There were no surprises, not even unexpected emotions.The mood is still stuck in the suffering before rebirth.Listening to his mother talk about his college entrance examination results, Li Xiaohei's face was completely sluggish.He didn't know what he was going through, and the past few decades were squeezing his mind little by little, like a dream, and like until now, the dream has not woken up.He doesn't think the so-called rebirth is lucky.If this is really lucky, he would rather lose it.In his first life, he experienced a very successful first half of his life.In his first rebirth, he experienced a full life of suffering and despair.What now?
What will he experience in the second rebirth?
Li Xiaohei was suddenly extremely frightened.Perhaps the scars left by his last life were too deep, which made him subconsciously begin to reject everything.He may be aware of what is going to happen next, but he doesn't know if it will happen.The college entrance examination score of more than 700 points seems to indicate his next different fate, but all kinds of things in his previous life are still tormenting him, and every minute and second makes him feel clear torment.It's not lucky.If you really want to use one word to describe it, Li Xiaohei feels that everything he is experiencing now is completely being played.A pair of invisible palms seem to stir everything related to themselves, unreservedly releasing malice.He stayed up with some trepidation, waiting for a certain node to appear.While he consciously waited, he managed to get his parents to avoid the last time they had a car accident.He seems to have changed the fate of his parents, but then he has fallen into deeper anxiety.Because he didn't know if such an operation really meant that his parents had avoided misfortune.Life moves forward in his anxiety.He entered the university.Then there are graduate students.Meet your mentor again.All bad luck seems to have disappeared.He was still worried about his parents, but they were healthy, his father's business was getting bigger, and his mother, with a successful husband and a wonderful son, was more carefree.Li Xiaohei met Bai Xiaobai again.Smooth and smooth love.The wedding date was smoothly determined.Smooth and smooth marriage.Everything is good like an illusion.Li Xiaohei's heart, which had been tense after his rebirth, finally relaxed a little.He felt that his previous rebirth was just a mistake, or if it was really just a dream.On the day he married Bai Xiaobai, he put a ring on Bai Xiaobai with the blessing of relatives and friends, telling himself to let go of the past and welcome a new life.The night of candles in the cave passed quickly.The next morning, he opened his eyes and saw a bright red.He lay on his bed, holding his wife who had just come home with one hand around him, and she smiled sweetly in her sleep, but the smile was not bloody.Li Xiaohei saw that he was holding a knife in his other hand and stabbed the blade into his wife's heart.The world in front of me is in utter chaos.What happened next, Li Xiaohei couldn't remember it clearly, he seemed to be frantically shouting Bai Xiaobai's name, with great confusion and confusion, he tortured his body like crazy.The wedding room was stained red with blood.His consciousness was blurring.Familiar darkness.Gradually cold body.The pure blue light shone again in the consciousness space, and they formed a symbol, and the symbol vibrated in Li Xiaohei's consciousness space.A second before death officially came.Li Xiaohei saw all kinds of pictures of his second rebirth in the blue symbol.He saw himself stuffed in his room all day after the college entrance examination.He heard a heated argument from his parents outside the door.He heard his own giggle in the room, he was shouting the names of his parents, Bai Xiaobai's name, the name of his tutor, and the name of his classmates.He picked up the guitar on the wall and put it on the bed, and proposed to the guitar with the pull tab of the can.He lies in bed with his guitar in his arms, rips the strings of the guitar in his sleep, and then starts to go crazy when he wakes up.Consciousness is constantly blurred."
Doctor, my son he" "Sorry, we tried our best" Darkness reigned again.The light reappeared.Rebirth.The third time.Li Xiaohei sat up from the bed.Again, again!!
Because of anger, Li Xiaohei's eyes were blood-red, and he opened his mouth to roar, but at the same time as the sound was about to come out, the door was opened.The mother with a smile on her face walked in, "Son, guess how many points you scored, super level performance, not bad" Li Xiaohei held his breath and didn't speak for a while.Because he doesn't know if the current mother is real or fake.The last time I was reborn, I seemed to have a very serious mental illness, and there were a lot of hallucinations, everything I experienced was all fantasy, and in fact I didn't even leave this room in the last rebirth.And now?
What now?
The mother's figure is incomparably clear, and her smile is soft and kind.But is it true?
What is the so-called true?
It's the third time.The third time was reborn.Could it be that there is no rebirth at all?
He is only Li Xiaohei in the first life, but he has suffered from a very serious mental illness, so he has been reborn three times, all of which are his own fantasies?
No, Li Xiaohei in the first life, is it true?
Himself, will it never exist?
Who am I?
