"It's raining again."
I glanced gently at the hazy rain fog outside the window, frowned slightly as the raindrops shattered on the window, and pulled out my white headphones from my backpack and inserted them into my phone.Uncle Wang, the private driver, seemed to see my frowning face, and as soon as my words fell, he immediately asked cautiously: "Miss doesn't like the rain?"
Seeing that I didn't want to say more, Uncle Wang also closed his mouth and concentrated on driving the car, I listened to the noise and rain outside the window, and listened to the music playing in the headphones, I felt irritable inexplicably, and couldn't help but close my eyes and pretend to sleep."
Friend, tell me to Lao Tzu, friend, what the fuck do you know" "Why did I give birth to you as a scourge, and you are happy when you see your mother lying there" "Xu Lulu, I should really let you drown there" "Lulu, I really love you, I love you so much." ”"If you leave for me, don't come back, and you Xu Lulu, I tell you that as long as I live, don't think about it" "Xu Lulu, you're not a fucking good thing" "Don't be afraid of Lulu, my cousin will protect you, I will intercede with my mother, and I will persuade her well from Aunt Xue, don't be afraid." ”"Lu Lu, Aunt Xue, she is not bad, but at this time, don't worry about it, it will get better in a while.""
Why did our Xu family leave you as a scourge?"
"Lulu, let me tell you, I have a girl I like." ”I woke up suddenly, looked into the familiar car, let out a long breath, and unplugged my headphones without the intention of listening to music again."
Miss, are you feeling unwell?"
I said absentmindedly, but my palms clenched unconsciously, and through the raindrop-covered window, there was a blur outside.Lulu, I really love you.Teacher Rian said this over and over again, as if I was afraid that I didn't know, and emphasized it every day and night.At that time, I thought that Mr.
Rian was too numb, but now I realize that it was because I knew that we could not be together forever, so I wanted to finish all the words.Not only that, but this is a promise from Mr.
Rian, a promise that he will never hurt me.Therefore, a kind girl will live so hard and be hurt so deeply.Teacher Rian is the representative of the good woman among the thousands of women.I don't know when I learned to think about everything with the thinking of an adult, and my face was indifferent until it stiffened, and even my smile was so hypocritical and detached.And if I like Xu Cheng, it's just that he was the first person to appear in my eyes when I was embarrassed and excluded.He was more competent than my brother to be my sister.I don't remember how I responded to him when he told me he had a girl he liked.Maybe it's the same indifference as usual and a casual yes, or a strange smile and hypocrisy, ah, that's good.Ah, that's great, I didn't get what I didn't get, and no one got it in the end.He died in the end, and he didn't say anything too reluctant, he only took the old love letter with him, and before entering the operating room, he opened his eyes and smiled at me, saying that he would be happy.That Xu Cheng, my cousin, where is your happiness I really hated Su Han, you finally gave up everything and planned to stay with her for the rest of your life, but she refused so unknowingly and said ruthless words, and finally forced you to death She cried to death again, and finally I masochized myself to comfort her as a rival in love.In fact, Xu Cheng, we all understand it, don't we, how can you be happy if you stick to your spoiled emotions, you are really calculating, you died when Han Xi loved you the most, so that she would never forget you for the rest of her life.And I, what do you joke about will protect me for the rest of my life, but I turned around to protect another girl's summer flowers, accompanied her for a long time, accompanied her to live on the other side of the world and did not give up.We tacitly know many things, and some things we are making excuses for ourselves, like you are obviously alienated from my emotions, but you say that we have grown up.Or like me, it's not that Han Xi doesn't know each other, even if it is me, how can I be willing to be in second place We are all so arrogant, so I walked towards her, and she loves you as much as I do.I sang nursery rhymes for her, wiped her tears, put down the shelf for her to squeeze the bus, and even picked up a knife for her to make her face more and more hideous in the night.Xu Cheng, do you think I'm embarrassed But do you know that is the gentleness she wants the most, but you can't afford it, but anyone can give it.Su Han loves you, you love Su Han, and Beixi also loves Su Han.But you don't love her more than Beixi.You died when Su Han loved you the most, and died when you let go, so Su Han will miss you for a lifetime, and I will only remember you for a lifetime.It's just that what makes me sad is that the green paper envelope has seven words, and you can't even look at it when you close your eyes."
Miss, it's already here."
