"Hurry up, hurry up, I'm so excited" "Oh my God, what should I do, my heartbeat can't help but accelerate" "Countdown, countdown, hurry up and prepare", "Ten", "Nine", "Eight", "Seven", "Two", "One" In the hall surrounded by crowds, countless light sticks kept waving under the stage, and the numbers flashing on the big screen stopped at "one", and the atmosphere of the audience rose up all of a sudden, and even left their seats and stood up, holding a long horizontal bar and shouting passionately: "Xu Xian, Xu Xian, Xu Xian" Under the difficulty of maintaining this internal discipline, even the teachers indifferently chose to ignore it, sitting in the front row and watching the spotlight appear without blinking.When the spotlight appeared, the atmosphere entered again, but everyone held their breath and looked straight ahead expectantly.I glanced coldly at the crowd of people in the audience, sitting in front of the crystal piano, it was hard to tell what was going on.Unwilling to be ridiculed and resisted, or numb, I have long been accustomed to the feeling of standing in front of the stage and being watched by everyone, I can't say how happy I am, but at least it's not bad, but I don't understand, why I'm standing at the height I am today.Since I was a child, I have been given the noble title of "Piano Princess", and I am used to the feeling of being held in the tip of my heart by my mentor and being noticed, but I always feel that something is missing that makes people care about something special.I'm Xu Lulu, a freshman, and I've loved someone.When my fingers covered the piano keys, I looked at the black and white keys, the familiar touch rushed to my face, I closed my eyes gently, and in the hall that gradually quieted down, I seemed to hear only my own breathing, so smooth and not a little high.Pressing the familiar keys, I breathed calmly, and in this homemade piano song in an old love letter, I listened to the beating notes, touched them and laughed with them.But in the end, it fell into silence, played a high-pitched turn, and finally returned to reincarnation after the notes rose and fell, leaving the song dead in a sad murmur.Just like the original composition of this song, the old love letter is not a love story, but a story of displacement and poverty.The girl who is destined to be sad meets the gentle prince, who sings all her life, confesses under the moonlit night, and finally returns to silence under the ebb and flow of the tide, so that the sad reincarnation becomes a murmur and shout for the old man.I bit my lower lip in pain, and I only needed a small movement to sit in the bright light, and no one could see my emotions in the audience.There is only a place where no one can see, I will cry, I will frown, and I will cry out under the dead moonlit night.I once loved a teenager named Xu Cheng.He died in the summer rain of youth, taking with him the old love letter I left him.Perhaps at the last moment, he remembered me with pity, clutching the pale green envelope and muttering sorry in his mouth.I still remember when I was a child, when we were still in the third grade of primary school, we were just introduced to the subject of English, and we were taught by a female foreign teacher, whose English name is "Rian", from England, with neat short hair.She smiled beautifully, and there was a hint of shyness in her dimples.She likes to joke with us in class, and sometimes she even raises a blackboard brush and chalk to fight with us, as if two teams are fighting to the death.For this reason, she was also called by the director to the office to give a lecture.Ms.
Rian was a multi-talented woman, speaking good British English and American English, and although we at that time sounded completely confused like listening to heavenly books, we also felt that the tones that came out of her mouth were so beautiful and charming.She taught us to sing, to dance, and in her spare time to teach us art and some basic national etiquette.At that time, Teacher Rian was a legendary heroine in our eyes.Elegant and dignified, straightforward and not procrastinating, there is no adult frame that is good for all students, and will theorize for our uncle who sells breakfast at the school gate to cut corners.The most impressive thing about Ms.
Rian is that after teaching us the pronunciation and basic knowledge of basic words, the first phrase she taught us to read was a simple combination of two words with only six letters.Ove love me.She writes like this, seriously teaching us to read it over and over again, so serious and so sad.She told us that we must love ourselves, and when we looked at each other and couldn't figure it out, she realized that we didn't know what "love" was when we were ten years old.In our little eyes, the word "love" is undoubtedly what our father often says to my mother, or what our parents and elders say to us.Oh yes, the senior sisters will often say to their good friends, "I love him, does he know it", "I really love him", "why is he close to other girls if he loves me", and even when the teachers reprimand the blushing senior sisters, they often mention the word "love", so what does this mean?
Why did Teacher Rian also mention to us why she was so sad when she said this word, at that time, I asked Teacher Xu Cheng stupidly what Teacher Rian meant, Xu Cheng shook his head in confusion, While everyone is also looking left and right in a daze, the years are like a big knife that deeply cuts between all of us, entwining the threads that maintain the relationship at hand.Later, what a distant word.Later, my mother died, my father remarried, Mr.
