Sister Hua, when I write this letter to you, I am already in my twilight years.
I didn’t expect that I was deceived by a little girl like you, and I was defrauded of 60 years. 60 years, Sister Hua, how should you compensate me?
60 years have passed by like a flash of lightning, and now I am a gray-haired old man.
I’m afraid you will despise me when you come back and see me.
They say I am forgetful as I grow older, but I can still remember it clearly.
I remember the stubborn and brave Bai Hua back then, although that was already a long time ago 60 years ago.
The night you left, I followed your advice and went to Peiping.
The weather there was not as warm as Shanghai, but the streets and alleys were filled with babbling songs.
There was a bit of old Shanghai flavor that only existed in Peiping.
Every day, I feel that Sister Hua, you will suddenly appear in front of me.
I think like this every day, but you don't appear every day.
It wasn’t until I spent six long years in Peking that I began to wonder, Sister Hua, if you can’t find your way to Peking?
Later, I returned to Shanghai, to the place where we lived before.
I thought, Sister Hua, you couldn’t even find your own home.
In my impression, you didn’t seem that stupid.
Here I can wait for you to come back with peace of mind, because I always believe that one day you will come back to me.
But who knew you had lied to me so miserably.
Even now when I write this letter to you, I still foolishly thought that you would appear in front of me in the next second.
I used to think that no matter where I go, you will always be by my side, but it turns out that fate only gave us a few short years to get together.
You left too early in my time, and I discovered that you and I are two People are so deeply in love but shallow in love.
There is a saying that this love can only be remembered, and this life will be empty.
Sister Hua, maybe we have a shallow relationship in this life and are not so lucky.
What else can I do but accept my fate?
After you left, many changes occurred in Shanghai.
In the following decades, this city, as you said, first suffered from endless wars, and then continued political movements.
In fact, sometimes I was thinking, what will happen if you leave?
Well, at least it's safe to go, because in such an era of endless war, even I live a life where I live a life of one day and a guillotine tomorrow, so what can I do to protect you?
It is a foregone conclusion that you and I will have a weak relationship as husband and wife in this life, so we have no choice but to bet our fate on the next life.
I finally understand that there is not only a gap in age between you and me, but also a gap in time and space.
As I age, I cannot wait to see your beautiful smile again.
I wanted to bury this letter and the photo together under the locust tree, but I still don’t want you to cry again when you see this letter.
Maybe you are living the life that belongs to you in the era that belongs to you, Maybe you forgot about me early because you don't belong here after all.
Sister Hua, I bet I can still meet you in the next life.
When the time comes, please be sure to recognize me.
To be continued.
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