In the time of distraction, the car had been firmly parked in the compound of the villa.I picked up the spare umbrella in the car, opened the car door and walked down, and said to Uncle Wang: "Uncle Wang, it's raining heavily outside, come back to the house with me first, and the car will be parked in the garage later.""
Miss, don't need, you go first, it's raining very hard, a person will be wet if you stand in the rain for a long time, I'll park the car and run two steps to arrive, Miss, hurry up and go in, it's too late, Madame is going to lecture again."
Uncle Wang smiled and waved his hand at me, and then rolled up the window and started the car without waiting for me to say more.Seeing that Uncle Wang couldn't be persuaded to move, I also consciously walked to the door, just put away the umbrella and patted my clothes, and as soon as I opened the door, a basin of cold water was splashed in my face.I subconsciously frowned, and quietly stretched out, patted the cold water on my body and said, "Aunt Xue, you are" "Oh, I just opened the door and splashed water, and I couldn't drain it in time at home, so I was too troublesome to pick up the water and splash it outside the house." ”Aunt Xue smiled at me embarrassedly, intentionally or unintentionally, biting the three words "outside the house" very hard.I wasn't angry, I glanced at the kitchen door at home lightly, and said: "Sister-in-law Fang, won't Aunt Xue hand over this kind of thing to Sister-in-law Fang in the future" "Sister-in-law Fang is not young anymore, I have nothing to do all day long, so I will help" I gently evoked a smile, brushed my wet hair, and said: "Since Sister-in-law Fang is not young, it is not bad to find someone who works neatly.""
You have no conscience this day, your sister-in-law is serving your aunt and grandmother with tears, but in the end, you are old and want to kick her away, you conscienceless" Aunt Xue said loudly, threw the basin in my face, turned around and pretended to be angry and entered the bedroom.I silently picked up the basin that had fallen on the floor, and as soon as I changed my shoes, my sister-in-law cautiously walked out of the bathroom, handed me a dry handkerchief, and looked at me with some concern."
Sister-in-law Fang is fine, don't take what I said to heart just now."
I shook my head, took the dry handkerchief and wiped my soaked hair, and whispered to my sister-in-law."
Hey" Sister-in-law Fang sighed helplessly, "Miss, Madame is just blocking a resentment on you, it doesn't matter, be more considerate of Madame, it won't be long before you get better." ”I smiled faintly, unable to tell the affection and detachment, and walked up to the second floor with a handkerchief.When I got back to my room, I shivered, and when I looked around, I realized that the window in the room had been opened, and the cold air was pouring in straight from the outside.Secretly clenched my fists, I locked the door, walked to the window and closed it, then took a civilian dress and went into the bathroom.As expected, I turned on the faucet but no hot water came out, so I plugged in the plug and boiled the hot water, and had to walk out of the bathroom.After changing my wet clothes, I turned on my computer and wandered around the web boringly while the water boiled, but my thoughts were dragged away little by little, and I didn't even care about the words flashing on the screen.I don't like to go home because Aunt Xue, my father's second wife, lives at home.Many times I don't go home if I can't go home, on the one hand, I see that Aunt Xue is uncomfortable, and on the other hand, because Aunt Xue is my father's remarried wife, I can't turn my face directly in the face of her tricks.How long has this status quo been maintainedSince Teacher Rian left for the UK, Aunt Xue's mood has been unstable, and she always likes to vent and vent on me when she has nothing to do.And the people around me used to shout that I should be more considerate of Aunt Xue, except for Xu Cheng, after all, it was not good for her to suffer such a big blow.So, I feel good about the idea of patriarchy, which I still have in my family, and it is still deeply rooted.Grandpa, because I'm a woman, hasn't looked at me a few times in more than ten years.Although I am the "piano princess" on the stage, with countless honors, for my grandfather's thoughts, as long as the children of the Xu family are men, being a beggar is also called arrogance.People who are used to loneliness will also retain the wind in their blood and like to wander and wander.In my memory, only Mr.
Rian said that he loved me, only Xu Cheng said that he would protect me, only Su Han said that we should all be good, and only he said to me so confidently, dear, you will definitely fall in love with me.Obviously, they are all different people, but it is undeniable that they are the only one, and they do not repeat themselves.Even if it was a simple word, they were the only ones who said it to me seriously, even though in the end it was not human.I hated that dangerous man, and I hated his flirtatious tone, but I had to admit that we had known each other for a short time, but the impression he brought me was deeply indelible.Of course, it won't be love, and it shouldn't be."
The time is July 11th of the second year, I am Xu Lulu, I like Xu Cheng
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