"Go back and go back again, look at that shoe is too small, it's not for her prince prince look for your bride again, it's not your bride who sits next to you" It wasn't until the day was fully dawn that I hurried home, quietly opened the door and looked at the empty living room, I breathed a sigh of relief, and tiptoed towards my bedroom.But I didn't want my mother to come out of the kitchen with a chicken nest head all at once, glanced at me tiredly, and said weakly: "If you come back and are sleepy, go to sleep first, and I'll help you save breakfast." ”I stopped silently, staggering the forbearance in my mother's eyes, but my heart was unspeakably sour.Didn't return overnight.Before I did it, I was beaten half to death by my mother, but now she has begun to grow old, and her body is gradually unable to bear the burden of working day and night.I knew that she had changed her attitude because of my suicide a few days ago, otherwise she would not have compromised in front of my daughter.She only has one daughter, and I only have one mother, even if we have resentment between us, we can't resist the shackles of blood.She loves her father so much, so much wants me to jump for the rest of her life, how can she be willing to let me die in the middle of the road, and I can't fulfill the requirements that she wants to achieve in her poor lifeNo one knows better than me about my mother's desire and hope that her daughter will become a phoenix, she is tired of running around, and she is working all night during the New Year, not for glory and wealth, but for a girl named "Lin Qi".So that she could put on beautiful dancing shoes, she proudly raised her head in the light and looked down like a princess in a castle.Mom, she's a natural dancer, Daddy is a drifter on the sea, and I'm their daughter.Carrying a dance dream, stepping on dance shoes and standing on tiptoe, dying in the gorgeous and intricate dance steps, dancing the dream of a lifetime."
Mom, get some rest."
I gestured slightly, raising the most beautiful arc angle, as if I had really received royal etiquette.I walked upstairs with my feet upstairs, my back resolute without a hint of nostalgia, as if I was not her daughter, and she was not my mother.Although my mother was no longer harsh on me during that suicide, I could see the forbearance and helplessness in her eyes.It's not that she doesn't want to care about me, but she doesn't know how to care about me, she is afraid, afraid that I will "die" again.Between us, in the time when we can't go back, we are destined to have no family affection, and some are just the requirements of an elder for the younger generation.The only thing that can maintain the status quo is the only remaining bloodline.I love dancing, but I don't approve of what she does.I'll never forget a childhood when little girls craved companionship the most, and all I remember was the cold dance studio and when my mother lifted the hanger.Suppressing the boredom in my chest and returning to the room, I quietly looked at the predominantly pink bedroom, turned around and locked the door, and couldn't help but gasp.I don't know why there was a mist in my eyes, and I sat down on the ground weakly and sobbed quietly.I don't like pink at all, but because of my mother's words, pink is the symbol of the little princess, everything in my bedroom has been replaced by my mother to pink.Placed next to the pillow was a Cinderella doll given by Han Xi, where she was smiling quietly without a little sadness.I still remember the first time I was knocked by Han Xi and broke myself wearing another mask, and the embarrassment and embarrassment made me want to tear off my face and become a faceless stinky skin.At that time, I threw away my elegant mask, wore an extreme mask and got drunk in a dimly lit bar, and was almost taken away, but it was Han Xi who came with the boy named Ercheng in a grand manner, scolding and saying that I was the woman her brother had a crush on.Later, Han Xi took me away and threw me on the motorcycle, and carried me in the middle of the night without saying a word, shouting loudly with a mouth full of dirty words, and the piercing whistle kept ringing in my ears, violently bombarding my tinnitus.I was dizzy and accompanied her around most of the city, and when she also felt tired and stopped the car, I rushed out of the car and ran to the side of the road without saying a word and vomited.It wasn't until I vomited until my stomach was sour that Han Xi walked up to me with a delicate handmade knife in her hand, and laughed so much that I thought she was going to throw me to her brother, rape me and then kill her.But she pouted, and pulled me across the sidewalk where I was sitting and was silent.The dim light hit her body, glowing with a slightly cold outline, she slowly pulled out a smile, and said to me in a pitying tone, Lin Qi, I really pity you.I almost stood up in a hurry, pointed at Han Xi and said angrily, Su Hanxi, what do you want Although you pierce me, why are you looking at me so pitifully She chuckled to herself, and there was no trace of emotion in her dark and charming pupils, she said, Isn't it a lot better Wearing an elegant mask and pretending to look like that, isn't it very tiring Then Lin Qi You said, isn't it exciting to join the current circle I stared at Han Xi in a daze, and I was about to see her through, but in the end, I still compromised first, Su Hanxi, What the hell do you want I just hope that even if you join this circle, you have to love yourself, otherwise you will regret it.This is not a request, this is advice.She gently evoked a touch of coldness, as if she remembered something unhappy, and a faint sadness was stained between her eyebrows.In the dark night, the dilapidated street lamp creaked, she gently stood up and walked past me, brushed her long curly hair, stepped on the motorcycle and put on a hard hat, and said, Then Lin Qi, do you need to hitchhike At that time, I was only one year higher, and sat down with a nervous heart, and my mind was full of what Han Xi had said.I thought that she would be as arrogant as she would ignore a hypocritical person like me, but she easily saw through the cowardice under my disguise, thoughtfully avoided my sensitive heart, and solemnly taught me a lesson as a first meeting.She didn't say anything sarcastic about my falsehood, nor did she disdain me to join, but just stood at the height of the meeting and told me that the mask would get tired after wearing it for a long time, so that I could learn self-love in the circle.Yes, if it weren't for Han Xi's relief, then my youth would be even more gloomy and bleak.Looking at Cinderella next to my pillow, I cried with joy, glad that after all the sorrows in the world, I could always see the light.And Han Xi is the light that rescues me, so that I will not be so unbearable in the quagmire.The exchange of masks is like a mixed fate, we are God's toys, we have been put down and picked up again and again.I'm not Cinderella, I don't have crystal slippers, only dancing shoes, but I also hope that I can be like Cinderella, blessed by God, with a beautiful dress, beautiful crystal slippers, and the prince who awaits her.Despite such a change of fate, Cinderella's final outcome may not be good, and I would like to be Cinderella, wearing a beautiful dress and a crystal slipper to meet the prince, and then wake up from a midnight dream and secretly rejoice to see each other tomorrow.Ah, my prince, have you been waiting for me even though I am wearing dancing shoes."