Rian returned to England, I fell in love with Xu Cheng, Xu Cheng fell in love with another girl, you see, how cruel it must be to be willing to let us all grieve The day Teacher Rian left, she said to the twelve-year-old, Lu Lu, the teacher loves you, but I have to go.She cried very sadly that day, but I was very confused, and what did the teacher say to me about the love she me, and she also told me that she loved a boy and wrote him a love letter, but the love letter finally became old and began to turn yellow and moldy, and finally was buried in the soil and cried.I silently looked at Teacher Rian's crying pear blossom with rain, at that time I was in no mood except a little uncomfortable, but she cried louder and louder, and finally hugged me tightly in the airport, and said I love you, I love you, I love you.At that time, I didn't know who she was referring to, but I didn't think much about it, and finally I heard Teacher Rian say to me, Lu Lu, when you fall in love with a boy in the future, please be brave enough to tell him, it's okay to refuse, remember to write a love letter must be handed over to him, although the love letter eventually decays into an old love letter.I nodded abruptly, but I remembered what Mr.
Rian had said in my heart for so long.I think it's because I like her very much or miss her that I can remember what she said, but what saddens me is that I can no longer find a teacher who loves me.When I opened my eyes again, my hands had stopped steadily, and a loud applause followed, and I stood up slightly, straightened the wrinkled white skirt, walked to the center of the stage and bowed away.After getting off the stage, I picked up my civilian clothes and walked into the changing room, and after changing my clothes, I said hello to the teacher in charge of logistics, took out my mobile phone and sent a text message to Su Han and walked out the back door.When I got to the empty playground, I thought that I couldn't help but have a headache when I was almost away from leaving, and I walked out of the school while no one was there.Walking in front of the car of the special driver at home, I was about to get into the car, and the voice like a spell sounded as usual: "Honey, leave without saying hello to me, I will be very sad to know" I secretly clenched my fist, turned to look and saw him standing under a camphor tree, slightly raising his eyebrows, smiling evilly.I have rarely seen such a handsome man, and I have also looked at the contours of other men's faces except Xu Cheng.Evil like him, but it is a danger that I dare not touch.He is very good-looking and can even be said to be beautiful, but he is not half delicate and feminine.His dark pupils were always so deep and dangerous, and even though he smiled politely to you, the chill and alienation that emanated from it really seeped into his bones.From the moment he inexplicably appeared and shouted "dear" to me, I dodged and rejected his expressions of love and continuous love words.He was completely different from my previous admirers, he was so crazy and natural, as if we had loved each other so much and now it was just a one-sided affair with me.His love words always resounded in my ears, obviously with such a clean and beautiful voice, but so loud and heavy.I hid from everything about him, just because I was afraid of him who would be dangerous from the outside.What's more, I can't say that I like him and how I am willing to do it, and besides, he only makes me think of staying away.As if there was some tongue-twisting after the love talk, I kept an attitude of disbelief in his love, ambiguity and romance, maybe he just had different tastes and suddenly became interested in me.After all, people like me, in addition to playing the piano well, are elegant when they are good, and gloomy when they are bad.Just as Xu Cheng would refuse to leave me behind all my figures, the evil ghost in front of me is different, and he is just trying to make me feel fresh.But for him, I can't force my admirer away with a few mean words and warnings like before, how can he be so dangerous and frightened by my warnings, even if I find someone to beat him, he may not necessarily be forced to leave.For him, I forbearance and retreat."
The guards won't let me into the school, I really want to see you play the old love letter in person."
He slowly brought a cold smile into his eyes, paced up to me, put his head to my ear and whispered, "Even though this piece is not written for me." ”"I knew that you were still humiliating yourself, but I didn't expect you to be quite calm."
I pushed him away with a blank face, and was about to get into the car when he opened the door, but he grabbed him by the wrist.I looked at him slightly angrily, but he laughed out loud in a good mood, with a malicious smile: "Don't worry, dear, when you cry and beg me when you get to bed, I won't calm down, after all, we have to be a few times a night, um" I gently hooked the corners of my mouth, and the anger was hidden under the sneer that could not see the flaws, and the tone was also well concealed: "If you want to open a hospital every day, there are all types, and you can take turns."
It's only your type when the hospital opens, I'll give you a benefit, let you only sleep with me, how about it" He didn't laugh angrily, and even thought about it a little, and his eyes kept glancing at me hotly.I frowned slightly, shook off his hand quietly, and said coldly: "Do you think I will let you sleep casually" "Honey, don't say it too absolutely, I have a lot of confidence in you, just like I have a lot of confidence in my appearance." ”I looked at him silently, turned and got into the car, and he didn't stop me this time, and he didn't say anything until the driver drove the car away.I turned my head to look at him behind me, only to see him look straight over, his fiery gaze shining through the rear window, deeply imprinted on my body with a burning pain
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