Chapter 81 - The starry sky is vast, and everything is quiet like poetry.Shen Dayye floated among the misty stars, his eyes were red after he finished speaking, and he looked directly at his young self.…… Chen Xiaozhi will go abroad.- This decision has nothing to do with her.Many people thought that Chen Xiaozhi went abroad after being hurt by love, but it wasn't.Going abroad is Chen Xiaozhi's determination that he is said to have made since he was very young.He wants to go out for further study, he wants to go out to high school, where he can see more and wider possibilities, meet more different people, study the subjects he likes, and become a broader scholar.For this reason, he rejected the invitation to the national team that Shen Dayye dreamed of but failed to get.He had never told Shen Dayye that he was going abroad.Xiao Yuba stood in front of his grown self.Shen Dayye said to her, "You can choose whatever you want."
By the way, Chen Xiaozhi is now me, that is, your future mentor, who just scolded me less than half an hour before my timeline. ”"Think about it," Shen Dayye said sarcastically, "If you can accept this kind of life, then you can change it casually - but if you look at me, do you think I seem to have accepted it?"
”At that moment, Xiao Yuye also sneered: "Are you sure that all this is caused by the three things you listed for me?"
”When Shen Dayye heard this, she felt that this was basically raising the bar, and she felt angry and speechless—she didn't laugh angrily, and asked, "What about otherwise?"
”You will be hurt by Chen Xiaozhi and cry, Shen Dayye thought, but it will be unforgettable for him in the next ten years.- He will be your future midnight dream, your unforgettable, your first love that breaks your heart, but also the untouchable, bubble-like fragile and beautiful phantom in your heart.…… But that's the only way you think.You will be sharpened by reality, and you will become gray and ordinary.And Chen Xiaozhi has never taken you to heart.Shen Dayye thought of Chen Xiaozhi's indifferent attitude, and almost felt that he was on the verge of shattering.Two people of different ages face each other to the death across the watery galaxy.Xiao Yuye opened his mouth and mocked: "Then what's not?
”“…… You say, "That's not the case," Xiao Yuye smiled: "......
Is it all your fault?
”"Because I insist on competing," Xiao Yuye said: "Because I insist on walking a poor and bitter path that may not yield results, according to you, I have no talent, because I insist on not breaking up with Chen Xiaozhi?"
Because I made such a choice at this moment in the moment, and I am determined to follow this path?
”Xiao Yuba: "......
That's why you're having a hard time now?
”Shen Dayye's eyes turned red at that moment."
You ......"
Shen Dayye's nose was red, and the hem of her skirt hung in the universe, and she persuaded herself in a trembling voice to the young and chivalrous young man who carried spring water on her body, herself: "......
You haven't been through it all.It's still too late. ”Xiao Yuye raised his voice, and his voice was clear: "Then I'll say it again." ”"-I don't want to."
Then Xiao Yuye said sarcastically, "I'm disappointed in you. ”"I said I was disappointed in you," the young man stood in front of her and cleared her throat, "......
I will now change the wording. ”The girl was so sad that she almost mocked: "-I am true, I am so disappointed in you. ”-Shen Dayye had a bang in his head at that moment.She stumbled for a moment, but the universe that wrapped her was too gentle, and she couldn't even fall, Shen Dayye raised her head and saw a flame-like meteor streak behind her young her.The flame rises from the lonely mountain, from the moment when man picks up the tool.The eyes of the young man in the red and white school uniform were burning with the fire that Shen Tianye was familiar with.The flame was passed on by her predecessors when she was young, nurtured by the love and 'faith' of her parents and friends, and burned like a mountain fire around her as an adult."
I'm so disappointed in you."
Xiao Yuye repeated firmly, with a deep incomprehension in his eyes, he looked at his adult self and said, "How can I grow like this?"
”With tears in his eyes, Shen Dayye looked at the young man's self almost beggingly, and said in a trembling voice, almost apologetically: "......
I know, I know, I'm in a situation that you are not happy with, and I never dreamed when I was fifteen years old that I would be ......" ......
Reduced to this.Xiao Yuye said indifferently: "-No, you don't understand. ”The adult dayleaf desperately held back the tears in his eyes."