Mom, the organizer of tonight's dance party invited me to dance, and the invitation has been delivered, can I go" Sitting at the dining table, I carefully observed my mother's face, and my palms were already sweating.You know, my mother has always forbade me to "show up" in dancing, unless I was at a dance party on the stage, and my mother allowed me to dance at the dance.And today's dance party is not very important, but it is not much on the stage for entertainment."
Hmm."
My mother glanced at me lightly, and said quietly, "Go with you, you are not allowed to go home at night." ”I was overjoyed, agreed to my mother's request, got up and ran back to the bedroom and took out a shoebox.In the beige shoebox lies my most precious dancing shoes, the ones that I fell in love with at first sight on the street.I couldn't help but roll on the bed a few times in excitement before I ran to the closet in a panic and carefully removed the tutu that I had made yesterday.Like a treasure, I held the white tutu and gently took out the meaningful pair of dancing shoes, and the real touch of holding it in my hand was as if I had the whole world."
Eh, Sister Linqi has succeeded, don't worry, I will definitely bring everyone beautifully, come on" I hung up Xiaoguang's phone with a light smile, stayed on the name of the screen, and finally pressed to dial it."
Ah Luo, are you busy today, oh, I don't have much to do, it's just that I'm okay at tonight's dance, you can come and see, okay, you can also call Qingtian, don't worry, I will definitely not quarrel with her today, I just want you to see me dance, well, that's it, it's decided, see you in the evening."
I silently pressed the phone, unable to express my joy or anger, but the corners of my eyes moistened inexplicably.It turns out that our only remaining boyfriend and girlfriend relationship still depends on Xiang Qingtian's emotions to decide whether to see each other or not.I thought you would like me one day, but I seem to be wrong, so if you like Xiang Qingtian, can you really do it without caring to give up and then easily like me I know, impossible.Standing on the stage in the spotlight, I blushed and looked down, but I didn't see the figure that promised to see each other but didn't see it.I gritted my teeth and put away my loss, and looked at Han Xi and them without a trace, trying to adjust my emotions.Lin Qi, you can do it, you can jump if he doesn't come.I breathed deeply, tried to smile a little, and stood on tiptoe and stretched out my arms the moment the music started, as if I had just learned to walk and couldn't wait to dance, with that novelty and pure love, and at this moment I only had those beautiful and intricate dance steps in my eyes.As if responding to a promise or expectation for more than ten years, everything in the past suddenly flashed in my mind, and the soft and gentle music sounded in my ears.This year, this month, this day, this night, I stood on the dance, which was not as popular as everybody, and conveyed all the joy and happiness through dance steps.I caught a glimpse of the door that was gently pushed open, and when I saw the figure of the person who came, I smiled more and more, no longer feeling bound and tortured, and only told myself here that I really like to dance.Han Xi, Ah Luo, Xu Xian, Xiaoguang, Beixi and Uncle, oh and my mother who has been holding a grudge for more than ten years, I want to say, I don't hate anymore, I am very happy here, I like the feeling of jumping off the stage.My old father, who died early, you and that aunt in the sky, have you seen me dancing ballet, happy smile, and I, will it be the pride of you and my mother, when I walked off the stage, I changed into a beige dress and came to them, the group of friends I cherished the most.I listened absentmindedly to their complaints about the ball, but Yu Guang kept following Arlo, who was leading to the sunny day, and my heart was even more bitter.I shook my head to shake off the boredom, but when I looked up, I suddenly saw Arlo break away from Xiang Qingtian's hand and walk slowly towards me."
Then dear Lin Qi, can you dance with me" He rarely gracefully took the back of my hand and gently dropped a kiss.I nodded my head in distraction, ignoring the gaze that almost burst into flames on the sunny day, and the anger that came through a corner.The moment of the dance was almost at the same time, Xiang Qingtian's fist clenched tightly, and an unread message flashed through the phone I threw in my bag.At 23:44, I was angry
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