However, it was only a few years later that Xu You accidentally learned from Chu Zhao that Qi Yuzhen had a quarrel with him that day.Standing in Qi Yuzhen's position, she thinks that Chu Zhao is distracting her attention, and if she concentrates on the road of oil painting, she will be successful in a few years.But with one more photography, the energy and spirit are shared, and it is very likely that both sides will not be able to come out, delaying the best time.But from Chu Zhao's point of view, he feels that the two are interconnected, and if they play well, they will stimulate each other's creativity and inspiration, and it is not necessarily a bad thing to try more.What's more, oil painting is Xu You's comfort zone, the more she studied, the more she didn't dare to come out, try to jump out once, maybe she couldn't jump well, and she would fall.The experience of "falling" is not available in the comfort zone, and you have to fall once yourself to know how to integrate this experience into the work.Xu You's first photography job was quickly obtained.To be honest, she was really nervous about her "first experience" this time, and her on-the-spot performance was not as calm as when she tested the water before, but she had seen how Chu Zhao worked, and she also learned a few hands from him.No matter how smelly the skill is, it doesn't matter, put it up first.When Xu You's face was expressionless, his face was very cold and smelly, and he was angular, not easy to mess with, one looked at it and ignored it, and the other pouted with disdain.Such a "pretend" can also cover up the past.It just so happened that the girl who came to take private photos this time was more nervous than her, and she couldn't let go.The assistant in the photo shop was a man, and the girl was a little reserved.I took a test shot for half an hour, but none of them worked.Xu You simply found a high stool and sat down, took the camera off the shelf, put it on his lap, sat there and smoked, and then raised his hand and asked the assistant and Chu Zhao's male apprentice to go out first.After they walked for a while, Xu You didn't move, just smoked quietly, and then pointed to the box in the corner and said, "There's water over there." ”The girl breathed a sigh of relief, stepped off the prop bed, and went over to pick up a bottle.But she was sweating on her hands, and she couldn't unscrew it.Xu You looked at her back and suddenly said, "Give it to me, I'll open it for you." ”The girl brought the water.Xu You put the cigarette in his mouth, squinted, and without much effort in his hand, the bottle cap was opened.She handed it to the girl, who whispered "thank you" and walked back to the prop bed and sat down.For example, most girls and women are reluctant to let male photographers help with their movements, and male photographers generally do not take the initiative to go over, for fear that people will not be willing to turn their faces in minutes, and they can't directly say that they are not right, not good, and not tasteful enough.Individually, the women who were looking for Chu Zhao to take private photos, a few of them were drunkards who didn't mean to drink, and they all went for him.Xu You smoked half a cigarette and turned his gaze around the girl twice.Like the current situation, one person smokes, one person drinks water, one watchs, one is watched, if this is a man and a woman, the woman will definitely want to be crooked.Even though it was two women now, the girl was a little nervous.Xu You suddenly spoke: "If I don't let the two of them in, let's go one-on-one, will you feel comfortable?"
”The girl was stunned for a moment, then nodded, and then asked, "Don't you need their help?"
”Xu You said: "No, the lighting and props are adjusted, and your makeup and hair don't need to be repaired, just shoot like this." ”After a second, Xu You asked again: "By the way, what is your name?"
”The girl said, "Oh, you can call me Xiaomin." ”Xu You: "How old are you, have you ever been in love?"
”Xiaomin: "Twenty-two years old, I'm talking." ”Xu You was stunned, this Xiao Min looked too innocent and introverted, and she didn't look older than her.Xu You asked: "I don't mean anything else when I say this, but you don't seem to dare to take private photos." ”Xiao Min said embarrassedly: "I also introduced a friend and promised that I asked this time, and it was a female photographer......
