A sudden heavy rain broke the clear sky, and the city was shrouded in dark clouds, bright lightning flashed wantonly, and rolling thunder seemed to break through the sky.In this bustling city that never sleeps, all kinds of neon lights are brilliant, and the noisy city in the rain is accompanied by the sound of whistles, which is even more noisy in this thunderstorm.I looked blankly at the downtown where I had been born and raised for more than ten years, and suddenly realized that it was like waking up from a big dream, and there were too many beautiful things in my dream, but when I woke up, I realized that I had nothing.Looking at the various figures passing around me, I suddenly became sad, and at that time I didn't even have a person I wanted to hug.Am I really weak, am I really dependent on everything, I keep running, I want to run to the sea, to follow the waves, to die in the cold and lonely seabed, never to see the world again."
Su Hanxi, can you stop being unreasonable, I let you be willful for more than ten years, but now you still have to go against me" "If you have to do this, then okay, I will move out and I will not get a license, but from now on, you should not have me as a father, and I should not have you as a daughter." ”"Are you doing well, whether you die or not has nothing to do with me anymore Su Hanxi, you just go and practice yourself, wait for one day when you die, don't think that I will come back, and I will go to depression for the rest of my life with the things of more than ten years ago" I fell to the ground in a decadent manner, but I didn't stop standing beside me, and kindly asked What happened, right, the heavy rain is so heavy, who would stay here for an abandoned daughter Su Zhiyang, I never thought that we had finally come to this point, I didn't expect you to abandon me for another woman in the end.It's ridiculous, I used to laugh at myself for having the turn of others to pity me, but now even pity has become so extravagant.Xu Cheng, it would be nice if I died with you back then.At least I won't meet Xiang Qingtian, at least I won't fall in love with Gu Xi, at least I won't see Su Zhiyang get married, at least I won't have the embarrassment I have now.Xu Cheng, do you know that I obviously love that person very much, but I have to give up fighting for a promise, do you know how much I am afraid that what belongs to me will be snatched away by others I cherish this emotion so carefully, but it still fell into an indifferent situation.I'm afraid, I'm afraid that I'll be like Xiaoguang, and what I get after giving everything to my feelings is betrayal.I admit that after knowing everything about Xiaoguang, I hated Xu Yi when I learned that Xiaoguang committed suicide and died, but isn't it the nature of men that no one would give up so much for whom.This is what you taught me, Xu Yi taught me.When I went to see Xiaoguang that day, I also wanted to scold him like Qingtian, but in the end I didn't, because I remembered you.Later, it seems that because I was too careful and sensitive, my relationship with Gu Xi began to deteriorate, so I don't know what it is, I don't know at all.I'm just afraid that I will lose Gu Xi like I lost you back then, I like Gu Xi so much, I like his gentleness and he is good to me, but now how can I accept it, he is gentle to people other than me Xu Cheng, I am so sad, I am so afraid, I am so afraid of losing everything, I am so afraid of being alone.I trembled and got up from the ground, and when I took out my mobile phone and looked at Gu Xi's number, my tears collapsed in an instant, and dozens of calls were not connected.He is no longer the same as before, I can call immediately, and now I feel glad that he can answer my phone call 24 hours a day.Gu Xi, can't we really go back I bit my lower lip sadly and pressed the phone, but I was hung up again and again, looking at the heavy rain, the phone was still ringing: "I'm sorry, the phone you dialed is on the phone, please dial again later" Gu Xi, why am I your girlfriend, but I don't even know where you live now, who you are with Gu Xi, do you really want me You clearly said that you will take care of me for the rest of your life, Gu Xi, you are a liar I listened to the system sound on the phone in despair, and my hand hung down weakly, Looking at the cars coming and going on the street, it is better to think that it is better to die, than to die alone.The mobile phone rang suddenly, which made me sober up for a while, looking at the flashing words on the screen, I choked up excitedly, and after connecting it, I didn't care if he was listening or not, and cried and said, "Gu Xi, I'm so sad.""
You're outside" After being silent for a long time, Gu Xi's slightly hoarse voice came."
Gu Xi, Su Zhiyang doesn't want me anymore."
Listening to Gu Xi's familiar voice, I tried my best to fully say this fact, I have been stubborn for so many years, and I have been in trouble with Su Zhiyang for so many years, I could have left only because I was afraid of loneliness.At the moment when the phone was connected, I was afraid that the person inside would be Xiang Qingtian, and I was afraid that she would say on the phone that Gu Xi was not available or ask me what was the matter, and then sneered at me on the other end.It's really ridiculous to die, now I'm so embarrassed, it's really not that no one can still live well.There's really no way I can lose Gu Xi, it was like that a few years ago, and it's still like this a few years later."