Li Xiaohei's breathing gradually became heavier, his perception of the whole world was constantly reshaped from his parents, and the whole world became fragmented in his eyes, he couldn't tell whether everything around him was true or false, he could only cautiously test the surrounding environment, but no matter how he tried it, he couldn't be sure.In this life, he also saw Bai Xiaobai.Bai Xiaobai died and committed suicide by jumping off the building.This time without her mentor parents, she is an orphan from a poor family but with excellent character and learning, and has lived with her grandmother since she was a child.Li Xiaohei doesn't know what kind of childhood and teenager she spent, but after entering college, her beauty and family background are exposed to the eyes of all the opposite sex, but they are like the strongest aphrodisiac.A wealthy man with an excellent family bought Bai Xiaobai's roommate and tricked her to the rooftop to use Qiang, but when he hadn't met Bai Xiaobai, she jumped directly from the upstairs.Time began to become muddy with Bai Xiaobai's death.Then, familiar doom, unbelievable, bizarre encounters began to follow.Li Xiaohei finally made sure that he did not fall into a hallucination in his rebirth this time, because such a life has nothing to do with a beautiful illusion.This time, when he ended his life with a mutilation, before death came, the delicate symbol reappeared.Li Xiaohei knew the role of this thing.That was his fate.In the darkness, he could even see a pair of hands holding his destiny and writing something.His life, his efforts, everything he gave but could not change, were condensed into this symbol.A second before he died, Li Xiaohei began to scold.He cursed those hands with the most vicious and foul words.His scolding echoed clearly, and then caused a concerned question, "Brother, what's wrong with you?"
”Open your eyes.The familiar room is gone.He looked around him, it was a small hospital room, the air was filled with the smell of disinfectant water, the space was cramped, and a girl in a small dress that was clean but very shabby stood in front of him, holding her hand.Li Xiaohei was stunned for a while, "Xiaobai?
”The little girl, who looked to be only eight or nine years old, laughed at once, very sweet, "I'm here, brother." ”Rebirth.Fourth.This time, Li Xiaohei is an orphan, and Bai Xiaobai is also an orphan.They grew up in an orphanage and spent most of their time together every day, so to speak, childhood sweethearts.And because of Li Xiaohei's existence, Bai Xiaobai even gave up several opportunities to be adopted by other couples.A fire soon broke out in the orphanage.An abrupt, illogical, and unconscionable fire.Li Xiaohei has long been accustomed to this.He left the orphanage with Bai Xiaobai.Five years older than Bai Xiaobai, he began to enter society at the age of fifteen.Picked up rags, brushed pots and dishes in restaurants, did game boosting, as a child, he refused to give up any opportunity to make money, he sent Bai Xiaobai to school, junior high school, high school.Bai Xiaobai is getting more and more beautiful, no, with Li Xiaohei being reborn every time, Bai Xiaobai will become more beautiful every time, and this time it is even more beautiful to the point of exaggeration.In order to protect Bai Xiaobai, Li Xiaohei began to fight, smoke, and drink, and became the most majestic gangster of his age but would feel ashamed when he thought about it for many years to come.Bai Xiaobai went to college.Li Xiaohei, who has grown into a real man, can do more work, move bricks on the construction site, deliver food in the city, and sell breakfast while delivering couriers part-time, as long as Bai Xiaobai is by his side, his breakfast will not be ignored, so life is barely passable, and it may be harder to support a college student sister, but compared to the predicament when he was a child, all this is much better.Li Xiaohei is getting busier and busier because he can do more and more work.Bai Xiaobai is also working and studying, and the time between the two is getting less and less.Li Xiaohei could clearly feel this, but he didn't say anything.He knows how attractive Bai Xiaobai is, and he also knows how many heavenly pride in the school dream of her, from the most realistic point of view, he who does not even have a junior level of Chinese and Bai Xiaobai, who is already a student in a top university, are no longer compatible.Although he supported Bai Xiaobai to this point, until now, he still shoulders most of Bai Xiaobai's tuition fees.But there is nothing to be proud of, from beginning to end, Li Xiaohei knows one thing, that is, if Bai Xiaobai is willing, some people are willing to pay for her tuition, and even marry her home in a sedan chair during school.Li Xiaohei occasionally looked down at the calluses on his hands, he didn't think that he still had the courage to hold Bai Xiaobai's palms with such hands.Reborn again and again, if he and Bai Xiaobai have fate, then such fate should also disappear.He wants her to have a better life and ending, such a thing, he can't afford it, it's better to slowly distance herself.He almost never goes to Bai Xiaobai's school.Telephone contact is becoming less and less frequent.Occasionally when she was alone, she began to deliberately make her angry.Freshman, sophomore, junior and senior.College is coming to an end.During this period, Bai Xiaobai did not participate in any internship interviews, nor did he have any intention of continuing his studies, Li Xiaohei would ask her what she wanted to do, but this young woman who would call him brother sweetly when she was a child, but