But I didn't expect that there would still be men after I came. ”Xu You laughed softly, she suddenly felt that this Xiao Min was innocent and cute, but on the other hand, she looked like an old driver.Xu You: "Not anymore." ”Xiao Min laughed a little, more relaxed than before, she put the water bottle down, and sat back on the edge of the bed, her hands supporting the edge.Xu You observed her body lines and said, "Your collarbones are very good-looking, your waistline is slender, your facial features are very delicate, and your temperament is also clean, there should be many men pursuing you." ”Xiao Min pursed her lips and said, "But I don't like most of them." ”Xu You: "Oh, then tell me about the one you like, is it the one who fell in love with you?"
”Xiao Min thought for a moment and said, "The first boy I liked, he has a girlfriend."
They have a good relationship. ”Xu Youyang lowered his eyebrows: "What about this now?"
”Xiao Min was a little entangled: "My current boyfriend, I also like him, but these two likes are different, and I can't tell ...... clearly" Xu You didn't answer for a while, looked at Xiao Min quietly, and didn't know why, but suddenly thought of his relationship with Ji Chun and Chu Zhao.Two likes.Xu You smiled: "No matter what kind of liking you like, at least you are with the person you like." ”Xiao Min nodded, smiling a little shy for the first time.Xu You squinted his eyes, threw the cigarette to the ground, picked up the camera on his lap, and pressed the shutter on her a few times.Xiao Min was taken aback: "Have you started filming?"
”Xu You said: "You don't have to pay attention to me, let's continue to talk, your appearance just now is very natural and charming, only if I capture it, you will see what you look like in the eyes of the person you like." ”Xiao Min asked, "Isn't it fascinating?"
”Xu You didn't respond, jumped off the barstool, took a few steps closer to Xiao Min with the camera, and said, "Actually, I have a similar experience to you." ”Xiao Min's eyes widened and she asked curiously, "Do you like two people?"
”Xu You: "Hmm. ”Xiao Min's eyes lit up: "Actually, I don't dare to tell anyone about this, for fear that people will think that I have changed my mind." ”Xu You said with a smile: "People's emotions are very complex, whether they love or hate, like or hate, they are all layered, very complex, difficult to explain clearly, and the degree will be different, some are unforgettable, and some come and go quickly." ”Xiao Min asked, "Then what is your situation?"
”Xu You took two pictures of her expression, put down the camera, and said, "Mine, one is like an oil painting, and the other is like a photo." ”Xiaomin: "I don't understand. ”Xu You explained: "Oh, do you know the impressionist oil paintings, the color blocks are very large, the outlines are blurred, and they are very hazy and beautiful.But in the painter's heart, it is very impressive, but it is difficult to capture with a brush, a bit like light. ”Xiao Min listened to it half-understood: "What about the other one?"
”Xu You: "The other one is much more specific.For example, in addition to taking pictures, photographers spend most of their time editing photos on the computer.And, every time they learn a lighting technique, that sense of excitement, satisfaction, instantly reaches a climax.The other one, that's how it feels to me. ”Xiao Min was dumbfounded, curious, and yearning, and even her scalp was numb.Then, she smiled and said, "I envy you." ”Xu You raised the camera and took pictures at her, while asking, "How did you and them meet?"
