"Whew" slowly walked out of the boutique, I let out a long breath of heat, and I couldn't help but raise some of the scarves around my neck, and looked at the bustling street market in a daze.I smiled helplessly, put my hands in the pockets of my coat, and wandered aimlessly through the crowds in my snow boots.And the necklace that was held tightly in the palm of my hand was the idea that supported me and I was still standing beside him.What is courage, it is written in the cowhide notebook.I still remember my mother once holding up big dancing shoes and asking me what to do if I couldn't afford to wear them so big, and I said that I would save them for next year.Mom said again, you can't afford to wear this next year.I replied indignantly to my mother, "I'll keep it for a few more years, but my mother replied with a long silence."
I asked my mother, will I keep jumping my mother and said, my daughter, you have to jump all the time, no matter what happens, unless you die.I asked my mother again, why do you want me to wear the dancing shoes that are obviously not suitable, but my mother said that you can afford to wait a few more years, and if you don't work hard, the dancing shoes that fit no longer will be awkward.At that time, I didn't seem to understand, and I was very disdainful of my mother's opinion, but now it seems that time is really a hunter, and he can always inadvertently catch the prey you see.If the dancing shoes are too big to fit, you have to look for other dancing shoes.It's a pair of shoes that you willingly pick up, and you have to jump all the way no matter how difficult it is.Now, nobs I like someone, theersoniike, just like you.At the end of this passage in the jtikeyou cowhide notebook, there is a smiley face and a "".I guess it's my dad's notebook I've never seen before, and I don't know why it was in the package for my fifth birthday.My mother said that my father died in a shipwreck before I was born, and this fifth birthday gift was prepared for me a long time ago, and even my mother didn't know that my father was hiding such a thing.On her fifth birthday, my mother was very emotionally unstable, arguing that my father was definitely not dead, but just avoided her and refused to go home.And she is also sure that in the past few years of raising me, my father has always paid attention to us, and he still can't let us go.At that time, I was not stupid and was thinking, if I really couldn't let it go, what could make him not return home for a few years and abandon his wife and children Sure enough, when I found out that this package was stored a week before my father's shipwreck, my mother's tight string broke.The strong woman mother in my eyes was admitted to the hospital unconscious for the first time.Before I could unwrap the package, I carefully hid it in the room and found a pair of scissors to open it.It was a beautiful pair of ballet shoes, but they were several sizes larger than my feet.And under the shoes is a cowhide notebook, which is full of dense words.I didn't know much at the time, but I saw my name written on a small piece of paper tucked away in my notebook.I hid this cowhide notebook in a place where she couldn't find it, thinking that when I grew up, I would be able to recognize the words in the notebook.When my mother was a little better, she would babble and ask me what was in the package and show it to her.Of course, I only gave my mom those dancing shoes.It was also after that birthday that my mother's eyes on me completely changed.In the five years when I kept recalling my father, my mother's gentleness and delicacy became the most painful thorn on the tip of my heart.After my mother recovered from her illness, the idea of wanting me to learn dance became more urgent, and even the requirements for me became even more intense.I remember crying hysterically with those dancing shoes after work, and when she saw that I wasn't doing well in dancing, she would raise her coat rack and hit me hard.She was no longer as gentle as before, and when I couldn't stand up with a muscle strain, she hugged me in distress and coaxed me to say that the baby will endure it and it will pass.Now her, as long as I disobey her will, all that awaits me is to be beaten, as if we were not mother and daughter.In the five years that my father couldn't afford to lose, I only had my mother; For more than ten years when my mother hated iron and steel, I fantasized about the contours of my father's face.My world was bleak at that time.Later, when I came into contact with the secrets in the notebook, I found that my father was more delicate than I imagined, and I couldn't help but think that my mother was fascinated by him.Mom really loves my father, from my birth to the present ten years, she has never let herself feel better, every night when I hold the things left by my father and cry heartbreakingly, I began to slowly understand, that is the love that adults want to have all their lives.She also often lifted the dancing shoes left by my father in front of my eyes, and the crying pear blossom and rain scolded me for my ignorance, and forced me to answer why these dancing shoes did not fit I think, just like the story of Cinderella, her crystal shoes did not fit, so it was not necessarily happy to be with the prince.My dancing shoes didn't fit either, so I wasn't favored by my mom.In fact, my mother's dancing shoes don't fit, so I will lose my father, the lover in my father's mouth is not my mother.From those paragraphs in the form of a diary, it can be seen that my father has never had a mother in his heart, and he is just guilty of his mother.So when the shipwreck happened, even though he could escape, he chose to give up.The only thought in my heart is to give my daughter, a pair of dancing shoes.But I hate dancing, I hate the ideas they impose.In this downtown area, the hustle and bustle is still there, but the old man's face has faded.I witnessed it grow with me, but I also fell into my mother's mind, and I was deeply numb.It was like a device that started suddenly, running slowly until it was too old to start it anymore, and then in the cold computer room, there was no movement, and it was dead and silent until it was finally disassembled into a pile of broken copper and iron.Holding the cold necklace tightly, the mobile phone in his pocket kept vibrating, ringing over and over again.I realized it was a call from the dance teacher, and I skipped class again and didn't go to the dance studio to practice.I knew that it wouldn't be long before the phone call would reach my mom, and then another beating would await me, but it didn't matter."
