When I came back, Gu Xi and I only took the last train, and there were only two of us in the whole car, except for the driver.Leaning on Gu Xi's shoulder, I closed my eyes slightly, and the wailing of the wind and the sad cry of the heavy rain passed by my ears.It was pitch black outside the car window, and occasionally passing by a street lamp, you could only see a few residual shadows of trees, the wind was still blowing, and the rain was still falling.When I went to the countryside with Gu Xi to see the flowers, maybe God played a joke with me, but it was raining heavily, and even the splashes on the cement road were laughing at me.Looking at the sea of fallen flowers, I couldn't help but think of my relationship with Xu Cheng, which was just as fragile as flowers.It can't withstand the wind and rain, and it can't withstand the passage of time.Gu Xi sensed my low mood and said that he would come down to see the flowers in a few days.I didn't want to stay here longer, so I rushed back with Gu Xi while it was not completely dark.Xu Cheng, why do I just want to see the flowers, I want to walk into the world of your dreams, God doesn't allow it, I just want to walk into you a little more, to see the sea of flowers in your eyes, that's all.I like the sycamore in the old courtyard of the old house in your dream, I want to tease the lazy cat on the eaves with you, breathe the blue sky, and then rejoice in the picturesque sea of flowers with the buzzing of bees and the beautiful wings of butterflies.The more I thought about it, the more sad I became, a small thing suddenly stuffed into my ears, and then I heard a shallow song whispering in my ears: "The black sky is low, the bright stars are flying with the insects, the insects are flying, who are you missing" I slowly opened my eyes, only to see Gu Xi's face slightly sideways, and the lights on the car tilted on his handsome face, reflecting a quiet and peaceful face.He leaned against the car window with his chin in his left hand, quietly watching the raindrops break on the window, as if enjoying a beautiful scenery.The corners of his mouth were lightly raised, hooked with a touch of evil affection, and his slightly curly long eyelashes were like fluttering butterflies in the light, beautiful and charming.I was looking at him from the car window, and the curvature of the corners of his mouth widened more and more, and I was so shocked that I didn't know what to do.I looked at Gu Xi in a daze, and the heart on the left suddenly stagnated, and then beat violently again.I dodged the tenderness he threw over, and hurriedly closed my eyes, but my heart was inexplicably flustered, my mind was full of Gu Xi's affectionate and little evil smile, his eyes were as blue as the sea, turbulent and gentle."
Insects fly and flowers sleep with a pair of talented people, not afraid of the dark, only afraid of heartbreak, whether tired or not, regardless of the southeast and northwest" The song in the headphones is still ringing, and my inexplicably flustered heart gradually calms down with this gentleness.When I think of Xu Cheng again, I am no longer sad and anxious, and I can calmly think of all his good and affectionate feelings.Gu Xi, thank you for always being by my side."
Su Han, let's break up."
As soon as he returned home, Xu Cheng called.Hearing the familiar and heartless words on the phone, the original joy turned into complete despair.In a simple word, how much does it take to hurt people to be so deep I have been trying to enter your world, and what awaits me is your most ruthless abandonment.I didn't speak, afraid that I would cry as soon as I opened my mouth, and then let go of everything I had to force you to stay.You were silent on the phone for a long, long time, and when I thought you were going to hang up, you said to me lightly: "Good night, Su Han." ”"Don't Xu Cheng, let's not break up, okay, don't leave me, please, please" I finally couldn't hold back my tears, and cried all at once, begging you constantly."
Xu Cheng, I was wrong, I won't make you angry anymore, I won't quarrel with you anymore, let's not separate, okay, beg you, okay to stay" "Xu Cheng, don't do this to me, isn't this the last good night, don't I want this, I don't want to break up." ”"Su Han, I'm sorry."