If you understood, you wouldn't be standing here," Xiao Yuye mocked, "It's like begging for forgiveness, apologizing to a little girl who you should know everything about your current situation." ”Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye's eyes were red and his hair was messy, and he looked at himself in a daze.“…… Competition," Xiao Yuye said: "Elimination is a part of life, and the national team of the competition this year does not want me to be their loss, because they do not see my potential." ”"But as long as I have the opportunity to fight for this place, even if I know the result, I will do my best."
Little Dayleaf treads the endless night under his feet.The young girl opened her arms slightly, as if hugging the stars."-- Chen Xiaozhi."
Immature she said.The girl closed her eyes for a moment, her school uniform was puffed up by the gentle wind, and her voice was as clear as the sea breeze: "......
We are so young and meet each other so casually, how likely is it that we will make it to the end?
”“…… Very small, very small. ”She asked herself."
Although lovers love to swear long times when they fall in love," the girl added, "but everyone knows in their hearts that they may not be able to do this sentence themselves, it is better to say that they can't do it at all, and ninety-nine percent of the time and Forever are scenes." ”Shen Dayye's eyes were full of tears, looking at his young figure.The girl said softly, "......
We almost, will break up. ”Shen Dayye even had a sore throat."
Even if Chen Xiaozhi and I are like-minded," the girl said, "even if we like each other, it is impossible to meet at this age."
There are too many variables. ”"I knew that when I was in a relationship - but I grabbed his hand anyway."…… Be.Because I love him.“…… Because I love him. ”The young Shen Dayye raised her head as she spoke, her arms softly spread, as if embracing the whole world that was about to hurt her."
—and when I loved him, he was in all my suns, moons, and stars
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"- Yes.Her eyes were filled with tears.- "Poor and miserable," said the girl, gritting her teeth, "- Astrophysics." ”“Astrophysics。”"
How difficult it is," she said.Producing results is even more difficult than studying, almost fateful.It used to be a hot spot, but since the 70s of the last century, it has been a bottleneck for many years, and you need to step on the mud and look up at the starry sky.It needs to be precipitated and accumulated, and it needs to be settled and prepared for many years. ”"But isn't it all like that?"
The fifteen-year-old boy looked at his adult self with red eyes: "The so-called research is like this - depression and ruggedness, years of nothingness, years of loneliness.The bottleneck that accompanies everyone who seeks the truth. ”“…… From the beginning, I knew that.But even though I knew it, I still resolutely embarked on this path. ”The young girl slid through the cosmic stars as soft as soft mud."-- and I am the same person as you."
She said."
We," she repeated firmly, "......
It's the same person. ”“…… We should be just as brave," said the young woman as she slid through the void, "just as determined, and fearless."
We will always make that choice. ”Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye, tears blurred his eyes.She said, "......
But......"
"I'm disappointed in you. ”The young girl said sadly: "......
And this disappointment has nothing to do with my situation ten years later. ”Shen Dayye: "Then what are you disappointed in......?"
Adults want to ask.But as soon as she opened her mouth, she heard a cry of despair coming from the eustachian tube.The girl replied, "......
I was disappointed by my attitude. ”Shen Dayye: "......"
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"Why did I give up," the girl asked aggressively, "Why did I become like this?"
Who are you, we should be the same person, we know that we fail but still try, if we love someone, we must grasp him, make him our own, be hurt by him, find out that he does not love us, and go without any delay - I, you, we are like this. ”"I—you—we."
The fifteen-year-old girl's voice was almost bloody, and she said firmly: "We build dreams."
I'm not going to fucking give up, I'm not going to compromise, I'd rather fucking die than be a bunch of negotiators who retreat and bow to the world and myself. ”At that moment, deep in Shen Dayye's heart, the flames in the ashes rekindled.Adults look at the alternate ego floating in this space with teary eyes."
Shen Dayye, you know it very well in your heart."
The ego looked at her and repeated, "......
Particularly understood. ”"You don't really want to give up at all."
In the gentle and brilliant universe, the young, glowing self said, "......
Your compromises are against your will, and your suppleness is only superficial.As long as someone saves you and pulls you, you can still willingly kowtow to the point where your head is bleeding. ”Shen Dayye's tears rolled out.“…… Just like me. ”Fifteen-year-old self.