Yo Linqi," a voice sounded in my ears that annoyed me, even though I didn't want to see her walking towards me.subconsciously wanted to turn away and pretend not to hear or see, but in that case, she looked down on her even more, so she simply looked straight at her and waited for her to come."
Hmph, what kind of wind is blowing the eldest lady Xiang at this time, shouldn't you be stalking Beixi at this time" I pressed my long hair fluttering in the wind, and the corners of my mouth were obviously hooked with a touch of mockery.She was not as angry as I imagined, and there was no joy or anger in her eyes with a shallow smile: "Then shouldn't you Miss Lin also be babbling and pestering my Arlo" She deliberately bit the two sounds of "my", the provocative meaning was clear, but without waiting for me to respond, she said to me with a provocative purpose: "Lin Qi, let's have a good talk." ”I frowned slightly, my face was a little displeased, and I thought that it was still early, so I obeyed her and followed her to the park where there were not many people."
Everyone can see that you like Arlo's thoughts, but Arlo doesn't like you, does he" Xiang Qingtian laughed softly and said, "He likes me." ”"Xiang Qingtian, what do you want to say" I clenched my fists fiercely, and the pain of my nails sinking deep into my palms was not as good as her sentence "He likes me".Yes, they are all tacit things, but when they are said, they have a different meaning.It is announced, and the hunter declares that the prey shows off."
But Lin Qi, I don't like him at all, but" She straightened her very beautifully trimmed short hair, and the confidence in her eyes made me strange, "Even if it's not something I like, I'm very possessive and refuses to be touched by others, right" My heart suddenly froze, and her cold voice exploded in my ears again: "We all understand the simple truth, but Lin Qi, since I dare to put A Luo next to you, I won't be afraid of his betrayal, do you believe it" "It was you who told him to call me what you drugged" I gritted my teeth and couldn't help but shudder, I felt something unusually bitter, choked in my throat and couldn't spit it out or swallow it.Xiang Qingtian suddenly chuckled, touched his face, and had some self-deprecation: "Yes, he was willing."
Lin Qi, look, I'm not as beautiful as you, but he still chose me, don't you think you're a little pathetic?"
”I pulled the corners of my mouth sadly and suddenly looked up at the sky.Under the pale yellow sun, the young man's ridicule and banter seemed to have returned to square one.Maybe this is what Daddy wrote in his notebook: I like you, which means that it is difficult for me to like someone else; I love you, which means that my self-abuse and self-harm will be with you.I don't know why I have such a deep obsession with Arlo, I just know that it is hard for me to forget that sunny weather, everything was beautiful, he stepped on the unruly wind, just to meet me and fall in love at first sight."
Lin Qi, when it comes to this, I'll put it bluntly, I like Gu Beixi, and I want to get him by any means.As for the Arlo you love, what should I say" Feeling Xiang Qingtian's desire to speak again, I panicked all of a sudden, and asked her eagerly what she wanted to do, and even the voice she spit out became sharp."
Isn't the spare tire a good choice" she laughed to herself, her face was very heartless, "boyfriend's spare tire, the spare tire for night love, and even the spare tire for marriage" "Xiang Qingtian" She seemed to be very satisfied with my reaction, nodding at my anger, and finally slowly walked into me, her ill-intentioned eyes were full of calculation and danger.She gently hooked my chin, looked at it carefully, and said, "Lin Qi, do you know that my first time was also him, I guess you are too, it's funny, his kind of person is so greedy for clean girls, but you like him, and I have hatred." ”I slapped Xiang Qingtian's hand off fiercely, and scolded her angrily, there is only one in the world who she does not appreciate Xiang Qingtian, she will never know, how much I want to possess his pampering and infatuation.Xiang Qingtian, you only know that he is constantly hurting you, but have you ever looked back and thought about it, when you were injured by Gu Beixi, he turned his back on his guilt for me and was desperate to be by your side."
Xiang Qingtian, don't fucking appreciate it" Which time is not him, Ah Luo appeared in front of you for the first time, even those of us who can see it, but there is only him in your eyes, Gu Beixi smiled mockingly, and the last hesitation in her eyes was also covered by hatred, she pointed at me and roared hysterically:" Who is rare, his liking is satisfied by hurt, do you think I'm very good, what's more desperate than losing my body, isn't my ghost look forced out by you one by one, do you think you are very clean" "Lin Qi, this is just the beginning, I said that you will not die well. ”: