"Hello everyone, my name is Gu Beixi, Gu Ying's self-pity Gu" "Eh, no, it should be Gu as the name suggests, as soon as I hear it, I know it's a little beautiful man" At that time, the white starting line on the playground was shining by the sun, and there were still students sweating like rain on the single pole, and there were also girls sitting lazily on the lawn chatting about daily gossip and basking in the warm February sun.ShhhhAt that time, you sat in the last row of the classroom, wearing very little warmth, but you also wore a grass-green school uniform very beautifully.You whistle and shake the stool like a naughty boy, and the "creaking" sound is especially loud in the silence of a classroom.Your face was flushed by the cold wind, but you smiled straight at me on the podium with your neck high, and laughed out two shallow pear vortices.The Ban Ren next to you glared at you dissatisfied, and opened his mouth to scold you for all kinds of bad behavior.You roll your eyes impatiently at Ban Ren, then look sullenly out the window at the clear blue sky.Su Han, if I hadn't promised Uncle Su to live with you, I think that in the rest of the time, I would have taken the high school entrance examination and college entrance examination in a bland, and then been admitted to a good university, and after graduation, I would find a simple job to support my family, and then I would find a girl to marry and have children, until I finally died ordinarily.However, I don't regret that I met you in the most beautiful youth, no matter whether it is wrong or right, we all know this, isn't it, because of the time you accompany me, it is my real youth.I was reluctantly assigned to the same table with you by Ban Ren, and the only reason was that the seat next to you was empty.I vividly remember that when I transferred to your school in February when I was in the first year of junior high school, and when I walked down from the podium towards you, your eyes shone brightly, as if we had been mistaken for a lifetime.Your life is destined to be ups and downs, and my life is no longer ordinary because of the beginning of my encounter with you."
Gu Beixi, where is your pencil", "Gu Beixi, you borrow me an eraser", "Gu Beixi, can you borrow me a ruler", "Gu Beixi, I forgot to bring my textbook, let's read it together." ”"Gu Beixi, Gu Beixi, Gu Beixi, I'm so thirsty, lend me your water to drink."
I held back the anger in my stomach and took out the compass from the desk without changing my face, but Su Han opened his mouth and said first: "Gu Beixi, you are so powerful, you actually guessed that I was going to borrow the compass but I am so thirsty now, can you give me saliva to drink first." ”I looked coldly at Su Han, who was looking forward to it, and couldn't stand the double torture in my heart, and finally made up my mind to draw a long 38th line on the wooden table."
Su Han, you are not allowed to cross the line in the future, and don't ask me to borrow things, you have to borrow someone else's, and we will only be at the same table in name in the future."
I say.Su Han held his face in horror, swallowed his saliva and said to me in disgust: "Little pervert, you are so dark in your heart, you actually want to be the hero and heroine of you who are at the same table with me" I stood up from my seat in a frustrated manner, pointed at Su Han and yelled at her: "You are dark in your heart, can you not be so narcissistic" "Gu Beixi, you two go out to punish me" A Hedong lion's roar suddenly exploded from my ears, I looked at the classmates who were watching the show in a daze, and realized that it was now in class.Su Han, later I would always inadvertently remember that when I went out to the penalty station that day, I walked in front, and you walked behind me, and the brisk steps continued to linger in my ears, making me feel helpless about all your vexatious troubles.It's just Su Han, and later I didn't want to be beautiful with you, so I only stayed at the same table in junior high school for three years."
Gu Beixi, my name is not Su Han, my name is Su Hanxi."
She seemed to be very satisfied with my surprise, smiled and continued, "But you call me Su Han, obviously it is much better than Su Zhiyang's old ghost shouting" Su Han leaned quietly on the white wall, lowered her head slightly and dropped a shadow of her eyelashes, she gently stroked her long curly hair, under the colorful halo she slowly closed her eyes, breathed the air evenly, and the shadow cast on the ground also softened.When the arrogant red rose faded from the spikes of her body, is it also weak I don't know what Su Han was thinking about in the few minutes when he closed his eyes, but for her, I restrained my impetuousness and accompanied her to breathe the breath of February quietly."