”Xiao Min had completely let go of her nervousness and began to share it with Xu You.The more she spoke, the more relaxed and elated she became, and when she spoke of the key points, her face would flush with a faint red.Xu You knows that these two stories are more or less also added to Xiao Min's personal filters and editing, maybe not the whole picture, there may be some brain supplements, but it doesn't matter, as long as this storytelling Xiao Min is moving enough, it's enough.After photographing the key place, Xu You also stepped forward, brushed Xiao Min's hair, and adjusted his clothes.Xiao Min was not nervous, and she didn't seem to care that Xu You was a stranger, and after she entered the state, she quickly shot a whole set of works.When Xiao Min was completely stretched, Xu You posed a few poses for her, and Xiao Min was very cooperative and excited.Xu You did not hesitate to praise in language, Xiao Min was very happy to hear it, and his eyes showed a desire to see the finished film.Xu You looked at the picture in the viewfinder, looked at the smile on her face, the light in her eyes, and the rapid capture of her fingers, and felt that some of her brain cells were activated.However, the result of a high level of energy in a short period of time is exhaustion.After two rounds of shooting, Xu You stood up straight and exhaled, only then did he understand how tired Chu Zhao was every time.It's hard to get a model into the groove quickly, unless both the model and the photographer are sophisticated enough to get used to the standardized posing process, and the expressions and movements can be in place at any time.However, most of the cases are ordinary people like Xiaomin, and it takes a while for photographers to make models relax, trust themselves, and gradually open up to themselves.Xu You used the way of chatting, and Chu Zhao encountered a few "drunkards who don't mean to drink", so they started directly, quickly stimulating the other party's senses, saving time and effort.What you want to capture in private photos is the style of that moment.After Xiao Min left, Xu You sat in front of the computer to edit the film, and the front ones were not used, and the back ones could select a whole set of fine products.She held her cheeks, stared at the work she had done independently for the first time, and smiled slowly.The author has something to say: According to the plan, I should have started writing the beginning of "Thirteen" yesterday, and as a result, I have been repairing the old text, and I have been jumping out of the lock chapter and standing short, and I have been repairing until half past five in the morning, and I feel like I have one breath left, I don't want to be talking at length, but recently there is no brainless black, attacking the author, attacking the characters, no way, I still have to bibi once.If you don't want to see it, don't turn it back~ Here I will say a few words for the characters: Chu Zhao did not see one in the shed, this has already been written, even if you really look at the right eye, it is about outside the shed.In addition, the heroine did not find inspiration with Chu Zhaodoi.Such an understanding is very insulting to art students.Art students are also human beings, they don't like each other, they don't have feelings for this person, they can't be inspired, and the two are inseparable.Even Picasso and Michelangelo were quite devoted to each of their lovers.If it's really that simple, give a DOI instruction, and the inspiration will come, it's a robot, why are you looking for a human DOI?
…… There is another thing, I endured it once and came back for a second time, which shows that this kind of thing can only be treated with zero tolerance.Two people appeared under the article, saying that I deleted their messages.If it was I who deleted it, I would tell her that it was my right.But these two items are not deleted by me, Jinjiang draws messages are a common thing, sometimes they are gone, and sometimes they come out.When she was accused by the first reader before, she later found out that the message was still there, and she already knew that it was a misunderstanding.Today, a second person appeared under the article, indignant, feeling that the author not only deleted the message, but also complained about her.He also said that the author "doesn't seem to be the first time to delete a message."
I:???
I'm sorry, the author is not so idle, staring at the message to delete.And I went to read the 20 chapters she said, and the message was obviously still there, but this one ran to the first chapter and said nonsense with his eyes open, I can only think that this is brainless black, just to splash dirty water.As for the complaint, I don't know who is not used to complaining about her.I can only say that it is her right to be a troll, and it is also the right of this pro to complain, please don't spray the pro who complains, Jinjiang has set up a complaint mechanism, which is for everyone.Here, I would like to send a sentence to the double standard black and trolls, from Voltaire, which was originally intended to accuse man-made religion of encouraging people to abuse violence and conspiracy, which I also quoted in "Parasitic Lies"."
Everyone holds the holy banner in their hearts, and their faces are full of red light and go to sin
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"☆, from the campus to the society 11 on the day he got the first photography fee, Xu You was overjoyed.At night, she ran to find Chu Zhao.Chu Zhao had just entered the door at that time, his shirt was unbuttoned, and he was still wearing a long-sleeved shirt and trousers in May, and his body was very hot.Before he could change his clothes, Xu You pounced on him, screaming and jumping in his arms."
I'm making money on my films, four figures, four figures!"
Chu Zhao just laughed at first, and then his eyes deepened, looking at the excited little girl in his arms who seemed to have won the whole world, and his heart also rose and fell.He took her cheek and kissed her deeply.Xu You was silent, and soon became entangled and couldn't help himself.They were all a little anxious that day.Then, Xu You lay in his arms and whispered the feeling of pressing the shutter, like an electric shock, as if something was going from his fingers to his heart and to his brain.Chu Zhao held her fingers and intertwined with herself: "In the future, you will fall in love with this feeling, it's very cool." ”Xu You turned around in his arms.He brushed away the hair on her sideburns and whispered: "Photography will change a person's aesthetics of life, and it will change the whole attitude and habits of life." ”Xu You: "I understand, it's like painting. ”Chu Zhao: "Well, you will habitually watermark your photos, just like you would sign a painting. ”Xu You: "I also like some strange things, such as collecting old newspapers and magazines. ”Chu Zhao: "I will be interested in some old-fashioned, abandoned buildings, even if it is dangerous, I will go in and shoot." ”Xu You: "I will secretly capture others, just like the first time I secretly painted you." ”Chu Zhao: "Maybe the computer is connected to ten hard drives, but the one who is really satisfied is willing to print out only ten photos. ”Xu You: "Also, I will give gifts to others in the future, in addition to oil paintings, there is another choice." ”When these words landed, the two laughed together.She looked into Chu Zhao's eyes, and in that vivid black, she caught a trace of loneliness.The mood was faint and quickly vanished.But she understood what it was.He has changed many girlfriends, but photography is true love, and losing it is the biggest loss of love in a photographer's life.Many photographers have said something like, "You might as well kill me." ”Xu You lowered his eyes, took a deep breath, and smelled the smell on his body.In addition to his original smell and smoke, he no longer seems to smell the metallic smell of the photographic equipment, and the smell is very similar to soaking in the equipment pile.Xu You rested her head on his shoulder, a little uncomfortable, and couldn't imagine what it would be like if one day, she had to let go of the paintbrush.Will she go crazy?
Just like a painting friend she met when she was in high school, that girl was very talented and hardworking, but I don't know why, her physique suddenly began to become sensitive, she was severely allergic to oil paint and acrylic paint, and her face was swollen every day, even the doctor couldn't tell why, but advised her to stay away from allergens.The girl cried heartbreakingly, and the cry shook Xu You, and she didn't even know how to comfort her.Thinking of this, Xu You sighed lightly.Then, she heard Chu Zhao say: "Fall in love with photography, and gradually, you will start to hate sunny days, sunshine and rainbows, but cloudy and cloudy days will feel more like." ”Xu You didn't answer, closed his eyes, and a sunny and cloudy day with light and shadow intertwined appeared in his mind.She retorted softly in her heart that if it was for the photo, she would like the latter, but instinctively, she still yearns for the sun.Sunshine is hope.Plants like her, who are struggling in the corners, grow taller every time they want to get over the obstacles and let the sun shine on them.After completing Xiaomin's business, Xu You unexpectedly received a few more payments, all of which were girls who wanted to take private photos and wanted to find a female photographer.Later, Xu You learned that it was Xiao Min who introduced him to his friends, and his friends introduced him to others.There are few female photographers in the circle, but there are even fewer who can take good pictures and chat, and even fewer who know how to bring models into the state.The more effective the communication, the more time and cost will be saved.This is not that Xu You is self-taught, but this set of methods is also used in oil painting, telling the model how to pose so that he is not tired, and he can show the body lines.In June, Xu You celebrated his twentieth birthday.She also had her first satisfactory photograph as the background of her Weibo and circle of friends, and shared it with Ji Chun and Qi Yuzhen.In the second half of the year, Xu You's sleep time was almost squeezed clean, but her spirit was too much to run out, sleeping less than six hours a day, and she had to go to class, paint, and take pictures.It seems that someone injected her with stimulants, and day by day, she never gets tired of it, and it seems that she wants to overdraft her future life in advance.As Chu Zhao said, Xu You gradually fell in love with exploration, such as running to some dilapidated buildings, climbing mountains, contacting people playing extreme sports, capturing the