-One, two, rolling tears float gravityless, refracting thousands of lights in the extremely dark universe.The other party asked: "Competition, after you were eliminated, did you go again?"
”Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye cried uncontrollably, and tears rolled out almost like beads with broken threads.She nodded tremblingly as she wiped it.Xiao Yuba did not speak.- Yes.Shen Dayye went back to the competition.In the fall of 2009, high school enrollment.Shen Dayye, who won the third prize, huddled together with a group of senior and sophomore seniors, taking classes and training together in the hot summer.On the eve of the finals, the sixteen-year-old sat in front of the hotel window and sent a text message to Teacher Ci, telling him: "Teacher, I have been shortlisted again this year.Everything that happened after that was heard even by Zhang Zhen in other provinces."
That's right."
Xiao Yuye said slowly."
--because I'm going to go again after I'm eliminated."
At the age of twenty-five, she cried and trembled, but she felt that her heart was sore and unbearably swollen, like a spark burning in the prairie fire, and like a gentle flower and dream rising from the ruins.I had a dream of going into the universe alone. ’She saw her young self on tiptoe, like a fish, swimming smoothly among the stars of the universe."
Did you look in the mirror when you wrote to me?"
The young woman asked sadly.“…… You, like me, have everything written on your face. ”She added."
If you look in the mirror, you know, including when you said all that nonsense to me before," said the young girl, "that every decision I made was brave and fearless - it was the right one," said the young girl. ”Then Xiao Yuba, who was as tall as her, stretched out his hand and hugged his adult self hard.- "Why are you thinner than me," the little girl hugged her tightly in the vast space with red eyes, and whispered, "......
You suffered.You must have had a hard time, more tired and worse than I am now......"
The adult cried so much that his nose turned red.She couldn't stop crying, and was finally held tightly in her arms by her fifteen-year-old self.She heard the sound of her young self's heartbeat alive.“…… I'm so sad," the little girl hugged her and said sadly: "I also boasted that I would be a royal sister in the future, tall and big-breasted, and my heart was cold when I saw you......"
She hasn't grown up for so many years, her curly hair and slender body are exactly the same as her past self, but when she was a child, she wore a very unsuitable ponytail, and now she lets go of herself and scatters her hair every day.Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye wiped his tears while crying, sobbing and said, "Get out, get out, don't learn from Chen Xiaozhi's dog ...... talking" "You obviously learned it too." ”Xiao Yuye twitched the tip of his nose and said aggrievedly: "I learned the dirty words I will say with you, don't think I don't know."
Woo, it turns out that my chest is destined ......"
The stars twinkled, and shooting stars streaked across the quiet universe.Shen Dayye cried and laughed for a while, hugging her young self tightly, tears all rubbing on her hair."
You're weird, too."“…… Well?
”"What you want me to give up, everything," the tender voice resounded softly through the cosmic nebula.“…… None of you want to let go. ”-......
"How did I get here?"
I really don't know about this question," Xiao Yuye said honestly: "I seem to be preparing for the CPhO finals, at home, I was very angry with you at the time, I don't know how you can be so stupid, I copied a piece of paper and was ready to scold you......"
Shen Dayye: "......"
"I'm in a similar situation," Shen Dayye said embarrassedly: "Then a lot of stars suddenly burst out, and I suddenly fell."
But then again, I still think you're a little underwhelmed. ”The two of them—one person, whatever they wanted, made people quite confused—walked among the gentle starry sky.Xiao Yuba: "Yes, the feeling of falling. ”Then Xiao Yuye said politely again: "You are actually not much better, I know for the first time that I hate myself so much." ”Shen Dayye: "I should have thrown away my oil-based pen at that time." ”The little girl said, "Does it feel good to scold yourself?"
”Shen Dayye asked unforgivingly: "Does it feel cool to spray yourself?"
”Xiao Dayye: "......"
Forget it, in this case, no matter how you spray yourself......
"I really didn't expect to be able to meet you," Shen Dayye couldn't help but pinch his wrist, and felt that it hurt a lot: "......
And where the hell are we?