I'm on the 6th floor of Building 3, XX District, XX Street, you can come over first."
I said yes vigorously, stretched out my hand and stopped a taxi, I wanted to talk to Gu Xi more, but the phone had already hung up, and only a cold busy sound remained.I looked out the car window in amazement, my whole body was so wet that it was very uncomfortable, but why did I feel uncomfortable when I heard the alienation and indifference in Gu Xi's words, as if I was about to suffocate Gu Xi, we used to say okay, can it still be counted now Gu Xi, am I really going to lose you When I rushed to Gu Xi, I still couldn't help but have some stage fright, and after staying outside the door for a long time, I hesitated to press the doorbell.I didn't wait too long, and suddenly the door opened, and Gu Xi, who was wearing home clothes, saw that I was soaking wet, and frowned subconsciously, but he still pulled me over and led me in, and then closed the door heavily.He pushed me into the bathroom, and then he said, "There are no clothes for girls here, you can wear my shirt and pants first, and then you will go down in the underwear."
The clothes are inside, the hot water has been put in, let's go inside. ”I nodded slowly, resisted all the things I wanted to ask him, walked into the bathroom, and then took off my clothes and walked into the bathtub.When the body was almost warm, although I still wanted to soak again, I thought that I wanted to talk to Gu Xi more, so I wiped my body and put on the shirt he prepared, but found that the shirt was extremely long and directly covered the thighs, and the pants were much bigger than I imagined when I walked out of the bathroom Gu Xi was not in the living room, and after I didn't find any extra slippers barefoot, I walked directly into Gu Xi's bedroom barefoot.He stopped in front of the window and looked downstairs at the street, smoking a cigarette in his hand without a puff, his eyes faintly cold and struggling.I walked over softly, grabbed him by the waist from behind without warning, took his hand, and took a hard puff on the cigarette.He turned around and looked at me coldly, and wanted to say something, but when he touched my body wearing only a shirt, a trace of panic flashed in his eyes, and then he said, "Why don't you wear pants and shoes?"
”Gu Xi took my hand away, obviously just thinking of this question, and couldn't help but extinguish the cigarette a little curtly, and asked, "Why did you go outside to get drenched in the rain and quarrel with Uncle Su again" "Gu Xi, Su Zhiyang is getting married, and he doesn't recognize me." ”I say.Gu Xi looked at me in astonishment, a little disbelieving.I couldn't help but smile bitterly, now Su Zhiyang's marriage is almost to the point that everyone knows about it, and he only knows now that it is still my mouth."
Then you can stay first, and I'll go back tomorrow and bring some of your clothes."
It's not early now, you go to bed early, I'll go to sleep on the sofa in the living room, good night. ”Gu Xi sighed helplessly, reached out and rubbed my hair before leaving.I grabbed him and said sadly, "Gu Xi, I miss you so much, can you stay with me for a while.""
Su Han, I" Without waiting for Gu Xi to finish speaking, I stood on tiptoe and kissed him, he was a little stunned, but he didn't push me away, but pressed my head and kissed him deeply.The thoughts and grievances of the past few days rushed up all at once, and I hugged Gu Xi tightly, thinking that it would be okay to leave it like this, and it would be best to stay forever when he kissed me.Gu Xi skillfully pried open my teeth, teasing my tongue and lingering with me, after a long time, my face couldn't help but be covered with a flush, and it was a little difficult to breathe.Gu Xi's hand on my back kept moving through my clothes, and I could feel the bodies of both of them unconsciously heating up, but I didn't stop it, letting my body react.Gu Xi pressed me on the bed, panting with a pair of eyes, looking at me with extremely hot eyes, and finally couldn't help rolling off the Adam's apple, and unbuttoned the shirt for me with trembling hands.The hot and hot kisses fell on my body one after another, and I wrapped my arms around Gu Xi's neck tightly, endured the pain of being bitten by him on my collarbone, and let him take everything under the ambiguity of the room.I looked at Gu Xi with a flushed face, and asked him in a trembling voice: "Gu Xi, do you still love me" Gu Xi pressed against my earlobe and spit hot air, a pair of hands kept wandering on my waist, and in a trance I heard him say: "I love you I'm sorry, sunny day."
When I heard the last two words, I couldn't help crying, and at this moment I really understood that I really lost to Xiang Qingtian and really lost Gu Xi.He shouted Qingtian's name, said I'm sorry, said I love you, are you apologizing to her and still being with me Gu Xi, what do you think of me If you really don't love me anymore, why do you always refuse to break up with me, pity me, is it sad and ridiculous, do you love me as a person or love my body, or at this moment, you just treat me as Xiang Qingtian Gu Xi, seriously, I suddenly hate your betrayal of me
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