as she grew older, she liked to call his name more and more, and every time she would reply to him angrily, don't worry about it.The night before graduation, Bai Xiaobai did not participate in the casual dinner among his classmates, but found Li Xiaohei and said that he wanted to celebrate.knew that she didn't find a job until she graduated, to be precise, Li Xiaohei, who gave up a lot of opportunities, was angry and was happily poured a lot of wine by Bai Xiaobai.Then, the next day, as soon as he opened his eyes, he saw Bai Xiaobai lying beside him.Although it is a bit outrageous, the fact is that he was reversed by Bai Xiaobai.Even in order to be foolproof, Bai Xiaobai not only poured him wine, but also drugged him.She looked innocent and very tough, and demanded that Li Xiaohei be responsible for her.For Bai Xiaobai, a better life, a wonderful future, the so-called opportunities or anything are not important.If Li Xiaohei feels that the relationship between them is getting farther and farther away because of her beauty and excellence, then Bai Xiaobai is willing to take the initiative to close this distance, she is not rare to have any opportunities, a great future, and financial freedom may be very good, but she still likes Li Xiaohei, even if she is poor, with her, it is also happy.After graduation, she stayed away from the circle of college, and began to get up early and follow Li Xiaohei to sell breakfast, sell supper, and even follow him to deliver takeaways.Bai Xiaobai's face soon showed traces of wind and frost, and there were wrinkles at the corners of her eyes, but her charm became more and more amazing.The two got married when Li Xiaohei was thirty years old, because they were both orphans, they didn't do a big job, and after getting the certificate, they ate a delicious meal, and that's basically it.The ups and downs and heartache of the previous rebirth seem to have passed.In this life, although their lives are tiring, at least, there is a space that can be called peaceful.When Li Xiaohei was thirty-two years old, Bai Xiaobai gave birth to a child for him.Boy.Li Xiaohei racked his brains to look through the dictionary all night, and finally named the child Li Hao.Li Hao is extremely smart, whether he walks or talks, he is one step ahead of children of the same age, and his performance at some times can even be called mature.A family of three barely settled down in the city.But as time went by, Li Xiaohei's inner emotions continued to tighten.He has a wife and a child, and the child is growing up day by day, but Li Xiaohei doesn't know what he will encounter next.Time passes.The days passed.On the day of Li Hao's seventh birthday, Bai Xiaobai went out to buy a cake, after Li Xiaohei came back from outside, the three lit candles and blew out the cake. ”"If you can't say this, it won't work if you say it."
Li Xiaohei laughed and touched his son's head."
But I want to tell you."
Li Hao blinked his eyes and said very seriously.Li Xiaohei nodded and said with a smile, "Okay, let's talk about what wish you made." ”He thought that his son might want a set of Ultraman toys or an electric car that he had been talking about for a long time, and if that was the case, he decided to bring it back to him when he left the house tomorrow."
I secretly made a wish just now" Li Hao hugged Li Xiaohei's neck and whispered, "I hope that after I die, my parents will not be sad." ”The seven-year-old child's voice was immature and erratic, but when it fell on Li Xiaohei's ears, it was like thunder.His expression was completely frozen, his face was pale, his ears were buzzing, looking at his son with a serious face, an inexplicable rage completely erupted directly from the depths of his heart.His face began to turn red and his breathing became rapid."
Little bastard bullshit, little bastard, you" his voice trembled, a little incoherent."
I'm telling the truth."
Li Hao said softly, "Dad, don't beat me." ”"You, you" Li Xiaohei looked at his son, he wanted to hit someone, but the worry that had been suppressed seemed to completely explode at this moment, and he suddenly realized that he was about to face the most painful truth again, an unprecedented sense of powerlessness enveloped his body and mind, and his body became softer and softer."
I've got you a present, Daddy."
Li Hao continued, he took out a very small thing from his pocket, put it in Li Xiaohei's hand, and grinned.It was like a building block, glowing blue in its purest form.Li Xiaohei silently lowered his head, looking at the things in his hand, his breathing became more and more rapid."
What is this?"
He looked at the thing in his hand and asked hoarsely.In his hand was a symbol that radiated blue light and was constructed of countless complex patterns, it was so familiar, and yet so strange.Every time before death comes, Li Xiaohei can see this symbol.It's "This is your destiny, Daddy." ”Li Hao whispered, "You should know, it's in your hands now." ”Li Xiaohei's breathing became more and more rapid.He held the symbol in his hand and his destiny.Li Hao sat on his lap, very well-behaved and quiet, like a child who did not understand the world.He was indeed a child.But it is a child that Li Xiaohei can't understand."
If" Li Xiaohei was silent for a long time, "if I give this to you, will you still die?"
”"It's useless."
Li Hao smiled and said, "I also have my destiny, and this is Dad's thing, I don't want it, what I want, I will take it myself." ”"You really don't, who the hell are you?"
Li Xiaohei looked at his son in his arms in a daze."
I am your son."
Li Hao stretched out his small palm and touched Li Xiaohei's chin, "Always." ”