decadent texture, capturing the beauty of nature, or capturing people who are moving fast, and capturing the most wonderful scenes.The junior year was coming soon.In the past six months, Xu You's reputation for taking private photos has become a little better, and Chu Zhao introduced her to two commercial auctions.The first time was for a small magazine.But Xu You didn't play very well.Even the model ran to complain to the agent, saying that it was a newcomer and a female photographer, which was a bit bad.That day, Xu You was very devastated and lost, she looked at the piece in her hand and couldn't even say a word of justification.It's really rotten.Even if she knows in her heart that there are no perfect people and things in this world, unless PS, even when Xiao Min asks her if she will look a little fat when she shoots, she will tell her like this: "It's okay, you can PS." ”But this time, even Xu You herself felt that the early stage was so bad, she couldn't afford to repair the later stage.She was extremely unhappy in her heart, but she couldn't get angry with anyone, she was unhappy with herself.Later, she smoked a cigarette in the toilet, and when her mood stabilized, she told the person in charge of the magazine that she was willing to cut half of the pay, and if the other party was still not satisfied, she didn't want a cent, could she try for another half hour.The person in charge of the magazine considered the cost, and when he saw it again, he wasted half a day anyway, and he didn't care about more than half an hour, so he agreed.In fact, the person in charge and Xu You knew very well that if they came for another half an hour, there would be no miracles.Xu You took two deep breaths, stabilized himself, communicated well with the model, and made up for another round.In the end, the magazine selected two to use, and saw that Xu You was a little girl, holding back her strength, her face turned red, and she was obviously hit hard, but she still pulled down her face and ran to communicate with them.In the end, the person in charge gave Xu You a little hard money.Xu You took the money, his heart was about to explode, and he walked on the street for two hours, and he was really tired, so he sat on the side of the road in a daze.She wanted to cry, but she didn't have the face to cry.In fact, outsiders' discussions are just scratching the surface, and self-denial is a dimensionality reduction blow.That night, Xu You had insomnia all night.In the first half of the night, she locked herself in a small studio and looked through her past brush exercises.There are some that she can't look at herself, but she can't control her hands, and she flips them one by one.In the second half of the night, she called a car and ran to Chu Zhao's apartment.Chu Zhao was not at home.In the past six months, his work has become more and more busy, sometimes he will sleep in the company, sometimes he will return to Chu's house, and sometimes he will make do in the business apartment near the company.They also spend less and less time to see each other, and it is not easy to see each other twice a week.And his personal belongings in this small apartment were also packed in cardboard boxes.Those decadent T-shirts and jeans, he didn't have much of a chance to wear.As for the photographic equipment, it is basically Xu You touching it now.Until dawn that day, Xu You was still sitting on the floor of the living room, fiddling with the equipment, trying to use his mobile phone to control the selfie of the camera given to him by Chu Zhao.Only in this way will she be able to relax the highly tense emotions.Until the next day, the sun rose and shone into the house, shining brightly.Xu You hugged his knees and faced the sun in a daze.By noon, she was so sleepy that she lay on the floor, wrapped in a thin quilt, and passed out.In the afternoon, she woke up and saw several WeChat messages coming in her phone.The first one was sent by Ji Chun: "It doesn't matter, how can there be a master who has never failed."
You didn't paint once and left the school, you forgot, how long did Qi Yuzhen correct you.Perk up the dots. ”Xu You frowned, woke up and was sleepy, only to see that before she fell asleep, she sent a WeChat message to Ji Chun, saying this: "The first time I took the commercial auction, I messed up."
Everyone looked at me with contempt and suspicion.Even I think it's terrible. ”Seeing his words, Xu You sighed and replied, "I'm much better, it hurts a little when I fall, but I'll get up." ”Ji Chun also replied: "Well, that's good." ”Then, Xu You clicked on Chu Zhao's WeChat again.She didn't have the face to tell him about this, but he still knew: "I heard about yesterday's incident, it's okay, I was worse than you for the first time, and even the lights complained about me behind my back that day." ”Xu You smiled, she knew that Chu Zhao was comforting her, he started so high, so he wouldn't be like this.But Xu You said: "So miserable?