”Xiao Yuye thought for a moment and said, "The existence of this space is rather vague, between real and false.But I remember the way I remember it very well lately, that I, like you, was sucked in. ”Shen Dayye scratched his head: "......
Defy common sense. ”Xiao Yuye nodded in approval, and said, "But then again, nothing that happened today is not against common sense." ”Shen Dayye said: "This is really a pot of porridge. ”The little girl sighed too."
Who's to say it's not," the little girl whispered, "......
It doesn't feel like a dream, and I have a gut feeling that I know a little more than you do. ”Shen Dayye was taken aback: "Huh?
”"I know more than you do."
The little girl sighed: "I know four things, which I told me in a very indistinct voice before I was sucked in. ”Shen Dayye: "...... 1.
One voice?
”"First."
The little girl said, "......
This space cannot be said to be real.But at this moment now, the physical body really does not exist in reality. ”Shen Dayye was stunned: "It's not—you tell me that voice again?"
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Is it sound?
”The little girl honestly said, "Yes."
But it's so vague that you can't even tell the difference between men and women......
I can't even remember whether it was Chinese or English. ”Shen Daye: "......"
Indeed, this problem will arise in Shen Dayye -- under the premise that both languages are native languages, it is difficult for people to distinguish the language spoken by the speaker if they do not carefully distinguish between them."
Inside or outside?"
Shen Dayye added: "-- The source of the voice. ”The little girl said firmly: "From the outside."
I'm sure of that. ”Shen Dayye groaned and said, "Okay, you continue." ”"One, this place won't hurt us."
The little girl said: "Second, the reason why we were sucked into this space is actually because of you in 2018. ”Shen Dayye pointed his finger at himself in disbelief and said, "Me?!"
”Xiao Yuye nodded and said, "-You." ”"......"
"The third thing," Xiao Yuba said seriously, "After I go back, I will forget about being mad at you." ”Shen Dayye couldn't help but laugh: "Fairenough......
But I'll remember. ”The little girl nodded warmly, and then said, "-- the fourth thing." ”Shen Dayye also laughed, looking at his young self.“…… That voice specifically asked me to tell you. ”Xiao Yuye looked at her and said seriously: "After you go out, you must swim with all your might." ”Shen Dayye was stunned: "Swimming?
”"Yes," Xiao Yuye said confusedly, "......
The voice tells you to swim as hard as you can, and you to be careful, saying that he can't protect you for long. ”"I don't know why."
Between the stars, Xiao Yuye said, "......
But I always felt that that might be the purpose of this communication. ”Shen Dayye smiled warmly.Shen Dayye said to the little girl, "Well, I'll remember it well." ”All of this is incredibly gentle, even like a dream.She reached out and touched her young hair, only to feel that the touch of the tentacles was exactly the same as hers - Shen Dayye stood in the middle of the star cluster, and the rose-like nebula bloomed like water.The little girl was stunned for a moment and asked, "Remember swimming?"
”Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye couldn't help but laugh: "No. ”The little girl had a biu on her head, and a question mark popped up."
-I remember how you came to spray me," Shen Dayye said lightly but not without amazement, "I really didn't expect that I would disappoint you so much." ”Xiao Yuye said sincerely: "......
It's really disappointing. ”"I guess so."
Shen Dayye smiled and said, "......
Otherwise, how could you be so fierce?
”The little girl looked at her and asked earnestly, "Do you remember that?"
”"Remember what I said to you."
Xiao Yuye repeated, "......
Remember that we are the same person. ”At the age of twenty-five, the tip of her nose was sour, and she snorted forcefully at her young, sharp and sharp self."
So," Shen Dayye asked tentatively again, "......
You're still going to repeat my mistakes. ”Xiao Yuye looked at her, smiled softly and brightly, and said to her sweetly, "I don't know either." ”At that moment, a group of stars surged up, surrounding like a hurricane, Shen Dayye screamed, and saw that she was also swept up when she was young.In the next second, the meteor dispersed, leaving only a bright starry sky, vast and boundless.……-……………… Thousands of miles away, the city of Palo Alto.It was raining outside, and the air conditioning was still on in Chen Xiaozhi's office, and he had just hung up a video call with Shen Dayye, and at the end of the call, Shen Dayye's voice was still a little soft, begging him to help change the ticket, saying that he didn't want to stay there.After Chen Xiaozhi hung up the phone, his mockery was overflowing.Lu Zhiming: "......"
