watching him jump into the ice lake heartbroken, I want to save him, but I can't move my hands and feet.When I woke up, Li Yao grabbed my hands tightly, and I shouted in my heart that it was not good.Sure enough, Li Yao repeatedly pressed me to ask.I smiled resolutely: "Don't you just need my body, now that I give you my body, you still have something to say" Li Yao was silent.I tried to roll over, but his hand wouldn't allow me to move."
Use the most ruthless words to hurt me, is your heart really comfortable" Li Yao pointed to my heart, which happened to be at the location of the wound.I grabbed his hand and put it in my belly pocket, the wound scabbed, Xilingyue's golden medicine is so magical, Li Yao's hand touched my wound, I smiled and asked: "Do you touch my heart" Li Yao was silent.I continued: "What you can touch is only this wound that is about to heal, you shouldn't have been soft in the first place, you should have used a little harder, when the pendant pierced the heart, there may be a little flaw on this heart, which is the place I left for you, but now, this heart, if you want to say that you existed before, then now you have completely disappeared from there, this heart reminds me all the time, even if I can't keep my body, at least I can leave my heart to him." ”"The body and mind are not the same, you really can."
Li Yao sneered, turned over and ignored me.I turned my back to him and tears ran down my hairline again.After a long time, I fell asleep in a daze.A warm body hugged me, and I dreamed of Beili Qingluan again, and I jumped into the ice lake to save him, but I drowned in the ice lake.When I woke up, it was already after noon, and Han Zining came to me, and I had already forgotten yesterday's sulking.She entered the room and handed me a small bottle, I looked at the red pill in it and asked, "What is this" Han Zining came over: "This is a small amount of medicine extracted from safflower, the medicinal properties are not as good as safflower, but this medicine will not hurt the root, just take one pill a month, remember not to eat more, if you eat three at a time."
The effect will be more intense than safflower. ”I shook her hand and apologized, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that yesterday." ”Han Zining sighed: "I've never worried that you will die of old age in the palace, what I'm afraid of is that when you try your best to escape from the palace, but one day you suddenly find that the life outside the palace is no longer what you want." ”I understand what Han Zining said, I wanted to persuade her, after all, staying in the palace is just a waste of time.It's a pity that Li Yao came back early, and I nervously put the pills in the dresser.Han Zining said that the Queen Mother was still waiting for her to go to dinner, and she left early.I was very scared to see Li Yao, but he seemed to have forgotten the unpleasantness of waking up early in the morning, and after dinner, he dragged me to the study to paint."
Do you like it" After an hour in the study, Li Yao finished painting my portrait, and I nodded perfunctorily: "It's good-looking." ”Li Yao grabbed my left hand: "It's a pity that no matter how good the painting is, it is not as lifelike as the person in front of me." ”I looked at the Luan bird pattern on the Hegu cave, and knew that he was starting to find fault with me again, so I yawned: "The concubine is a little sleepy, Your Majesty, why don't we rest earlier." ”Li Yao was interested and didn't ask any more questions.I thought I had escaped a fight, but he picked me up: "There are some things that need to be done before bed, so it's better to go to bed early." ”From the study to the dormitory, I turned two corridors to arrive, and I got up as soon as I got on the bed: "The concubine hasn't boiled soothing soup for the emperor tonight, so it's better for the emperor to wait in bed first, and the concubine will come when she goes." ”Li Yao dragged me back to the bed: "It's enough for me to have you tonight." ”I still want to go around, but Li Yao has already taken off all his clothes, and it is the first time that I have seen his strong arms so clearly and seriously, and I gasped in my heart: "If you don't take a bath first, this weather is only in April, and it will start to get a little hot." ”Li Yao threw me down: "After dinner, you have already bathed before painting, so you don't need to cleanse yourself." ”I sniffed my arm: "It seems to smell a little sweaty, so the concubine should go wash again." ”Li Yao was a little annoyed: "No need, Yusheng's body is very fragrant." ”I remembered that when Beili Qingluan was close to me, I didn't need him to do anything, my body would be unconsciously attracted to him, and my whole body would exude a faint fragrance.At this moment, I looked at Li Yao in a panic, and Li Yao remembered this incident in hindsight, "I have forgotten the first night, did your body exude fragrance, why don't I pamper you tonight and see if your body will be attracted to me." ”I retorted again: "Why should the emperor bring humiliation on himself. ”Li Yao was not gentle at all, and tore my clothes in three or two strokes, this set of clothes was newly made, from the hands of Fu'er.This time there was not such a strong sense of pain, and in the back, Li Yao's movements were much softer.After finishing the matter, Li Yao whispered in my ear: "I love you." ”I got up with a wry smile: "The emperor will go to the court tomorrow, so rest early." ”I went to the bath and soaked for more than half an hour, Li Yao carried me back to the bed: "You will get used to it, don't cry, I don't want to see your tears." ”I was stubborn: "It's just that the sewage has entered my eyes, and I feel a little uncomfortable, everything is done, the emperor doesn't need to please me anymore, let's sleep separately." ”Li Yao should be very tired, and he stopped arguing with me, and it didn't take long for him to breathe evenly, and I pushed him.He slept deeply.I tiptoed up, walked to the dresser, took out the bottle of medicine, poured one in the palm of my hand, and tiptoed to the table to pour a glass of water.Just as I was about to eat, Li Yao suddenly hugged me from behind: "If you are thirsty, you can call me, I will pour you water." ”I shuddered, and the pill in my hand fell to the ground
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