Then I'm much more balanced.Don't worry, I'll digest it for a few days, learn a lesson, and it will be fine soon.You go to your class and leave me alone. ”Chu Zhao: "Well, I believe you. ”In the second commercial auction, Xu You was extremely cautious, but his heart was much calmer than the last time.She has to admit that the last time she took the business photo, it was because of the success of the previous few private photos, and her heart had begun to drift, and she was still a little self-righteous.Commercial photography is a commodity, it is to be shown to the public, and it is to be played out as an "advertisement", which is like an oil painting that is used for the competition, which is different from the advertising painting.Not only did she float, but she also underestimated the enemy, and it was really not enough to slap herself a few times.So this time, Xu You paid special attention to it.Later, when it was over, the beads of sweat on her head had already rolled down, and her back was soaked with sweat.Chu Zhao's male apprentice also told her that her state this time scared him a little, especially the eyes.Xu You was tired and collapsed, so he squatted on the ground, smoking a cigarette, and didn't even have the strength to laugh.Until the male apprentice gave her the photos he had taken with his mobile phone.Xu You took it and looked at it, stunned.In the photo, she was standing behind the camera stand, her hair was longer, she could grab a small tug in the back, and a lock hung down in front of her, wet with sweat, but she ignored it, just stared at the direction of the model with a serious face, raised a hand, it should be on the spot, her back was very straight, and her eyes were sharp.Chu Zhao's male apprentice sent the photo to Xu You, Xu You felt very subtle in his heart, she used to paint others and shoot others, but she rarely had the experience of being photographed.She once said to Xiao Min: "Only if I take a picture of you, will you see what you look like in the eyes of the person you like." ”Qi Yuzhen also told her that her serious and focused appearance in oil painting is very attractive.Xu You didn't understand until now.It turns out that this is what she looks like in the eyes of others.Perhaps, this is also the reason why she likes Chu Zhao and Qi Yuzhen, right?
They are all the same people, who can devote themselves to the things they love and do whatever it takes.Having said that, in this second commercial auction, Xu You's completion is quite acceptable, with a self-evaluation of 70 points, but in terms of her remuneration, the customer is worth the money.After Xu You repaired the film that day, he looked at the finished product and was stunned for a long time.She didn't know how many years, three years, five years, or ten years she would have to work hard at eighty points.It sounds like a long time, but in my heart it is happy, satisfied, and refreshing.At the end of the year, life is even busier than before.Xu You has to paint and take pictures again, and he has made some achievements, and the number of people who come to her has also increased.But she couldn't be busy at all, even if she called a few juniors and sisters to help at school, she was still busy in the dark.And what Qi Yuzhen was worried about still happened, Xu You's energy was not enough to allocate to two high-intensity "rice bowls", and it was not easy to serve one of them.Xu You never thought that he would have such a day, standing at the crossroads, and he could only choose one of the two roads.Whether it's oil painting or photography, both are what she likes, and her heart hurts when she gives up either side.She didn't want to choose, just like Chu Zhao initially evaded the requirements of her family, thinking that she could drag it out for a day, and if she persisted, maybe there would be a good way one day?
But this deadlock was quickly broken.Xu's father suddenly fainted at home.Fortunately, Xu You was at home that day, and he hurriedly sent Xu's father to the hospital.The doctor gave Xu's father a full body examination, and the result was alcoholic cirrhosis.If it is well maintained, it will not be life-threatening, but there is a certain probability of evolving in the direction of liver cancer.Xu's father's cirrhosis is in the compensated stage, and the survival rate will reach 80% within ten years, and once it develops to decompensated cirrhosis, the survival rate will be reduced to 25%.When Xu You heard this, his ears buzzed.She didn't expect that her mother had been gone for less than ten years, and her father's lifespan had suddenly been marked.It may be silly to say this, whose life has no expiration date?