Chen Xiaozhi mocked: "Didn't I let her go there for a vacation?"
After the meeting, you want to play for as long as you want.I granted her leave, I reimbursed it all, and when it was done, I told me that I had nothing to do over there, and I took my own bed, and said that the weather was bad -- the weather was bad.I told you that Shen Dayye is a squeamish ghost, what is your opinion?
”Lu Zhiming: "It's not ......"
"Did you hear her voice, she was going to cry," Lu Zhiming said distressedly: "What kind of vacation did you let her spend alone?"
You have to have friends with you on vacation, you have to stay so far alone......"
Chen Xiaozhi said meanly: "Liang Le is not her friend?
I haven't talked about her dinner with Liang Le yet. ”Then he turned his gaze straight back to the monitor.Extremely, iron-blooded and ruthless."......"
"Xiaozhi, you really, don't bully her," Lu Zhiming sighed and said, "......
I really think she looks so sad, you yourself are willful, you want to torture her, you won't go if you don't go......
You have to have a subjective intention to go on vacation, right?
Besides, Xiao Xiaoye stays in that kind of place with a girl's house, and there is still a single ......"
Chen Xiaozhi stared at the computer screen, pushing his forehead with two fingers, motionless, and his face was a little ugly.Lu Zhiming leaned against the door and said lazily, "What will Shen Dayye do?"
That little girl is already a small one, and she is still the kind of small physique that kills when she runs 800 meters, and her strength is only so lost, and the security in Indonesia is not much better......"
Chen Xiaozhi didn't raise his head, and looked at the screen coldly."
What if someone catches me on the way back to the hotel one day?"
Lu Zhiming said maliciously: "Do you know that the documentary of India's daughter is about the rape and murder case of Indian buses......"
Chen Xiaozhi's face was extremely ugly, and he said word by word: "Shut up." ”"--Xiaozhi, Shen Dayye can be left alone now," Lu Zhiming smiled, and his tone slowly poured fuel on the fire: "Use your imagination to imagine?"
She was a soft and weak little one, dark at night, small alleys, small day leaves, she didn't even have a mobile phone, crying and shouting for help......"
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At that moment, Chen Xiaozhi almost collapsed and roared: "Didn't I fucking tell you to shut up?!"
”Lu Zhiming didn't care about it after teasing, retracted his gaze, and let out an expressionless sigh.Chen Xiaozhi shuddered and gasped, and tried his best to calm down: "The date is too close to change the book, I just ordered a new one for her, and I will fly to Los Angeles at twelve o'clock tomorrow noon." ”Lu Zhiming asked interestingly: "The action is so fast?"
”"--I hung up the phone and opened the booking website," Chen Xiaozhi stared at Lu Zhiming, almost gritting his teeth and said: "Shen Dayye's matter, I still use you--let me fart like this?"
”In the dim skylight, Lu Zhiming looked at Chen Xiaozhi for three seconds, and asked complicatedly: "Chen Xiaozhi, do you even think you can't stand it even if you imagine her shouting for help?"
”Chen Xiaozhi stared at him.It was almost a game, Chen Xiaozhi stared at him, Lu Zhiming looked back not to be outdone, his face was full of words that he had to get this answer.A full minute passed.Chen Xiaozhi retracted his eyes and said indifferently: "......
Be. ”"I regretted it when her plane took off," Chen Xiaozhi's voice trembled slightly: "......
I'm ......""......
How can I let her go alone?
”Lu Zhiming said: "I'm also curious about ......"
However, before he could finish speaking, the next second Chen Xiaozhi recovered his indifferent face: "But I asked, the public security is still okay - it can be regarded as a cure for her ghost problems."
Recognize the bed?
How dare I say it. ”"I'm squeamish."
Professor Chen sneered awkwardly: "Just pack up for two days and let her come back tomorrow." ”Then he moved his fingers very hard-mouthed and soft-hearted, took a screenshot of the newly booked flight information, and sent it to Shen Dayye on WeChat.