I stared blankly at the phone that hung up, and the screen went black in an instant, and it seemed as if my world was beginning to crumble.I cried and called back your phone, hoping it was just a joke you played on me, but I only heard the cold system voice: "The phone you dialed has been turned off, please wait" In an instant I seemed to hear something in my heart was broken, a seed that had just sprouted died there, and the yellow leaves hurt the heart.The phone rolled down from the palm of my hand, causing a loud noise in the quiet room, stirring up waves in my heart.I hugged myself tightly, trying to find a little warmth, and I looked at Cinderella Cinderella smiling on the pillow, and my shoulders trembled, and I finally cried out loud.Xu Cheng, do you know how much I regretted arguing with you when I came back.If I could do it all over again, I would definitely tear up that notice in my temper, but I don't want to quarrel with you and make you angry, and then leave alone in a huff.Xu Cheng, there are really too many things you don't know, I don't say it, you don't ask, it's too far between us.Just like the distance between two seas, I am in this sea, and you are in that sea.I chased my whole life and ran to the center of the sea, wanting to reach out and hug you, but I found that you were not in this sea, and finally drowned in the bitter deep sea, with a salty tongue and a dumb throat, crying and swollen eyes and laughing recklessly.Our distance is indescribable, and the bitter emotion is even more indescribable.I thought that if I had you, I would have the whole world, but in an instant I realized that it would be nice if we didn't start and stay at the beginning.At least, you don't blame me, I don't hate you.There were still funny cartoons on the TV, but I couldn't laugh at all.Xu Cheng, didn't you tell me that if you were sad, you wouldn't be so sad when you watched cartoons, but why, I just feel more and more sad You are not by my side, how can I be happy The khaki notebook that fell on the floor was glowing with the warmth of early autumn, and a little light and shadow fell on the book, just turning to the page where you put pen to paper: "thecatttothebackyard that cat went to the backyard" "theostfavoritecat's favorite cat" You also said that it was your confession to me, the most affectionate confession.Xu Cheng, I hope it is just a nightmare.After waking up from the dream, you can still be by my side and read my name lightly.The forgotten street lamps in the old alley are still flickering, accompanied by the sound of "crunching" as if they are about to break at any moment.Even if it's in tatters, no one wants to come and fix it.In the endless alley, there is a good chance that a few skinny rats will come out, or maybe a few hungry rats will come out.In this dilapidated old alley, it seems to be much colder than outside, and the night breeze full of coolness is coming, and even the exhaled white air is clearly visible.Here, too many things and too many stories have been forgotten.I wrapped my coat tightly and walked slowly into the depths of the alley.The deserted walls around them looked very eerie in the dim light, like ugly and hideous human faces, complaining about the loneliness and grief that they had forgotten.Walking into the depths of the alley, the dim lights flickered, as if to indicate that he would strike at any time, lining the old man's wrinkled and pale old face, with a sense of powerlessness that had gone through vicissitudes.The old man's eyes had sunken deeply, his dry, pale lips were bloodless, and his messy, coarse hair had reached his shoulders without trimming for years.He wore a dirty short-sleeved shirt on his scrawny body, and only a tattered trench coat on the outside in the somewhat chilly early autumn.The old man curled up in a cramped, dirty corner in the cold wind, shivering, looking like he was going to fall down at any moment.Looking down, beside the old man's worn leather boots, there was a thin black cat, which let out a few whinful wails from time to time, crying out of hunger.As if sensing that someone was looking at him, the old man stiffly raised his head and looked at me with his shriveled eyelids, like an aging machine running slowly, rusted and decayed by the ravages of his age.The black cat at my feet also arched its back vigilantly, staring at me with its big pupils.The blue eyes that shimmered in the dark night were very terrifying in my eyes.Looking at its bleeding front legs, I guessed it must have been beaten by a ruthless vendor when it went out to look for food."
Your cat," I asked the old man softly as I first broke the tension in the black, looking him straight in the eye.The old man shook his head slowly, as if he hadn't been active for a long time, moved his mouth, and said very slowly: "It's a stray cat, the black cat is regarded as ominous, even cat lovers don't want to adopt it, and only we who are sympathetic to the disease get together." ”I pursed my lips and didn't speak, I walked to the old man and squatted down, tentatively touched the black cat's head, and after I got it right, I picked it up and said lightly to the old man: "Can I take it away" The old man nodded, and did not say anything superfluous.I think it might be hard for him to talk now.I turned to leave, but the old man shouted to me in a non-standard English, "Goodck, good luck," which was probably the only English he knew in his life.Maybe it was taught to him by a former English teacher, or maybe it was from an old newspaper, or maybe it was something he heard on TV about walking out of an old alley, I exhaled a white breath and hugged the black cat in my arms.Looking at the starry night sky, I sighed softly, but the autumn sky was as cold as winter.The endless crowd is still shouting, and the lonely ronin is still guarding a shabby lamp.I put on my headphones, played a soft nocturne, hugged the black cat and walked home, the music lingering in my ears, causing ripples in my heart.In the late summer and early autumn of my sophomore year of high school, I lost Xu Cheng, but I accidentally picked up a cat
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