It's just that in Xu You's impression, Xu's father's body has always been tough, he has never been seriously ill, and his life and rest are healthy, but he just has a good cup of things.Xu You, like the same children in the world, naively thought that that day was still far away, at least a few decades away.It happened very suddenly.But after she calmed down, she was also a little lucky.At the very least, there is still a chance to save.Until that day, Xu You communicated the details with the doctor, and probably asked how much money the family had to prepare, help Xu's father treat this disease, and make long-term preparations.Back at home, Xu You locked himself in the house, checking the Internet while pressing the calculator.She counted the accounts one by one, and in the end she could only stare at the number in a daze.The author has something to say: After Ji Chun, Qi Yuzhen, and Chu Zhao, Xu You will also have to make his first life choice.This chapter takes a quick turn point.,It's almost done.,The next chapter is almost a senior.。
There is no suspense, new characters will appear, and there will be new changes in the relationship between the current characters~......
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☆, from campus to society 12 During Xu's father's hospitalization, Qi Yuzhen also gave birth to a daughter abroad, who was born prematurely.She recovered well after giving birth and named her daughter Qi Dong.Xu You offered his blessings as soon as possible.After a few days, when Qi Yuzhen and Xu You made a video, they saw that she was wrong, and only after asking did they know about her family.Xu You barely maintained a smile, his twenty-year-old face was full of tiredness, and the brilliance of the previous six months was suddenly gone.Xu You could have held on, even if he did not perform well professionally, he never complained.But that day, Xu You didn't hold back, and cried at Qi Yuzhen for a long time, depressed and painful.In the end, it was Qi Yuzhen who broke the decision in Xu You's heart: "You finish this degree, and in the future, concentrate on photography."
Oil painting has a long cycle and slow money, so it is too unrealistic to use it to make a living and take care of the body of the elderly.Even I wasn't sure that I could do so much with the money I earned from painting advertisements.Photography comes quickly, and Chu Zhao helps you with your work, at least you can deal with the expenses in life first.As for oil painting, it should be regarded as a hobby, cultivating temperament, and painting when you want to paint, which is also very good, you can only paint the people and things you like, not for a certain proposition. ”But in fact, they all know in their hearts that once it is only a hobby and loses the market, and no one evaluates it, the mentality of the painters will also change and will be unbalanced, because they don't go to play tickets in the first place.Whether it is Van Gogh or Monet, they need the "ruler" of the market, if they can really paint quietly, just to cultivate their temperament, Van Gogh will not be extremely pessimistic and mentally broken because he is not recognized.If a person's spiritual world is barren, he will not be happy in real life, but on the other hand, no matter how rich the spiritual world is, it cannot completely replace real life.Xu You put down not only the brush, just like Chu Zhao, what he put down was the obsession and persistence in his heart for a long time.Those obsessions and persistence were once a part of their lives, and they were the pillars that supported the world.But this time, I had to dismantle it myself.A corner of the world will crumble, and it will hurt to fall down, and that pain will always be there, day by day.But Xu You knew that she could only get used to it.Qi Yuzhen comforted Xu You and said: "At least you put down your brush and choose photography, and you don't completely get out of this circle, after all, photography is also what you like."
Later, when the economy improves, pick up the paintbrush. ”Having said that, this "letting go" may be temporary, or it may be permanent.Xu You's "hole" in the house, I don't know when it can be filled, and I don't know if she will be recognized when she walks back to this market on that day.Once it is not recognized, then the current let go is forever.After crying, Xu You calmed down and had to consider reality again.It is said that the children of the poor are in charge of the house early, and the word "pragmatic" has long been integrated into her blood and bones, and only art can allow her to escape temporarily.It's like two parallel worlds, one is whimsical and full of infinite possibilities, and you can see the stars and the sun when you close your eyes, and the other is down-to-earth and plain, just like in "The Moon and Sixpence", "I did my best to live an ordinary life".Xu You quickly pulled out of the pain and forced herself to be a practical person, and she and Qi Yuzhen also discussed a set of plans.It is impossible for her to put down the oil painting immediately, but this preparation must be done, at least after completing this degree, each work in the school must be carefully and cherished, because for every painting, there is one less.Qi Yuzhen handed over the two customers to Xu You, she has to maintain them well, and she doesn't take on other jobs, but these two must not be lazy, and when Qi Yuzhen returns a year later, she will hand over the customers completely, which can be regarded as an explanation for Qi Yuzhen's help for her in the past few years.