This question is exactly what I can't figure out.,I really don't understand.,Why Xia Chuxin would do everything to help me.。
Although, by now, I have understood that Xia Chuxin's heart is not bad, she also has a soft and soft-hearted side, and she also has sadness and pain, but, despite this, I can't believe that she would pay such a big price to save me.Before, she gave me the heart of the desert, which is already benevolent and righteous, she doesn't have to feel guilty about me at all, so she has no responsibility and obligation to help me, from the perspective of friendship, my relationship with her is not deep, she doesn't need to help me so much, moreover, she is not a bodhisattva, she will not do a good job of saving suffering and saving sentient beings, even if it is a bodhisattva, she is also within the scope of her ability to save people, and will not destroy herself because of saving others.But Xia Chuxin, she saved me at the expense of herself, which means something completely different.Therefore, I really want to know what Xia Chuxin really thinks.After Xia Chuxin heard my doubts, her expression suddenly changed, her eyes could no longer look directly at me, and her eyes looked a little sparkling.After all, she still didn't look at me again, but looked elsewhere, and then she slowly replied to me: "To be honest, I don't know why, I did this, maybe it was to respect instinct After hearing that you had an accident, my first thought was to save you, and I am willing to do my best to save you."
The reason is just, I don't want to see you die.I know that you have been targeted by Yang Xin, you will definitely die, and no one can save you except me, so I personally found Yang Xin.Maybe you also know that on the day in Dali, when I knew that you were Su Yan, I was really excited, you are alive again, I can still do my best to help you, which makes me feel that I have been released, I have been free since that moment, and there are no demons and nightmares that haunt me anymore.However, only a few days later, I suddenly learned that you were going to die again, which made me panic instantly, as if the previous nightmare was about to start haunting me again, and I was afraid of this feeling, the nightmare that I had just come out of, and I could not bear to fall into that endless vortex again.I made up my mind to save you no matter what. ”Xia Chuxin's answer was real and profound, and after listening to it, my heart was full of mixed feelings, and all kinds of emotions came up with a roar, and for a while, I couldn't speak again.After being silent for a while, I suppressed my emotions, and then, I looked at Xia Chuxin and said hoarsely: "But, have you ever thought about what you will do in the second half of your life."
You will spend your life with someone you don't love, this feeling, isn't it painful to have such a future, what happiness can there be" I can feel that Xia Chuxin also cares about feelings and love, and she is happy when she is a child with the love of her parents.When she grew up, she lost the love of her parents, and the future can only be maintained by the love of the other half, perhaps, Yang Xin loves her, but this is not love, love is two-sided, if Xia Chuxin doesn't love Yang Xin, then she and Yang Xin can't be happy together.Xia Chuxin listened to my words, and couldn't help but smile bitterly, she pursed her lips, and said lightly: "How can there be so many lovers in this world who will eventually become married, not every marriage is complete, and not everyone can stay with their loved ones for a lifetime."
In my life, I am destined to be with Yang Xin, even if I don't agree to marry him now, I can't escape in the future, my parents and relatives are all looking forward to me marrying Yang Xin, I am struggling alone, what can I change in the end, it's not this result for so many years, I'm also tired.Instead of fighting all the time, it is better to go directly to their wishes at this time, and I can take this opportunity to save you, and I have no regrets. ”It turned out that Xia Chuxin knew that she would have to be tied to Yang Xin all her life, but she was never reconciled, she was never willing to compromise with fate, so she seemed to have been fleeing, she hid from everyone, came to Jiangzhou to study in college alone, and later, she traveled around alone, her behavior made it clear that she didn't want to be with Yang Xin.Her soul and heart are wandering outside, she doesn't want to settle down at all, she probably still has the heart of rebellious parents, the more her parents want her to marry the Yang family, the more she wants to get rid of this marriage.However, because of me, she chose to compromise, she gave up this fight against fate, and she accepted this marriage that was destined to be inextricable.It was my danger that she asked her to disarm and surrender, and finally agreed to Yang Xin's request.Such a difficult decision, Xia Chuxin said it lightly to me, she described all her heartache and helplessness in an indifferent and casual tone, which may be just to cover up the sadness in her heart.When I saw her like this, I couldn't help but feel a bitter taste in my heart, and at the same time, I was more determined in my own idea, no matter what difficulties and obstacles ahead, I would never retreat, I would never let Xia Chuxin marry Yang Xin for me, if I want to fight, I will fight to the end, I Su Yan, I haven't nested to the point of being a shrinking turtle Thinking of this, my eyes have become extremely resolute, I stared at Xia Chuxin, and said sincerely: "Thank you" Hearing me thank you so seriously, Xia Chuxin suddenly became a little unaccustomed, She shook her head lightly and said casually, "Don't say that, in fact, I didn't do anything, I just made a decision that should be made sooner or later."
However, if you really want to thank me, then, after eating, accompany me to the vicinity of the school to go shopping, I want to take this opportunity to relive the campus time, feel the youth that is about to disappear forever" was said by Xia Chuxin, I also suddenly felt as if I was old, since I left school, I have been wandering for more than two years, and then I have been mixing in society, I feel that I am so far away from my student days.Now, when it comes to school, I really miss the school days a little, and I don't know what happened to my old classmates now, I guess no one recognizes me, and my appearance is just enough to hide my true identity.Therefore, I don't have to worry about anything when I go to school, and besides, I do hope that Xia Chuxin can let go of her arms a little, so that she can relax her heart.So, I replied without hesitation: "No problem, anyway, now this is my territory, wherever you want to go, I will accompany you."
Seeing me agreeing so readily, Xia Chuxin couldn't help but smile, and then, she said half-jokingly: "How can you say that, if this is not your territory, you can't accompany it" Xia Chuxin's words are really a bit of a bone in the egg, and I was speechless by her.In order to prevent her from continuing to look for thorns, I simply let out a bold statement: "What are you kidding, do I look like that kind of person, it is no exaggeration to say, even if you want to go up the knife mountain and go down to the sea of fire, I am willing to accompany you" My slightly exaggerated rhetoric made Xia Chuxin really can't help laughing, she grinned directly, this time, she smiled unreservedly, completely open to the heart of the smile, her eyes are full of smiles.I have to say that Xia Chuxin's smile is really beautiful, like a blooming epiphany, and I was accidentally blinded by her, and my heart jumped a little.It didn't take long for us to finish our meal, and we walked out of the restaurant together.The night outside is getting deeper, the city lights are on, people's nightlife, maybe just begun, however, there are not many pedestrians on the road, I and Xia Chuxin walked side by side on the road to the university, the surroundings are quiet and warm, the air is cool and mild, which makes people feel very comfortable.Under the illumination of the street lamp, the shadows of me and Xia Chuxin were stretched for a long time, and at the same time, the thoughts of both of us were also pulled to the sky.What lingered between us was a quiet atmosphere, we didn't speak, just walked silently, my heart also became very quiet, compared with before, I was more suitable to be alone with Xia Chuxin, we walked side by side like this, no longer embarrassed, just quiet and comfortable.It seemed that after walking for a long time, Xia Chuxin took the lead in breaking the silence and asked me loudly: "You say, when is the next time the two of us will meet, and what scene" I can't answer Xia Chuxin's question truthfully, I can't tell Xia Chuxin, I will go to prevent her from getting married to Yang Xin.Therefore, I could only reply to her casually perfunctorily: "I don't know, see how God arranges it" My answer is very casual and impeccable, after all, for anyone, the future is an unknown, what will happen to me and Xia Chuxin in the future, only after listening to my answer after listening to God's arrangement, Xia Chuxin was silent again, and we walked quietly again for a while, and then, Xia Chuxin said with a little emotion: "I don't know if we will have the opportunity to walk together as calmly as we do now, I'm actually quite worried, one day in the future, will we stand on opposite sides and start a fight" Xia Chuxin's words were like a sharp thunder, which struck me at once, and I immediately turned my head and looked deeply at Xia Chuxin.It turned out that what Xia Chuxin was really worried about was this.If I have to go against Yang Xin, and she wants to marry Yang Xin, then it will be really difficult for my relationship with her to be harmonious again.As Yang Xin's wife, she is always unwilling to be widowed, when I meet Yang Xin, can she turn her back on Yang Xin and stand on my side, this is naturally unlikely, she will not go against me, let alone against her husband, so, if there is really that day, Xia Chuxin should be the most difficult, of course, I know, I will not let things develop to that point, and I will not let Xia Chuxin be in that difficult situation one day, because I will do everything to prevent her from becoming Yang Xin's wife.I won't say these words to Xia Chuxin, so I can only keep silent.Next, we were relatively silent again, but we didn't stop and kept moving forward.Unconsciously, we have come to the Malatang restaurant that has long been closed, as soon as we walked here, Xia Chuxin involuntarily stopped, and her body slowly turned around, facing this shop full of memories.Her eyes stared straight at the front of the store, her eyes were sad, her soul seemed to have been hooked away, and her body became extremely stiff.When I saw her like this, I also stopped, and my eyes also turned to this Malatang restaurant.Needless to say, this is the source of my nightmares, and the wounds it caused me will never be erased.And for Xia Chuxin, this is naturally an unbearable past, although it has been a long time, but there are some memories that we can't forget.All I can do is to stay by Xia Chuxin's side silently.However, just when we both fell into a deep memory, suddenly, a familiar female voice sounded without warning: "Xia Chuxin" Hearing this voice, Xia Chuxin and I turned our heads almost at the same time and looked at the source of the voice.We saw a woman standing behind us, looking at us with a surprised face, she was Xu Mo.