Ah Xi, are you annoying me" She slowly opened her eyes and asked me in a low voice, but stubbornly refused to look at me, and turned her head to look at the students in the classroom who were listening to the lecture with peace of mind.I looked at Su Han who was trembling in the cold wind in silence, and I felt a little distressed indescribably, I liked her story, and I wanted to know her rebellious wedge, but I was afraid of her strength.It's like a little boy who encounters a flower in a thorn, even if he likes it, he will hesitate.I slowly took off my school uniform jacket, walked in front of Su Han and put it on her, and there was a hint of tenderness in my somewhat reproachful tone: "Seeing that you are shivering from the cold, you still want to be stubborn, and you have a cold, but you are uncomfortable alone." ”"Thank you" Su Han bit her lipstick lipstick shyly, and embarrassedly squeezed out two words of thanks.I chuckled softly and whispered into her ear that I hated you but never annoyed you.When I resolve to approach the Red Rose, I will not regret it.Who made you make my heart move, and I feel like the stars are dim.But Su Han, you won't understand, a boy who is full of security and disguise can also deceive the beautiful red rose."
Nima's sissy, it's so fucking disgusting like a thief embryo" is like in the TV series, the fat man gives instructions to the little brother behind him like a gangster boss, "Give me a beat until this sissy crawls back" The fists that kept falling on my body were insignificant, and I silently let them vent their anger, even if my stomach was beaten until it hurt, I didn't say a word.A trace of blood suddenly surged through my mouth, and the corners of my mouth also hurt violently, I reached out and touched it, it turned out that the corners of my mouth were scratched, and the blood that flowed out also ran into my mouth.I stared numbly ahead, and just forget it, no one felt sorry for being killed anyway, and there was no point in doing anything.Some people live like they are dead, and I think that's how I died.When all the good things were shattered, the beliefs that kept me alive began to crumble and be in disarray.Is it a hallucination I seem to see Su Han's girl, Su Han, who is always dressed in spikes, and her face overlaps with her face under the silence.It's really fake, it's still true, it's still really Su Han in my eyes, or maybe it's only when she's silent, it's the real her, she pushed away the boys who beat me fiercely, blocked in front of me, and scolded hysterically at the group of boys with a whole body of temper like a hen protecting a chicken.Ugly words kept running out of her mouth, and I looked at Su Han like this with some shock, and the fat people were even more scolded and their faces were blue and white."
I'll tell you that Gu Beixi is covered by me Su Hanxi, if you want to bully him, come and bully me first" The fat man stared at Su Han with a white face, there was really no way to say dirty words to a girl, only to warn me with his eyes and then leave stupidly."
Gu Beixi, you are a fucking bastard hiding behind the girl's back and not daring to speak out, you deserve your parents to divorce and don't want you to be a weak sissy like you, you should have been sent away a long time ago" That was the only word left after the fat man left, but it was very powerful and ruthless to provoke my heart, which was already full of devastated wounds, and also made me fight with Su Han after the fat man and them left."
Su Hanxi, who wants you to be nosy, did I call you to help, I was called a sissy by others, you are very happy, right, Su Hanxi, you really make me too disgusting" "I'm disgusting, if I'm disgusting, if you're disgusting, you, Gu Beixi, just fucking wait to be beaten to death" Su Han's beautiful eyes widened, and the anger that popped up in his eyes was eager to stab me with a knife.I got up from the ground angrily, wiped the corners of my aching mouth hard, and didn't dare to look at Su Han in front of me timidly: "Even if I am killed, I don't need you to intervene, who do you think you are mine, you are just a delicate outsider at best" Su Han gritted her teeth fiercely, anger made her blush, she pointed at me angrily and said: "Gu Beixi, you have the backbone to yell at me, why don't you have the backbone to resist" I laughed softly, even if I don't look at Su Han, I can think of it, Her face full of grievances was full of disappointment for me, I heard my heart dripping blood, and I also heard myself say the words like a bastard: "Su Hanxi, you are the one who really makes me sick" so disgusting that I can't even say the words to push you away Su Han sarcastically scolded me for being a scumbag and a bastard, and turned around stubbornly leaving me with a lonely back, and the wavy curls that rose with the wind stinged my eyes vividly, so it branded the poison of disaster and cruelly cut through the disguise of my body.I will never forget that when I quarreled with Su Han for the first time, she was such a strong person that I forced her to tears.The back of turning around and resolutely leaving, and the tears messy in the wind, made my breathing suddenly stagnant, and my smile became hideous in pain.At that time, our childishness was drawn by me and I left the 38th line; At that time, our relationship was also ruthlessly pushed away by me, who was on guard at the beginning.Whenever I think of myself, I can't help but give myself two slaps, one for you and the other for my stupid self.Su Han, you must not know, my parents divorced and wandered under the fence to being picked up by Uncle Su, I think I am just a cold corpse, with no superfluous words and no superfluous emotion.I don't even have the courage to love everyone around me anymore.That's right, I'm hypocritical to death.I'm not just a scumbag, I'm a dead scumbag
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